Once again⌠I can not with this scene.
One of the more deliberate moments where the watcher witnesses the depth of Sherlockâs pining.  Sherlock is referring to Johnâd romanticism in relation to his blog.. which, letâs be clear, is a blog revolving around Sherlock.  John isnât romanticizing crime, or murder, or the generality of cases⌠ heâs romanticizing Sherlock, his mind, his acuity, their time together, who Sherlock is specifically as a man and John responds to Sherlockâs identity by writing about it with great depth and affection.  Â
Up until now Sherlock has been the primary recipient of Johnâs romantic attentions. Â Not outright physical romance, but something with perhaps even far greater intimacy. Â John accounting Sherlock with beautiful sincerity, and genuine respect, his words making Sherlock into something desirable. Â (Which in turn, Sherlock returns that same level of romanticism in his best manâs speech.)
Sherlock was probably content just having that from John. Â Having love expressed through the safe medium of Johnâs blog. Â Sherlockâs small hesitation and and averting his eyes so heâs not looking right at John, pursing his lips. Â His tone and expression is a cocktail mix of regret, guilt over having these feelings in the middle of this event, and internalized longing. Â