☆a weird kittie☆ (VENT BLOG)

hi, I’m kittie... I vent here and talk about triggering topics sometimes

[glitter-kittie]

I feel so alone lately, I just want a break from people and from life... I also want to vent my emotions but I don’t want to bother anyone... not like they care or understand either. If my psychiatrist didn’t get it, why would they? I just wish I could stop time for a second so I could catch up with life for a bit

[glitter-kittie]

Hey, im 21 now. I’m in my second year of college. I’m majoring in chemistry and I finally have a group of friends where I actually belong. I moved away, I mostly get along with my mom now and she apologized for years of abuse and has changed. I’ve been clean of self harm for 2 years now. I am still dealing with my eating disorder but it’s much more manageable. I’m no longer depressed, and every time I feel like stopping I’m finally strong enough to keep going. I’m strong enough to defend myself now. I am able to go out now without being scared, I’m able to drive kinda and I keep trying every day. I don’t think anyone will read this, I don’t think anyone remembers my account, but if anyone gets to see this, things do get better. Things can improve and I can finally say I’m glad my attempts didn’t work. Thank you to the people that supported me online, thank you for caring for a scared 16 year old me. Things get better, life gets easier. I am proof of it. Logging out for the near future. Good luck everyone<33.

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[cannibalchicken]

[thememedaddy]

[eaturfacecat-blog]

i hate when people ask me what my hobbies are…i dont have any im just trying to stay awake long enough to keep my life going

[deathchains-deactivated20250109]

[glitter-kittie]

logged back in. i’m 19 years old now and life has gotten easier and harder at the same time. i may not be in an abusive environment anymore but i still feel like somethings missing. im struggling to get in college and im struggling to keep my job. im surprised ive made it this far but i still wish my attempts had worked. i still feel like im 15 looking for salvation in every corner and every person that i come across but i feel much more stupid. i keep waiting to feel better, i keep waiting to find some peace of mind within myself but im genuinely tired. ive come to the realization of life being the process of waiting for something and ive never been good at waiting. i wonder how long i can keep living this in this charade

[yourlocaladhder]

Reblog if you're actively working on your healing journey.

I wanna see how many are out here.

[glitter-kittie]

I’m alive simply because I don’t want my friends to suffer. I don’t want my grandparents to live their last years in sadness, I don’t want my funeral to be an expense, but I truly see no point in being here, I will go to college just because I need to, I will get a job just because I need to, I wake up just because I have to, but I don’t want this anymore

[glitter-kittie]

it’s been a while since I last posted here but even if it has been years since I first started this account, the pain isn’t gone. i hope I have a better mom in my next life, I hope my life gets better at some point, I hope I can get out of here, I hope someone loves me

[glitter-kittie]

why does my mom get mad at me for going non verbal, why does she force me to hug her when she knows physical contact isn’t something I enjoy, why does she says I’m “aggressive” when I get overwhelmed and start trying to explain my feelings, why does she get mad at me for expressing any other emotion other than happiness, why is it hard for her to understand I want to be in silence, why do I always need to talk and entertain her, why can she cry in from of me but I can’t, why can’t she get a hobby and leave me alone, why can’t she lower her voice if she knows loud sounds hurt me, why can’t she understand she is part of the problem and why can’t she see her abusive relationships are my main source of trauma, why is she so selfish and entitled, why does she compare every single bit of her life to mine, why can’t she get some friends that listen to her instead of using me as a therapist, why do I have to suffer the consequences of her own actions, why can’t she just listen and not look at me disapprovingly, why why why why why why why why why why why. i can’t keep living in this house, i can’t keep living with someone this conceited

[glitter-kittie]

I hate my mother so much, it’s insane, every time I start to think hating her is an exaggeration she does or say something to remind me why is she the worst

[glitter-kittie]

I told myself I wouldn’t use this blog anymore but I need to vent and I don’t think my friends would want to listen

[glitter-kittie]

how I haven’t attempted rn is beyond me lol

[glitter-kittie]

I don’t think I have ever been more depressed in my entire life. I thought it was bad a couple of years ago. I really thought it couldn’t get worse but it did. I don’t know who to call, I don’t know who should I ask for help. I just need someone. I don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t have a future. I’m failing school and I feel like I’m losing my friends. I don’t see myself in college. I don’t even see myself alive next month or next week

[glitter-kittie]

I dislike my mother so much. I swear I’m just alive simply because I don’t want my grandparents to suffer if I attempt once more

[glitter-kittie]

I just want for someone to try and not criticize me when I express my feelings. I want to be held in silence, I want to be comprehended. I don’t even want advice or motivation, I just want to be heard.