"Agape"

the jumbles of my mind in a box. literally.

[grindstaff]

I probably have 12 draft emails to the same person and I just can’t find the strength to hit send.

[grindstaff]

I literally redownloaded this app just to tell NO ONE that I am in love but legit don’t have the guts to tell the person. Halp.

[grindstaff]

MY DUMB ASS LET AN UNDERCOVER KYLE HURT MY FEELINGS AND IM STILL NOT OVER THAT SHIT!!!!!!!

[grindstaff]

I’m never on this anymore but I just need to say it out loud:

Have you ever been in love but realized that you didn’t know (at the time) that you were or what that was?

Cause I think that happened to me. And now I can’t stop thinking about this person from years ago. I had a super vivid dream about them last night and I’ve known him for years. I mean, literally since the first grade. We last talked about two years ago when he told me he wasn’t ready for a relationship.

But he started dating a new girl about two months after I have moved closer to home (I didn’t move closer to home for him, but we did discuss in length dating from 5 hours away would be way easier than 18 hours away). So, I guess he just wasn’t ready for a relationship with me.

Ultimately knowing that I should just let it go but shit man, it’s tough.

[grindstaff]

I think it may be time to retire this ‘ol blog.

[mycroftplayingoperation]

this show’s dialogue is iconic

[kaasbolletje]

[bakwaaas]

Maturity is realising that other people are not mind readers, even those who love you. It’s on you to reach out, talk about how you feel, and to explain yourself. ​Everybody is busy living their own lives and is caught up in their own issues & problems, amidst all that you can’t expect them to magically be in tune with your every need and emotion. Communicate.

[grindstaff]

I found an old love letter today in my pencil case. A small reminder of where I’ve been in life and love; how we’ve both grown apart but have grown separately. How I’m proud of where we both are, even if it means we’ll never be together.

A friendly reminder that you can live without someone in your life but still have love for them.

[grindstaff]

I guess I should update my google calendar cause I could have gone without the birthday reminder today.

[grindstaff]

It starts off innocently enough:

“You have everything I could ever dream for in a woman”

“There’s just something about you, I can’t explain it, but it’s amazing”

“I’m so glad that I’ve met you, you’re changing my life”

My response: “that’s so great! I’m into you too. This has been awesome getting to know you. Maybe we should consider taking this a step further and talk about dating?”

The guy: “well, actually I’m in a committed relationship and I won’t be breaking up with her. You’re so amazing and you just have things she doesn’t have. I know this is hard, but I’ve been with her for three years and we’ve been through a lot, but you’re the most amazing woman I’ve ever met.”

I’m sorry, what? Why has this become the norm? Why do men think that they can just have me on retainer to connect with them mentally and spiritually, but ultimately not be their number one option?

Men are trash for treating good women this way. And seriously, if you’ve been dating a woman, WHO YOU’VE PROPOSED TO, maybe you shouldn’t be over here trying to be my “friend” yet sit here and call me beautiful and tell me how much I mean to you. Get the FUCK out of here with that shit.

I won’t be your number two. I won’t be the other woman. I’m either the number one or not a number for you AT ALL.

[grindstaff]

Oh btw....they got married about two months after this post. In secret. Not even his coworkers knew about it. The END.

[mildlylucid]

If you’re at a point in your life that you hate, you either have to deal with it or change it. Neither one of those options will be easy.

[dutchster]

[eveshka]

Chosen.

[elionking-deactivated20191020]

If this were to happen to me i would burst into tears

[grindstaff]

It starts off innocently enough:

“You have everything I could ever dream for in a woman”

“There’s just something about you, I can’t explain it, but it’s amazing”

“I’m so glad that I’ve met you, you’re changing my life”

My response: “that’s so great! I’m into you too. This has been awesome getting to know you. Maybe we should consider taking this a step further and talk about dating?”

The guy: “well, actually I’m in a committed relationship and I won’t be breaking up with her. You’re so amazing and you just have things she doesn’t have. I know this is hard, but I’ve been with her for three years and we’ve been through a lot, but you’re the most amazing woman I’ve ever met.”

I’m sorry, what? Why has this become the norm? Why do men think that they can just have me on retainer to connect with them mentally and spiritually, but ultimately not be their number one option?

Men are trash for treating good women this way. And seriously, if you’ve been dating a woman, WHO YOU’VE PROPOSED TO, maybe you shouldn’t be over here trying to be my “friend” yet sit here and call me beautiful and tell me how much I mean to you. Get the FUCK out of here with that shit.

I won’t be your number two. I won’t be the other woman. I’m either the number one or not a number for you AT ALL.

[tealesbian]

taking off my bra, puting on a big t-shirt, and crawling into bed at the end of the day is very sexy of me if I do say so myself 

[andhetakesandhetakesandhetakes]

me but at 2 in the afternoon after like running one errand

[tealesbian]

ok same

[grindstaff]

On the outside I’m great.

But on the inside, my heart is just breaking. I know this is what I asked for, but my gosh I’m pretty sure I was, for a moment, in love with him.

[miseducatedmelanicmuse]