It's at 4am

For you don't need to live 'cause of those many Possibilities and opportunities people tells you about, the sacrifices and happiness that they say stays in the last page, but for those stars residing in your eyes.

[thezeroquotes]

Someday, somewhere — anywhere, unfailingly, you'll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life.

— Pablo Neruda

[halfheartmoon]

On those gray cloud days, do you remember I used to ask you, if you're dancing today, smiling today,

I don't know it might be I am just Antonia in our unwritten stories or you're a pill of hope in our hard times, 'cause you would always look at me smiling to the brim, eyes vanished taking my hand telling me yes you're happy, and dancing as well.

Hey, you remember how you never liked things like hugging, so I would just sit silently by you, while you're telling me how much you hate your parents. I would tell you it's alright, it's okay, let's be sad together.

How can you not, love your best friend?

How can you not be guilty when you cannot anymore?

There would be those times, we would look out the window to wonder how can we find words that can tell stories going on stamping our hearts like an elephant while walking on a dusty path.

To say, there's so many things, how those pop songs over the radio, our favourites they changed.

How I wish for you to call me and let's talk for an hour, on those days I need an escape from my reality following me everyday and occupying every place around me.

We read here and there, let's share stories, in the meantime this sadness, it will be shared, but nobody tells us how do we do that?

How can you not love your old classrooms,

Where you made memories?

But it seems like I cannot,

And so I accept it,

I am guilty as charged.

Someone reading my thoughts would think I am a little selfish these days, narrating my worries never asking you,

if you're fine.

I know and I am guilty as charged.

These cruel stars asking me why am I wasting it all, all of me in its light,

Who are they for me,

I don't know, I can't seem to think of anything,

I don't know why am I fighting battles alone, when I have a best friend to fight battles along;

We talk with each other in our same cafe,

With an elephant sitting in between,

You're my best friend ,

And I don't know how to tell you,

My happy endings it's turning to just happenings,

Hey my best friend ,

Do you know I am awake at late nights, taking to myself, sleeping in this porch lights,

Seems to be doing for everyday.

[poems-and-word]

“It’s fascinating. You know all these words, and they’re all English, but when you string them together into sentences, they just don’t make any sense.” - Cassandra Clare, City of Fallen Angels

[thehopefulquotes]

Breathe. You're going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you've been in this place before. You've been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you've survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too . These feelings can't break you. They're painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you'll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.

[halfheartmoon]

from whither do your well-crafted clauses originate? what inspires you?

From my surroundings I guess, well mostly are from the way I feel about things like after watching a sad movie, from my experiences and the way I hope my words could find their way to those who need them and could help them a little, encourage them a bit ^^

[halfheartmoon]

I hope you're doing fine, sleeping though late beside a coffee mug,

Sleeping in peace,

It's hard, I know, when you're drunk in your miseries,

And no one knows, and you can't tell,

So we pretend to sleep in time, smile like we're fine,

Our paths overlapping with the same miseries,

And we cannot walk away ;

I cannot take away your sadness,

Even if you give me the address,

But I hope my letter to your sadness, it finds it's way,

Under our open sky,

Let's take a look into our hearts,

And love all its pieces and scars,

That healed, that you healed.

So let's all love our hidden sadness,

We're so powerful, like a superhero,

When you're dreaming,

While you're walking through the same old town,

With a warm scarf around your neck;

I hope you remember, I hope you do,

'Cause your red cape, it's so beautiful,

You did well, you did, so now that it's late,

Let's sleep a little, dream a little, before it's dawn. 🍒♥️

[halfheartmoon]

Your sad eyes and smiling lips,

Under a bright sun, in the moonlight,

They're shinning the same, today and everyday,

Now and all the time,

But I wonder and you do too,

Where did the little kid in us go?

So let's go together, to that horizon everybody says is too far,

Let's hold hands and run in the rain,

And waste time if that's what you want,

Those nights that own to you, your bright smiles,

'Cause you're hiding in your silent tears,

If you're sad and a little bitter with this world,

It's okay, these hiding sadness they're precious,

Your hiding scars they're beautiful,

Laughing like kids that we were,

Let's go back and love those people we thought we would love forever,

Let's run to that horizon,

Let's love ourselves like we're,

Your world, in this world, it's precious,

It's okay it's alright, let's not laugh it all away like an adult,

Let's stay here and waste sometime to be how we are.

[halfheartmoon]

It's almost the nth sunset and we're the same,

Baby, want you to stay with me,

But the Romantics now sick altogether,

Giving love like vaccine,

Our tomorrow together, it isn't coming,

Singing classrooms, now it's just me again,

One scene and another, one beat and another, one sunset,

And Our wishlist turned into one take,

I wannna find you, but we're both finding the summer,

In an everlasting winter,

Dust on our frames, sitting beside me like your pillow,

It's a never ending loop,

But it isn't doing much, and I am just missing you a little too much.

Tick tock tick tock,

And like this clock,

We're crossing out alone those tick tocks,

Just lovesick no vaccine,

Dancing together our memories,

Sunset, sunrise, what's changing?

We go on like this, since that 24th,

Hiding our heartbeats, hiding ourselves.

