Musings of a Half Crazed Author

30, NB they/them. Married to a gender queer service member and do mental health therapy for a living. Coming back because the world is on fire and I want somewhere to rest

[lunarberrylatte]

hey so you know even if the trans girl doesn't pass you still have to use her pronouns right?

even if she doesn't "try to pass" she still deserves the same basic respect you give everybody else.

even if she's done something bad that doesn't excuse you misgendering her on purpose.

i'm so sick of people treating trans people's pronouns as some kind of reward you get if you've been a good tranny.

this goes for those who use neopronouns too i dont care how "weird" you think it is especially if you're trans yourself.

it really is that easy :)

[mousidy]

and yes, they/themming her when you already know her pronouns is misgendering

[auroranwolf-deactivated20260417]

All of this cost me potential friendships with @scientistservant and @anchasvtt unfortunately 😔 I don't blame them for not wanting to interact with me because of my emotional dysregulation. When my verbal filter is gone and I'm feeling anxious or depressed, I turn into a complete b*tch. Being impulsive makes it worse. Just know I don't wake up and decide I'm gonna be a b*tch to people. We NDs aren't like that. It's just that all self-control goes out the door when we're anxious. We're not bad people, though, despite what it seems to anybody on social media. Dealing with us neurodivergents when we're experiencing negative emotions takes a lot of patience. Especially untreated and unsupported NDs like myself. Also, many NDs do feel remorse for negative things that they've said and they do mean whatever apologies they give, even when we keep apologizing for the same things over and over. Anytime I've lost even virtual friendships because of things that I've said that caused it, I tend to have physical reactions to it, such as insomnia and nausea. I want to fit in so badly and be accepted into the tdc fandom, which is why I get insomnia from pushing people away when I'm emotionally dysregulated.

I'm not using this as an excuse. I'm just posting some ADHD things and how they've affected me and my interactions with people, including with specific people. This is also not an attack on @scientistservant or @anchasvtt. The reason I mentioned them specifically is because, since I joined the tdc fandom just earlier this year they wound up being the two people that I hurt. Plz don't let this scare the rest of y'all away. I enjoy looking at everybody's content. I hope y'all like what little content I've made. I prob need to stay off of tumblr during times when I'm feeling negative emotions so that I don't lose more potential friendships,though. That is all.

[brofisting]

helpful tattoo reminder: they are technically Injuries so u have to eat a lot of calories drink a lot of water and sleep a lot after so your body can Heal The Injury

[brofisting]

another helpful tattoo reminder: the 24-48 hours after you get a tattoo your brain can not be trusted in regards to whether or not you should have gotten that tattoo, if you have somehow ruined your life, if it turned out ugly, etc. ignore that

[brofisting]

finally, while i am at it: always bring a candy bar and a sugary drink to your appointment for blood-sugar reasons (worst case scenario) or so you can have a treat (unilaterally applicable)

[brofisting]

this has been your friendly neighborhood haver of 19* tattoos (assorted sizes and placements)

*not totally sure here. bad at counting

[parasocialanxiety]

Can I just emphasize that not everyone reading this has yet encountered the information that injuries require food, hydration, and sleep? I think the way many people associate rest and injury is that you rest the injury itself to avoid making it worse, but overlook that the healing process itself requires rest regardless of if not-rest directly injures it further.

Also exercise is a form of controlled injury so that as your body heals it heals stronger. You also need food-hydration-rest for strength and cardiovascular improvements after exercise.

[mxs-space]

I love learning about lotr Behind the Scenes because 95% percent of the time it’s just “we let Viggo Mortensen loose and he did weird shit” and there is no way to predict what the fuck he did

[diserbillyti]

My favourite ever piece of Disabled Research has always been that, when it was noticed that a lot of schizophrenics own cats, some dorks were like, maybe the cats are causing the schizophrenia?? and came to the stunning conclusion that people must be eating cat poo and thus getting a kind of parasite that makes you schizophrenic.

And of course a lot of these studies suck. A lot of them didn't actually think to ask WHEN the schizophrenic acquired the cat, so it's just always presumed that the cat came before the schizophrenia. Most don't really account for the fact that a schizophrenia diagnosis is often a very slow and complex process due to specific regional legalities associated with having "doctors can turn your rights off whenever" disorder. Basically, the same scientific half-truths that surround the phenomenon of "drug-induced schizophrenia," that is the conflation of schizophrenics self-medicating before their formal diagnosis is set and the ambiguity of proving when symptoms onset in relation to that, has been completely replicated for cat-induced schizophrenia lol.

And I love this because it's kind of a perfect demonstration of how the stigma associated with schizophrenia works in medical and scientific settings, right. Everything becomes possible to pathologize, from smoking weed to owning a cat. While the science here is usually pretty bad, "science communication" outlets make it much worse because they run with the most broad dumbass versions of these stories and present them to the public as if there's a clear causal relationship between owning a cat and having schizophrenia, instead of actually reading through the research with an appropriate critical lens and demanding real actual meta-review of obviously flawed studies.

