so so so so so full of love for all my friends
i simply care so much about things around me. not always: sometimes the depression digs too deep & causes me to give up the care.
but deep in my bones i am an optimist and believe that everything will actually be okay in the end. like my mom tells me. "alles komt goed. en zo niet, dan toch." which i guess translates to "everything will be okay. and if not, then still". implying that, even if things aren't okay in the end, you'll learn to deal with that, and then things will be okay regardless.
i am full of love and care. i am a person made of pieces of everyone around me. i carry my friends with me in my soul. i lovingly carry around my childhood friends and memories, even if i haven't spoken to some of those people in literal years.
i am so full of love for anyone who has had any interactions with me. i am so full of love for everyone I've forgotten in my life. i am so full of love for everyone who i haven't met you, but who will change my life in ways i cant even begin to think about.
i am full of love. and everything will be okay in the end.
this post is like 6 months old now and it's truer than ever. i love my friends so much and I'm a little bit in love with all of them.
i have realized that I'm on the aro spectrum. but the platonic love i feel for people is so intense. i love my friends so so so much and sometimes it's really hard to let them know. but i try. and i think they do know.
when i made the original post i hadn't started school yet. in the past 6 months I've met so many wonderful people who genuinely mean everything to me. already I've formed life changing friendships which i know will be life long. i love my friends. so much.
