You know how fighter planes will sometimes have, like, the little silhouettes or flags for every plane they've shot down, displayed on the right side of the nose of the plane? It was like that, except you had to put a cutout of any animal or car you'd hit, and you had to put them on your driver-side right under the rear view mirror, for all the world to see your car's "kills".
So my little car has, unfortunately, hit a deer and a small dog in its lifetime. And I had to ride around with these stickers on my door and people would see the little dog sticker and scowl at me and stuff, even if I talked to them and tried to explain that it was really an accident and that I cried so hard that day and that the dog's owner had cried with me and forgiven me, and had actually brought over flowers and checked on me the next day. It had been a lesson for me that there is sweetness in the world, even when awful things happen, and that not everyone will hate you or misunderstand you when you fuck up.
But in my dream there was no sweetness. There was no understanding. And wild animals seemed to start trying to get hit. Squirrels in the road. My neighbor's outdoor cat. Another deer. Eventually I had so many stickers that I had to start a second row. And people got angry when they would see them. Other drivers would rage at me and drive aggressively around me. People on the streets would flip me off. And then one day, the worst thing happened. I was late for work and zipping through the last little bit of downtown before I got to my workplace, and as I rounded a corner doing maybe 35 in a 25, a little old lady with a walker saw my car coming up to the intersection she was about to cross, tossed her walker to the side, raised a fist and started shouting, and ran out into the road in front of me. The light was turning yellow, and I thought if I punched it, I could both beat the light and get past her before she got all the way into the street. I was wrong. My car accelerated, but so did she - her shambling walk turned into an impossibly fast, almost supernaturally fast shuffle and she dove - for Gods' sake, she dove directly in front of my car. I tried to stomp on my brake, but it was far too late. I blacked out just as the THUD reverberated through my entire consciousness. The next thing I remember is walking out of the hospital, feeling the hospital identification bracelet on my wrist, and seeing my car parked right on the street in front of the hospital. No blood, no broken glass, not even a dent, but I gasped when I saw the real damage. My car's kill count increased by one. One sticker of an old lady with a walker. They put the gods-damned walker in the sticker, for fuck's sakes. As I approached my car and held out my key to unlock it, every eye on the street turned to me. Every single person stopped in their tracks. "Sick fuck," I heard someone say. I fumbled with my keychain, found the pepper spray, and clutched it tightly in my hand as I sped up, the distance between me and my car suddenly seeming infinite. "Get that bitch!" someone shouted, and suddenly I heard footsteps running all around me. I reached my car door just as someone grabbed my shirt. I turned around and unloaded the pepper spray in some Hospital Security Guard's face just as he threw an unweidly punch, missing my face and barely connecting with my ear before hitting my car behind me. He fell to the ground, grabbing his face and moaning from the pepper spray, as I climbed into my car and slammed the door on someone else's fingers. People were crowded all around my car now, beating on the hood and slapping the windows and windshield. I turned it on, laid on the horn hoping that they'd get the message and disperse, but no such luck. I put it in drive. I held down the brakes as I revved the engine. Someone climbed on the hood and started kicking my windshield. It cracked. I let go of the brakes, shut my eyes, and tried to push the accelerator through the floor. Bumps. Turbulence. The crunch of bones snapping, the sheer terror in the screams. I kept my eyes shut until the noises were all behind me, and then I opened them. There were more people running into the street, pouring out of office buildings all around us. I kept the accelerator on the floor as I tried to weave through the crowd. Eventually, I made it to the freeway and up to freeway speed, and the crowd was all behind me. I sped home. When I slid into the driveway, I got out of the car and ran inside, locking the door behind me. I called a longtime friend and she got me to calm down and explain what was going on. As soon as I told her about the old lady, she got quiet. It was just me talking. I told her about the crowd at the hospital, about pepper-spraying the security guard and slamming the door on someone's fingers. She broke the silence. "You're a bitch." I could hear the news playing in the background. "A disturbed young woman lashed out today, hitting multiple people with her car in front of Dresmond Memorial Hospital.." "You're a fucking bitch," my friend repeated.
I looked out my window and gasped. A crowd was gathered in my driveway. Some of them had baseball bats or golf clubs. And the stickers. Oh, my god, the stickers… I didn't just have two rows anymore. I had four.