[halfheartmoon]

There's this sadness that doesn't go away,

In winter air, in tired eyes, in our playlists,

Those little dreams that we're free to dream,

Those things we do to stay alright,

We're sad, for sometime or for always,

We can be, there's no stopwatch and time isn't up,

We lost the summer somewhere on our way here,

But we're still looking, we're strong enough 'cause we're still loving,

There's this sadness in every minute and second,

There's this sadness, but we're busy and young,

We're stubborn and pretend we're strong,

Like some good people,

Like some sad people painting a wall,

So it turns into a wallflower,

And no one would be left alone,

Now that we're some young people, this sadness in air doesn't go away,

And you feel like time is up, time is gone,

But it's the time of sunset, and we're still here,

It's all gone, we think, but we're breathing alright,

Tell me when it's your birthday, we'll make a wish come true together,

I wish I could love myself, but I am trying,

I think that will be enough for tonight.

[halfheartmoon]

You see those hands holding us tight to never let us fall,

somedays that tell you to be a little strong,

that's life, who isn't having it hard?

but why are they holding us down?

We can plant a flower to make this house a little alive,

but here we're bleeding over broken glass,

no place to sing a lullaby.

I can ask you if you're okay, but you'll lie.

I could ask you still, but why don't I?

We're not some bad people, not you, not me,

Same little human beings, dwelling in emotions,

We could calm a heart with a lullaby, but we're just a little sleepy.

Does this world stop if a leaf fall?

Will you love a butterfly with no wings?

Maybe you would, maybe you wouldn't,

Sometimes like these questions,

I hope you listen to yourself,

To Those emotions, someone else may say are small,

'Cause we can make anything if we want to, like how they want to,

But I hope you look at your reflection,

And remember this is a life that is yours,

All this is what you own, this emotions that are precious,

And you can keep it inside your heart, your black box,

'Cause you don't ever need to give them away .

[poems-and-word]

Poems & Words

[halfheartmoon]

One star's glowing by the moon,

Grey dots can't be seen from the ground,

Every brush and glitters, how many do we touch?

Many stay untouched,

Grey letters on white stars, they look like warm hugs,

This dark night, it's like those one of many,

Ways we think we should go, and we should,

But let's take some time, taking a break beside this roadside,

And one litter star is so little,

Like a grey stone in a black soil,

Your today, and tomorrow,

Like one star that's growing everyday,

One grey dot, it grows, and then glitters,

And you did so well today;

A grey dot, what does it do?

Maybe thoughts like this and many,

Going through that space between heart and soul,

But it's okay, let's take time,

Let's watch these stars that's glowing today,

'Cause life goes on,

It takes time, and the tomorrow you want,

It will be on your doorsteps,

After some sleep and sound nights,

One grey dot, it grows it only does, and then glitters,

And you did so well again today,

You're glowing everyday.

[poems-and-word]

Poems & Words

[halfheartmoon]

There's this sadness in loving,

'Cause loving can hurt,

'Cause all these love sometimes, they become a little heavy,

With those tears we hold inside,

And we're just some fragile people in a lonely night,

All this making it harder than it was to breathe yesterday;

There's this sadness about all days,

Now that we're young,

It hurts a little more,

But we're some strong people,

So we look away from scars and it hurts more,

We don't care, but it's not enough,

Then the seasons change, and it gets colder,

There's this sadness in winter,

Those celebrations, all and everywhere,

People dancing, singing together, this road a little less lonely,

We don't hate it, maybe that's the thin line keeping us sane,

Telling us we're still alive,

And the more we love each other,

The more we help each other,

To sing and dance,

The more it tells us, but we don't listen,

All these things I say to you,

Smile and I'll too,

I failed to do so.

[halfheartmoon]

[halfheartmoon]

This cell phone in airplane mode,

Some books opened, half coffee in cup,

All these lights making a sky here,

Like those stars there,

all these stars, all these lights,

And we're alone like the Moon.

There's some stories back in mind,

Old and new, sounds funny,

Like a happy joke in a silent night,

Do you remember those days when we made memories,

Like those last pages of book with those stories behind,

My reflection smiles says ,

yes it does,

If it won't, after all who would start a conversation?

This phone in silent mode, this conversation with myself,

It feels like I am in my own time zone.

And now this is just a moon,

And I am just me in my room,

[halfheartmoon]

Do you wake up some mornings,

Without sleeping all night, staying awake all night,

But all these your bright smiles, they don't fade away, they stay alright,

And it scares me, it does so much,

How we're acting so well,

Me and you, we're smiling so well,

but we're ready to die in a while,

And love could do so much, more than we could,

But we're busy loving so well, loving others.

But in our dawn and late mornings,

Like everlasting winter,

We're cold tonight all the time,

When we should have hugged ourselves,

And said it's alright, it's okay,

But we're busy loving others,

All those bright places, they lit up a little with your smile and mine,

But do you wonder why this winter stays the same inside your heart?

'Cause all these love, all these love towards others,

It won't help when we can't sleep at night.

Our cold self, it wouldn't stay well,

If we don't wear a scarf and take care.