Ollie

they/them | agender and queer | i vent a lot | "artist" | very much neurodivergent | furry lmao | 18 | ehlers-danlos syndrome 🦓 https://greentea-mp3.carrd.co/

[istj-hedonist]

459 The Contemplative

459 is one of the most socially withdrawn tritypes. This type needs to be able to take the time to be alone with their thoughts and feelings to sort through and better understand the outside world. 4 brings an emotional intensity as well as a rejection of pressures go conform itself to the world. 5 brings a depth of knowledge and a hunger for more that is hard to satisfy. Combined with 9’s preference for withholding judgement, this makes the 459 both a deep thinker and a deep feeler. 459s can be at risk of becoming too withdrawn from the world to the detriment of their own happiness when they begin to expect others to always reach out for them without ever reaching themselves.

(description by @naughty-nanny)

[greentea-mp3]

I didn't think I had black and white thinking until my sibling used an analogy to explain it to me. I thought because I'm good at understanding and incorporating nuance into my thinking that I couldn't have been thinking in black in white. My sibling, though, explained it like a ball of yarn or a knotted up peice of string. One end is the thought or ideal that I hold strongly, and the rest of the length of the string is explanations and nuance to explain why I feel that way. So like if I'm trying to deconstruct an ideal that I have, I have to unwind the ball if yarn to get to the center and truly understand, "Hey, maybe I'm wrong about this." That could take forever to do, but I've found that after a while if I continue to deconstruct, I'm good at recognizing when I'm wrong. It just takes a second, and it can be frustrating to have an argument or debate with me because I have all these nuanced explainations for things that honestly just might not be true when you get down to the center. But if you give me time to do my own research and unravel it for myself (which I will do because I really care about what's true and what isn't), then I will get there and I will admit I was wrong.

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I truly don't think humans are naturally and inherently violent, hateful, or selfish. I think our compassion and our willingness to help one another, even animals of different species, is what makes us human. Of course our intelligence and level of consciousness is very special and extraordinary, but I don't think it's the best thing about us. Not by a long shot. We are not born violent, but it is often taught to us by the world around us, only getting worse and worse with each generation that passes those teachings onto their kids. I love being human, though it is hard sometimes I feel blessed that I get to live this experience.

[greentea-mp3]

The thing is I haven't been posting here recently very much because I hate putting tags. I just wanna say my thoughts and be done. Too much think.

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Twitter sucks but I use it because I feel obligated to put tags here on tumblr lol

[greentea-mp3]

The thing is I haven't been posting here recently very much because I hate putting tags. I just wanna say my thoughts and be done. Too much think.

[greentea-mp3]

I think the reason I really love fruits now is because I didn't have them a lot when I was little. When I did have them, they were like a treat. They would always be completely gone within a day or two and then we wouldn't have anymore for a few weeks. Fresh fruits and veggies are actually way more expenisve than you might think, and we were poor. We kinda just ate non perishable foods because they cost less and last longer.

I think it's a similar thing with veggies too.

[anchor-biter-jay]

Bang out some tunes for Neil tonight  🎵

[greentea-mp3]

i'm so dysphoric right now... someone got me a bra because i lost the only comfortable one i have. i tried it on and it's way too small. it's the cup that's too small. i have like a 40g. i hate it. my binder is too small as well. when i put it on it doesn't look like a masculine chest, it looks like i'm wearing a binder. i actually don't have any bras that fit me. but i have some that fit me enough. it's just really hard to get on and it's very comfortable while i wear it. i have a super asymmetrical chest too. like wayyyy more than normal. my smaller side is like a larger d. it's a little concerning.

i'm just really upset rn... i can't wait for top surgery.

[cathodecreature]

Neil Banging Out the Tunes (2023)

Air-dry clay over foil and wire armature, EVA foam, acrylic paint, paint marker

[greentea-mp3]

my posts are great. that's why i only get one note for every three posts.

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i kinda wanna watch someone do a playthrough of botw, but since i'm so hyperfixated on it and i know so much about it i know it's just gonna frustrate me watching someone play when they don't know as much as me. like when they're new to the game and don't yet know what all goes on.

but i know jerma played it.... and i wanna watch the silly man play something i really like...

[greentea-mp3]

am i the only one the quotes the 'i am autism' autism speaks commercial all the time?

i'm like "i am autism. i am visible in your children but if i can help it, i am invisible to you until it's too late" at random intervals during the day

[diane-nguyen-watches-cartoons-d]

[greentea-mp3]

i got the legend of zelda breath of the wild for christmas and i can feel the entire game series slowly crossing over the boarder of hyperfixation into special intrest.

i've played over 650 hours of botw in only a little over 4 months.

i really wanna play some of the older games now.

[greentea-mp3]

my art tends to look the best at the sketching stage and then it goes downhill from there

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sleeper agent that's just a silly little guy. call that an eeper agent

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i wish i could say my full name on the internet without getting doxed because my last name is so funny. i've never heard of anyone else with the same last name outside of my family. my mom's maiden name is even funnier. no one believes me when i say what they are.