i cant handle change - logince
warnings: alcohol use, jealousy
https://novelbear.tumblr.com/post/692214741491449856/more-jealousy-dialogue-starters
"logan, darling, please tell me what is bothering you? i can't stand to see you unhappy."
"roman, please figuratively drop the subject. i've said before, i am fine. satisfactory, even."
this had been going on for the past thirty minutes or so. earlier that evening, logan and roman had gone out to a bar after an evening date, and roman ran into an old friend. one he hadn't seen in years.
"oh- why, weren't you close with my brother? it's delightful to see you again!" he had laughed, and it was fine at first. of course it was, logan was not the type to get emotional, not easily.
but throughout the evening, whenever logan attempted to get a word in coversation wise, he was cut off. not by roman, but by this friend. normally, roman would notice something like this and would make an effort to include his lover in the coversation.
however, tonight roman was a little tipsy from having some drinks, and was just so excited to see this person that he hadn't seen in such a long time. he did not realize the way logan was being excluded.
logan's ears did not miss the way the man flirted with his lover, who, unbeknownst to him, mistakened it for some form of platonic gay banter and unknowingly returned the flirting with a laugh. it confused logan's brain, because everything he knew about love said not to flirt with someone while dating another person.
it got too much for logan to handle when the man's hands began to brush against roman's chest, and when he began to flutter his eyelashes. roman was too much of a... well, too roman to realize, but logan caught on first, taking roman's arm and exclaiming that they had to leave. they had matters to attend to. roman was protesting on the way out, but logan found that he didn't seem to care in the moment. he just felt so... strange.
as roman pouted against the passenger seat window, logan's stomach fluttered with nerves as he drove them back home. you were not supposed to flirt with another while dating someone, he knew that. so... why did roman do it? had he done something wrong, something that made roman want to love someone else?
it wasnt until they got home, when roman had some water and slowly sobered up, that he realized how silent and upset logan seemed. he tried to see what was the matter, but logan didn't seem to want to hear it.
"darling, have i done something wrong?" roman frowned. "i don't recall doing anything at the bar that could have made you angry." he said, furrowing his brows at the way logan tensed at the mention of the earlier evening. "...have i done something wrong? my love." roman moved to take logan's hands, and logan looked away, which hurt the creative man's heart a little.
"my love," roman repeated, "you and i both know that the reason our relationship is healthy and ongoing is because of communication and understanding. if i've done something to upset you, i need you to tell me so i can fix it." he frowned, "of course, you don't have to now. but i'd much rather we work this out than have you not talk to me. i miss your voice already, mi amor..." roman placed a kiss atop his hand, and logan let out a sigh.
"...roman, do you still possess romantic feelings for me?"
roman could practically hear his own heart break.
"what-? mi- mi amor, of course i do. what on earth made you think i didn't still love you?" he spoke quietly, genuine concern in his eyes as he watched his boyfriend.
logan sighed. "at... at the bar. you appeared to be flirting with your... old friend. flirting is something that is meant to be between lovers, and between lovers only. i- have i done something wrong? i don't- i just would like you to stay near me, as my lover. i need to- i don't understand."
logan was met with silence as he stared at the floor, and for a moment, worry began to spiral around his brain. but then, hands cupped his face and lifted his head, and he was soon looking into roman's eyes, which were soft and loving as ever.
"darling, i'm so sorry you felt that way. you're- my favourite person in the world, alright? i thought that my friend was just trying to be friendly, is that why you rushed us out of there?" at logan's gentle nod, roman made a soft sound of concern. "oh, my love... i'm so sorry." he carefully moved to wrap him in a hug, taking a breath "i should have been more attentive to how you were feeling. i felt as if something was off, but... i thought i was being silly. i shouldn't have done that, i'm truly, very sorry."
logan looked to roman with a frown, uttering, "but you were- flirting with him. i don't quite understand why you were doing that, can you please explain?"
roman sighed a little, nodding. "yes, darling. sometimes when friends banter back and forth, they make flirtatious comments in a joking way. joke about things such as kissing each other or going on a date or other things." he'd frown. "i swear on my life, i'd never be disloyal to you. you're perfect for me, and i wouldn't trade you for anyone in the world."
logan stayed quiet for a moment, taking in a deep breath. "...do you promise?"
he recieved a sad smile in response, along with a nod. "i promise on my grave, mi amor. now, come on." he took logan's hand. "it's late, we should be getting to bed."
logan paused, taking a breath and nodding. "...alright. i still feel a little unsure, but i'm tired, so we can talk about this tomorrow."
roman frowned, nodding. "alright. i will give you as much love as you need, alright? let's lay down."
he carefully took logan to their shared room, handing him some pyjamas before changing into his own, letting logan take off his glasses and get into bed before he followed, spooning the other from behind. he left a small kiss on his head, humming in satisfaction as he felt logan relax a little under him. he would make this up to him, he swore.
"i love you, my darling. goodnight. i'm going to fix all of this, i promise. you just rest, alright?"
"...thank you. and, i- i love you too, dear."
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