:^)

A place to keep all my sadness, wrapped up as a gift never to be presented. I don’t put tws on this blog, although there wouldn’t be much to tag anyways. This is meant to be a place where I can wallow & ruminate.

[ghostchaand]

i got broken up with, i had to move out from the apartment, & my grandma died all within the span of 3 weeks and I’m so numb and exhausted and it’s only now getting harder to get out of bed every morning

[ghostchaand]

[ghostchaand]

i got broken up with, i had to move out from the apartment, & my grandma died all within the span of 3 weeks and I’m so numb and exhausted and it’s only now getting harder to get out of bed every morning

[crazysodomite]

Do you ever see people you know being friends/socializing with each other and think Damn. They're probably having so much fun and interesting conversations. Sadly I can't join them due to not being ensouled

[mashpotatoe]

i'm still wonderful

[tlirsgender]

Things people hate hearing:

You are capable of harm

You have some level of power and agency

Ergo it is your responsibility to communicate your needs and boundaries

If you lie to someone about something being okay when it isn't, that is on you

Something being a trauma response doesn't exempt it from harming your relationships and the other people in them

Enabling your trauma responses will not make them go away, and it is your responsibility to work on yourself for your own wellbeing as well as the people around you

Being A Victim cannot be a pillar of your identity forever, and being victimized does not make you incapable of harming other people (see above)

You are not a mouse in a jean jacket you are an eel with a gun / adult human being who can use your words even if it's Scary

Having a personality disorder doesn't make you evil but you have got to get off of Personality Disorder Tumblr (see above, re: enabling)

[tlirsgender]

Deep sigh. You want me to ~be compassionate~ here's the compassionate answer: your trauma will tell you you're a helpless child forever and you need to Not Think This Way for yourself (living under the assumption you're still in danger whether you actually are or not) and everyone else who has to tiptoe around your Sensitivity. That's how you break the cycle and you can only do this by accepting responsibility for your actions. And it seems like a small semantic thing but imo step one is calling yourself a survivor instead of a victim. Self identifying with your victimhood helps No One. You lived, now get up

[havingapoemwithyou]

[i basked in you] by Franz Wright

[holycalf]

when fiona apple asked “how can i ask anyone to love me when all i do is beg to be left alone”. well i have not found an answer but if anyone else has lmk

[ghostchaand]

I miss you and it’s not fair

[spectralhwa]

stop trying to contact me I don’t exist

[ghostchaand]

nothing beats waking up in your own bed and realizing how sad you really are

[restinpiss]

Did God tell you to block me ?

[watermotif]

This summer hasnt felt like anything at all

[ghostchaand]

what does it mean when someone wants to do “exclusive friends with benefits” and tells you to not get attached but spends hours talking with you at night until they fall asleep even on the nights you say good night early

[lesjourspasses]

It's important to remember that God is there both when you feel at one with the love in the world and when you feel as if you need to crawl out of your own skin. Even then God is there

[vexheart]

[anxeious]

[geryone]

Lonely Women Make Good Lovers, Keetje Kuipers