sparrowmoore·:
oh , that did it . sparrow had always been an undetonated bomb , ever since they were a child . one tripped fuse and they were an eruption . the grip upon their pen tightened so hard that the plastic flew from their hand , clattering to the linoleum floor of the crashdown that was scuffed by shoe soles and dropped cutlery . “ you’re fucking joking . “ words were spoken with a beat of humourless laughter . “ you know what was your responsibility ?? taking care of us . but you went off to play house with horses and pigs . she needed you — “ every word spoken was an intentional dagger , sharpened to pierce right where it hurt ; malice was dripping from each sentence like venom , “ — and i needed you when i came back , but we’re all so hung up on hating one another that we forgot we have the same damn blood . this is bullshit , “ they had half a mind to tear up the will right where it laid , “ no , lyla jane , i don’t understand . please . enlighten me . “
* 🍉 lyla knew this would happen at some point. that was the real kicker. it didn’t matter or occur to sparrow that she had already taken care of them--- for years, from an age where she was still a baby herself. but that wasn’t what the other recalled. what lyla saw before her now wasn’t her parent’s failings, but that of her own. while sparrow could run away and get themself into untold troubles, lyla doing the same was a betrayal. as her family constantly reminded her, having a life for herself was never her destiny. there was NOTHING left to give and yet they continued to demand more. when the pen clattered to the floor there wasn’t so much a flinch to her eyes. outbursts were all too common in her past that they hardly had any effect on her anymore. ❛ i’m not going to fight with you and i didn’t come here to hash out every way you think i’ve failed. you’re a fucking adult... ❜ she slips. lyla was trying her best to stay calm but anger was an unfortunate problem in this family and her knuckles were turning white. ❛ me taking care of you is how we got here, sparrow. where the idea of having a simple fucking conversation with a family member has you exploding in public. you have never, ever... ❜ she points a single, pink nail at her sibling, eyes slowly beginning to gloss ❛ had to take responsibility for anything in your entire, goddamn life. so don’t fucking sit there and lecture me. you ran off to get high and follow some piece of shit down to texas. i went and got a job and tried to make a life that you and everyone else doesn’t think i earned or... fuck--- DESERVE ! ❜ she shakes, unaware and uncaring of how loud her voice has become. ❛ do i have to baby you until i’m six feet under? just so you can spit on my grave instead of my face as you’ve always done? there’s your enlightenment sparrow. you hate more than any of us. you don’t need me. you just don’t wanna grow up. ❜











