idk what or why this is

im just tryin to lose some weight message me if youd like?

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

crying bc i realised that killing myself means that my 12 year old sister will barely remember me

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

has anyone who is not underweight or even considered 'skinny' gotten help? im so sick pf this but im too afraid people wont take me seriously..,

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

hi im back, not that enough ppl knew abt this to notice me missing. anyways, got a new phone, graduated, thought id be better. apparently moving out makes having an ED much easier (not that it was that hard at home, my parents arent really observant and i had cried to my mom multiple times abt how i only eat 1k cal/ day and how i want to be 'anorexic')!! i purge pretty much everyday, no matter what i eat, the only days i can eat and keep it down is when my friends stay the night. my whole mouth hurts, i can barely breath, food makes me nauseous now. i just dont want to be like this anymore. i just thought uni would've been the end of this whole thing, but apparently im just stuck with it. i also promised a friend i wont kms so ig im double fucked.

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

i hate it, why cant i stop binging, no matter how lich i throw up after i still gain, im going to the sea side next week ill have to wear a swimsuit infront of all my skinny friends all the guys will hit on them i just want to die

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

i miss the days when stress=starving and not binging

[ethrelustful]

Reblog if you’re pro recovery. Whether you’re in it or not

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

i cant purge anymore i hate it here, i keep on bingeing bc ik ill just throw it up, but i cant anymore WHYYY after 2 years, my body has betrayed me

[genocidediets]

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

i am SOO tired of this... i dont even want to be skinny anymore, i just want to be able to eat without feeling horrible or look at people without comparing their stomachs to mine or put on a tank top without crying about my arms... please please please let this stop

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

mmmm i used to love (oatmeal) it was so tasty and fairly low cal and now suddenly i dont like it anymore grrrr kill me what do i eat thats tasty and low cal grrrr

[cactus-spirit-deactivated202211]

Binge eating disorder is just as valid as anorexia or bulimia.

[fragilelikeasuicidal0106]

An eating disorder is an eating disorder. We need to stop invalidating others’ struggles. Those with binge eating disorder suffer just as those with bulimia and anorexia suffer.

Binge eating disorder is wildly under-diagnosed anyway, because professionals rarely ever look past the weight and the gluttony ideal they have. Those affected by it probably struggle more just in this regard alone - they can go their entire lives with this eating disorder and never be diagnosed because it’s just assumed they’re gluttonous and lazy.

Just because binge eaters don’t purge afterwards doesn’t make them any less valid than bulimics or anorexics.

As a community, let’s please learn to welcome and accept others and validate their struggles even if they’re not the same as ours.

[kittkattty-deactivated20220328]

If anyone is feeling ready to recover, I really recommend “Of Herbs and Altars”. They’re a YouTuber who has struggled with ana themself and they make really informative videos.

They also make really enjoyable story-time videos, the way they tell their stories is really engaging.

[anti-pro-destruction]

“Pretty girls don’t eat”

No, pretty girls don’t give out tips to vulnerable young teens on how to starve their own bodies to the point of near death

[skin-n-bcnes]

of all the mental illnesses, anorexia has the highest mortality rate with %10.

there are 1.4k ed accounts following me, and counting.

meaning approximately 140 of us will die from this disease.

could be me. could be you.

i'm not trying to scare you into recovery, i know it won't work. but as someone who've been in and out of hospital her entire life because of her ed, i feel obligated to remind you, skinny is not worth dying.

you don't care for staying alive? you don't see a point to live? well then, let me tell you what's gonna happen. you're gonna be hospitalized when it gets worse and they're gonna put you on iv, put you on meds you'll have to take for the rest of your life and make you eat hospital food if you're lucky enough to not be tube-fed. when that happens you're gonna beg those doctors to just let you die but they won't.

i know you've seen people who achieved their goal weights but just because they look good doesn't mean their bodies aren't in a fucked up condition.

you see thigh gaps, right? what you don't see is memory loss, heart problems, loss of hair, organ failure and many more.

because there's no happy endings to eating disorders.

recover while you can.

[smolpeas]

It’s actually 20%*

[skin-n-bcnes]

reblogging again for the comment, thank you for correcting me.

the post is much scarier now, isn't it? eds can take so many people's life, including yours or your favorite mutual's.

you're still young. you're capable of recovering and living a full life. getting into collage, having your dream job, taking up hobbies, taking care of your pets, meeting the love of your life.

i know some of us have been suffering so long that it seems impossible to have all those in the future but i promise you, it's not.

your life will turn around and everything will be so wonderful to the point you'll say to yourself "huh, i could've missed all these things if i hadn't recovered can you believe it?" or "thinking about how i almost let my depression win and killed myself years ago, i can't even remember that feeling" and you'll shake your head, smiling. screw "iMaGinE yOu weRe skiNNi" posts. imagine this.

imagine feeling so proud of yourself because you fought a deadly illness and you fucking won.

[skin-n-bcnes]

jsyk i will regularly reblog this post.

and not because i want more notes, more followers or anything.

i'm actually this close to begging people to not follow me. i don't want more followers, i don't want to trigger people with my posts even if i never mean to do that. it's genuinely upsetting to have an ed blog and watch your follow count go up, up, up.

i wilk regularly reblog this post because it's fucking IMPORTANT.

i know i'm repeating myself but it's so fucking important for every sick person to hear that recovery is the only good option here.

your body is NOT designed to take 300 cals everyday. your body is NOT designed for your b/p cycles. it's trying to survive anyway, it's trying to keep you alive but there's so much it can do and at some point IT WILL GIVE UP ON YOU.

and you know what that means.

[wannabeskinni-i]

i have nearly 9000 followers. im not going to tell u that recovery feels good because tbh im miserable and i feel like shit everytime i eat. but i can tell u that i would care if u were one of the 20%. that i dont want u to be a statistic. if that number is accurate than that means 1800 ppl. 1800 ppl is the size of two high schools where i live. please dont become a number. im here if u need to talk my dms and asks r always open <3

[dainty-and-spacey]

repost if u break the stereotype of Eds

you eat once a day/ u don’t always fast 24/7

you’re not bones

you don’t openly talk about it lile it’s a big problem

you don’t want treatment

you don’t think you’re sick enough for treatment

you can’t purge

EATING DISORDERS AREN’T WHAT THE MEDIA TELLS YOU

feel free to add!♡➹★

[wanna-be-sk1nny]

-you don`t always drink/eat zero/light products

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

heyy does anyone know why im just,, gaining? im pretty sure im in a deficit but i did start some light jogging + workout stuff, ould that have smth to do? im doing alright woth the slight weightgain but if it continues i will kms :)))

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

@justwannabeskiiiiiinny Do you think you may be restricting too much? I DONT KNOW HOW TO USE TUMBLR OK THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN REPLY SORRY. anyways, idk? i eat around 800-1200 cal/ day (i know that might seem like shit ton for some pls dont comment im TRYING to be better) is that too little? im looking into the metabolism restoration thing but im too scared to do it

[grrrrrwhyamilikethis]

heyy does anyone know why im just,, gaining? im pretty sure im in a deficit but i did start some light jogging + workout stuff, ould that have smth to do? im doing alright woth the slight weightgain but if it continues i will kms :)))