Which is not to say that schizophrenia can't be caused by cats or THC exposure, but that the standard for a concept to become "scientifically true" when dealing with schizophrenia is uh, let's say lower?

Anyway, the reality is that a lot of schizophrenics have cats because being schizophrenic is lonely so many of us want pets. Dogs are too demanding and require a lot of hands-on exposure time, but having an adult cat is like having a gay little roommate that occasionally breaks your shit and vomits in your shoes, so they opt for that. A lot of schizophrenics also have pet fish for similar reasons and the second psychiatrists learn that fact they'll start punching up studies about how drinking fish tank water makes you schizophrenic and how to some of us born of the degenerate brain it's completely irresistable lol. Then science communicators will be posting articles with like stock image white girls superimposed over a fishtank lookin thirsty, titled things like, "COULD FISHWATER BE MAKING YOU CRAZY?" lol

[silversong79]

Someone: You can’t sum up the entirety of Peregrin Took with one sentence!

Me, an intellectual:

[zoesupreme]

they made moonshine legal today

[depsidase]

[babushkaat]

[impossiblepackage]

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[kittybroker]

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[ashleyisconnectingdendrites]

I honestly think I endured a lot of abuse when I was younger. I haven’t endured a single thing I could call abusive since I was 24. I didn’t start my therapy journey until I was 22.

I remember this feeling when I was younger where at any moment people were going to get mad at me and either hurt me or hurt my feelings.

It made me have zero idea how to communicate because any attempts usually got me in trouble. Existing got me in trouble so I became suicidal. Using my brain to see discrepancies got me in trouble and gaslit so I started heavily dissociating and partnering that with any drugs I can get my hands on. I had zero idea how to treat people nicely because I kept putting myself around people who treated me like shit because that was normal.

I’m the complete opposite of who I was before. I’m lucky I chose therapy in my early 20’s. I literally only chose it bc Girl, Interrupted made me want to play something out and I actually benefitted from it.

Now that I’m a mental health therapist myself I see women only getting these basic communicating and self-love skills in their 40’s. It’s never too late but my goodness who we could be if we learned this stuff as little girls.

Please put your little girls in therapy. I think they hide a lot more than we realize. It’s not normal for kids to be quiet.

[troy-bolton]

REASONS TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE:

why the fuck do you need reasons just be nice to people omfg

[nikolaijanak]

[crafterfive]

My partner made this comic, and it is beautiful and amazing, and you’re all missing out by not seeing the original on paper because it’s even prettier there!

[catflowerqueen]

One thing I love about Fields of Mistria is that there is a concrete reason why the player seems to be the one to "singlehandedly save the town." That reason being it is literally what the hero signed up for. The deal was that they'd get a farm in exchange for helping.

And even then, it isn't singlehanded--other townsfolk are noted in the background to also be doing their part and doing a lot of the labor once the necessary resources are gathered. For a few of the projects, pretty much the whole town is part of the cutscene helping to fix the issue.

It kind of reminds me of the approach taken in Roots of Pacha--the improvements come in the form of "ideas" that the villagers have, but need you to gather the materials so they can do things like experiment to bring that idea to fruition. And you're the one gathering the materials because everyone else is busy with whatever their role is in the village. But even then, the villagers are still shown doing a lot of the legwork for major improvements to the village itself.

...That, and it is acknowledged by multiple characters that some of the tasks you do--like mining--is due to a literal divine calling. So.

[transfemme-shelterdog]

Cis people really are clueless to how things really are for trans people, aren't they?

My parents partook in a ground search for a missing trans man today (I'm planning on joining the next. I just couldn't get the time off work on such short notice on a Friday) They told me that they were shocked that the cops really didn't care. They left the crime scene completely open for 3 days, haven't followed up on any leads, basically just took statements and left. The neighbors have footage of someone entering and leaving the house days after with a huge black garbage bag and throwing it into a trunk of a car.

They're shocked that the cops don't give a shit. I regretfully had to inform them that this is the case for literally any missing queer person, or marginalized person in general.

Like yeah, cops don't give a shit about us. Sorry to break it to you.

[queermequeerlife]

GKU Art Stream

Hey hey! Just thought I'd announce it here if anyone wants to stop by- I'm going to stream on Twitch this afternoon (around 2pm EST) and work on some more GKU art and UI elements! My twitch link is in my bio, so show up if you want!

[lamortwrites]

Women being described as handsome >>>>>>>>>>>>

[lamortwrites]

TARGET AUDIENCE REACHED

[cannibalchicken]

[toastyglow-rb]

1920s gangster voice: when you stare into the boid the boid stares back