thatsadpurple

AN OUTCAST || GENDER-FLUID

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

I hate me.

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

But of course nobody remembers me

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

Back after few years 💀🖤

[glassycolors]

You are valid

Happy Pride Month!!

[fuwaprince]

I made a gif for pride month! 

[pointlesscries]

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH

Me (since 1998)

[trippingeyes]

girls/girls/boys - panic! at the disco

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

❤️💛💚💙💜

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

PLEASE LET ME GRADUATE!

This shitty person

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

These lyrics tho.

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

I don't deserve to sleep I don't deserve to live

[rtpoetry]

[silentsuiciderooms]

[letyourselfliveagain]

..

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

Why?

Why do we always think that people can change?

Why do we always pray that they show their good side?

Why do we always make them happy even if you’re dying inside?

Why do we always forgive people even if they hurt us a million times?

Why do we always care for the people who don’t care about us?

Why do we always root for them even though they’re hopeless?

Why do we have to be kind to them even they treat us badly?

Why do we cry if these people hurt us?

Why can’t we realize that they will stay and remain the same?

Why can’t we stay angry at them instead of feeling down?

Why do we pity them even if they don’t care about us?

Why do we have to suffer even if they don’t know what you’re going through?

Why do we have to still keep our hopes to them?

Why can’t we just accept the fact that no matter what we do, they will not care and say that they will change. Even if they say it, they will not mean it. Wake up to the reality that people are people. They will never change for you or for anybody. They will stay the same no matter what happens. So stop worrying about them, and just worry about yourself. Don’t let them ruin you. Don’t let them be the reason of your tears. One day, you’ll just smile while thinking about it and saying to yourself, “How stupid am I to think such things?”. Remember that.

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

I tried

I tried being a good friend. I tried being responsible. I tried everything that I can so that we can get all along. I tried to act like the eldest even though I'm the youngest. I tried to have this mother material since I'm the only girl in the group. I tried my very best so that we can boost and gave our best. I tried to hope for a good outcome. I tried to trust your words. I tried to be as cool as possible. But in the end, I was the only one trying. You never helped yourself. And the result? I'm the one who's feeling all the pain. But don't worry. I will try to be numb and never try to hope again. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of everything.

[grotesqueyetpeculiar]

All I want is to be a good friend. I guess I was lacking.