being bosnian can be so exhausting because sometimes im bosniak and sometimes im bosnian and in the eyes of nationalists i am a turk or a serb muslim with serb ancestors and im harassed by 17 year old chetniks who were taught the same hateful rhetoric their parents learned from nationalists and some days i do not feel like a real person with a culture and history because of everything that has been stolen from me and the nationalists have gotten a little too good at gaslighting bosniaks and telling me my language doesnt exist and it just feels like modern day genocide thats violent but not in a physical sense and some days i feel so ground in my identity, like when im presenting a project on settler colonialism in RS and my classmates look at me and say, ”this is powerful,” and ”thank you for teaching me—i never knew,” and it eases the sharp bite of pain driven by a wedge in my skull and i feel like who i am supposed to be: a bosniak, teaching my peers about my history and who i couldve been if it werent for war
Last year I purchased a rather large pile of high quality paper at a Liquidation Sale. For next to nothing it was wild. People have asked how many of these Orc paintings I intend to do. My answer is we'll cross that bridge when I run out of paper.
• The single paintings I've been posting are HUGE, to be sold individually. Each is one of a kind.
• These three smaller paintings are experiments, if they fit on my scanner I can make prints.
• PLEASE BE PATIENT: My Beloved and I are remarrying next week. I won't be able to work on creating a store until November, and I can't guess when it'll be live.
do we subject this poor pup to that trauma when there is no way of reviving him whatsoever
the vet was also at a bit of a loss (most overnight vets weren't the ones with decades of experience of handling owners and esp not traumatized and mentally ill people (not judging the woman at all, she vented to us about russian and governmental spies that are after her and that they killed the dog on purpose. she was dealing with the trauma of losing her young dog on top of everythinf and couldnt process his death. very valid. but also, we techs and vets are trained and taught about veterinary health and medicine, not mental coaching and psychiatry)
in the end ofc we couldnt revive the puppy but the vet figured out we involve her in the process, give her the stethoscope and let her hear that that theres no heartbeat, and that even an adrenaline shot did nothing
(i'm still humbled by how quick the bet thought on her feet and helped this woman come to terms with the situation)
we also had to assure her it would not go well if she took the deceased pup back home and kept it on her balcony (in the blistering summer heat) before further services were provided (even if she were to drain the pup of blood like she proposed, claiming she knows exactly the quanitity it had)
the woman was super nice and gave us a huge tip (we barely charged her for any services bc there was nothing we could do except determine the death and the containment of the body until further steps were decided)
so another half hour later at least i was sitting in my car just trying to process what happened, realizing i was running aroudn the clinic in my street clothes bc i was already off the clock past overtime, letting my on the clock coworkers deal with the amount of inpatient pets with critical care, all while wearing a bug bunny tshirt that says WHAT'S UP DOC?
i guess i still haven't processed it bc now i'm sitting here stupified again
bc while this could be a scene from morbid cartoon, this is also what real life is
and i just wish there was more we could do to change the state of the world, instead of having to witness all the time how people can break
while also grateful that i've had the pleasure of getting to see such acts of kindness and grace first hand
(which again greatly contradicts the gruesome atrocities some humans can commit)
life just seems absurd sometimes
(and hats off to vets and techs who have the ability to act with such compassion and understanding, bc i had many coworkers i admired for that)
I saw this when running newpipe. But wait, it gets deeper. I clicked on the details buttons and it said as of today, we have 83 days left until Google rolls out this new requirement for apps inside and outside of the google play store. If any developer disagrees with their new terms and fees, they will be blocked!
I'll share some of the info below:
Looks like they're trying to nuke the remaining privacy and freedoms we have left on the internet.
What to do?
-Get your developer friends to not comply to their new guides
- Sign the open letter on the site and take action by checking out the full resources list on their website as well!
To summarize, this is all daunting especially when you feel all alone with unfair and inhumane regulations comming out faster than improvements but we got this working together!
Share the link with your friends, family and anyone who will listen!
Your phone is about to stop being yours. In September 2026, Google will block every Android app whose developer hasn't registered with them.
you can believe victims about what they experienced and also not want to torch the lives of the people they've accused without proof. that is a space you can walk in and usually it's not even that hard. I say this as a survivor of domestic violence. "believe victims" doesn't mean get torches and pitchforks any more than "innocent until proven guilty" means victims are lying. please please learn this "believe victims" isn't about the perpetrators it's about the victims
last year the one time i cried in front of my therapist was the session where i said "i can keep living with pain and the darkness and everything. i can do it, but it just has to get easier."
and i never thought it would bc nothing i did for 15 years made a significant impact
until this year when i got on adhd meds and suddenly i'm like oh. it's easier
it actually gotten easier to deal with my head and the suicidal ideation and thats absolutely fucking mind blowing to me
