also that all you want is to be positive and get your work done but your thoughts are engulfed in nihilistic doom and you don’t understand the point in doing anything and whenever you start to do something you somehow find yourself back in bed because what is the point of doing the thing literally it’s just chaos up in here. really boring chaos. taking sleeping pills 10 hours after being awake because WHY BE AWAKE aside from playing and feeding the cats there is no point in being conscious goodnight













