Cosmic Collision

I am a pale human being with a black hole inside. This is my great escape.

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=huT8vSX20Sw)

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Nowhere

I have travelled a long way here. A long way to nowhere. Why the fuck I am shooting this to nowhere? 

I know something about time.

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The ring of beauty and destruction.

Flirting with danger as much as challenging the limits of one's body and mind, has been a reason to step inside a boxing ring.

Spectators around the ring expect dramatic events where someone should hit the canvas. Regardless of endless sacrifices and training hours, each fighter can feel the fear and fragility of themselves. Signs of destruction are looming above the ring.

Only the visibility of hurt separates boxing from many other sports. One can't play it, like one plays basketball or football. Every taken shot is potentially the last one.

Once in a while special individuals arise in this special sport. Individuals who are able to relax and flirt playfully with danger and their opponent, which seem counter-intuitive. They convert stiff fighting into a rhythmic and balanced movement - remotely reminding of dance. First it hypnotizes the opponent, then spectators, and lastly this beauty converts into destructive force. 

Distance, stance, balance, footwork, timing, angles of attack and defense - everything is in perfect harmony. The opponent can nearly see the shield of invincibility around this masterful individual. He makes you miss, he makes you pay. Sometimes, the other way around.

Thus, boxing has been called as "the Sweet Science". In the video above, one of the most masterful individual, Charley Burley, displays the key skills.

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Nothing is no more or less than the quantity of zero.

Similar to the blank expression on my face.

Heart is beating, muscles are twitching, and oxygen is running through organ tissues - all for nothing.

What I expect from tomorrow? Nothing more.

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Yesterday evening had some valuable moments with old friends. No matter how introverted I believe to be, the value of genuine & meaningful human interactions can never be underestimated. The picture above visualises accurately calmness I felt about this realisation.

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Science reveals all in life is one.

Neil DeGrasse Tyson (via tinyjoynow)

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Foggy morning at the beach. Eyes, legs, and mind are still heavily lagging due to short sleep and yesterday's evening run. The whole body is sensitive to surrounding voices of nature and mild breeze of wind. One of those timeless moments.

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Being conscious of falling down is more painful than hitting the ground. When one hits the ground, the world is already gone. Wind is scratching my face right now.

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Quantifying human performance and by this way attempting to avoid leaps of faith. Seeing and feeling is closer to understanding than hearing and feeling.

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Daniel Kahneman: The riddle of experience vs. memory

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Nobel laureate Daniel Kahneman, author of the indispensible Thinking, Fast and Slow, cracks open the Pandora’s box of how our “intuition” deceives us

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Forgiveness is the key to action and freedom.

Hannah Arendt (via stickydrosera)

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The best way to sweat out all the sorrows and anxiousness. Solitude, silence, and relaxation.

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Switch

There she is again. All shiny and glamorous, and unmistakingly pleading for universal acceptance. Everything is rehearsed. Expected is always to be delivered. Following the pattern of this prehistoric biological dance.

Soon eyes become sore on staring the light of pleasure. I blink twice. In the middle of this darkness, my melatonin levels are shooting through the roof. No sleep tonight. No sleep beside you.

Your mechanical procedure continues - I remember all the stages of it. The timing of your procedure is as accurate as a surgeon's apart from your clumsy hands.

Your breathing accelerates. Unnaturally. Your prolonged eye contacts and lip maneuvers become more frequent. Unnaturally. I am close to the finish line, naturally.

Fuse went out. So did you.

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Reflecting

"For your self-development it's more important to know what you don't know, than knowing what you do know."

These were the words of my friend who is future analyst.

Looking back the posts I have made here so far brought this statement into my mind. The problem is the way I unconsciously filter the content of my posts. I am still hesitant on revealing the whole, erratic, ugly sides of my thinking and emotions.

Am I seeking out for social validation in this given portal through my posts?

Certainly I am discontent regarding the value of my previous posts. Something is holding me back, big time.

In some cases we have been brought with the idea that sharing your anxiety and personal demons is just plain moaning - and trying to get pity from others. At least this was the way in the family I grew up. Although I consciously disagree with it, still it might influence on my behaviour. This is a problem.

Perhaps I acknowledge how dark and brutal place my unconscious mind might be and am afraid it to let it flow freely. This doesn't change the fact that I need it to happen.