Navigating Food Aversion

(fae/faer) I'm a French Canadian navigating food aversion due to sensory issues, a history of disordered eating, and growing up in poverty.

[healing-food]

Welcome! Have a seat!

I'm trying to work through food aversion. If you want to follow along come on in!

About me: I live in and grew up in Montreal, Canada. Im very neurodivergent which has led to my sensory issues hating certain foods and such. I am fat. I had a binge eating habit where I'd not eat for p much a whole day and then binge eat at midnight. I have dealt with thoughts of wanting to starve myself, despite knowing that that will just make everything worse. I have a sweet tooth and I'm physically disabled which makes it difficult to exercise but I still do from time to time.

What I currently eat in a day:

Breakfast- eggs and a grilled cheese! around 10-11

Lunch- either leftovers or a sandwich, around 1:30-2

Supper- either soup or some type of roast. around 6-8pm

[typewriter-worries]

there’s this extremely kind soul of a woman on instagram that makes accessible recipes that don’t require standing, chopping, or a stove and she might just have a permanent place in my heart

[peridotglimmer]

She's on YouTube too! For non-Instagram using friends:

I love her, she's great. Her recipes are friendly for both physical and/or intellectual disabilities. And her 5-year-old helps her cook. 🥰

Link to her YouTube channel:

Epicurious Expeditions

Celebrating the intersection of food and culture, travel tales, social commentary, grieving out loud. 🇳🇬/🇺🇸 👰🏽🧒🏽👧🏽👩🏽‍💼⚖️ Paid Collaboration

[dykesbat]

[ID: Four thumbnails for videos. They’re titled: Disability-Friendly Thai Tea Ice Cream, Disability-Friendly Chicken Tikka Masala, Disability-Friendly Dollar Tree Bowl, and Disability-Friendly Po’Boy. End ID.]

[this-is-accessibility]

This is Accessibility!

I've been following her but have yet to try any of the ideas. I'm saving so many things to try when I can though

[fitnessadvicethatfitsinyourlife]

Reducing the calories does not inherently increase the healthiness of your food.

Reducing the fat content does not inherently increase the healthiness of your food.

Reducing the sugars does not inherently increase the healthiness of your food.

The only way to increase the healthiness of your food is by adding additional nutrients to it.

I saw a video of someone complaining that fucking chicken tikka masala "wasn't healthy" so they made a "healthier version" that was, in fact, LESS HEALTHY. Because they made it with only fat free dairy products, rendering many of the vitamins they would have otherwise gotten from that meal utterly useless, because the body needs fats in order to absorb them properly.

Two tbsp of brown sugar does not render a meal "unhealthy." Full fat dairy products do not render a meal "unhealthy." Calorically dense foods do not render a meal "unhealthy."

If you're really concerned about your health, add more nutrients. Eat extra veggies or extra protein. But you're not actually worried about your health. You're worried about your weight.

You're worried that in the process of eating a homemade meal with lean protein and veggies and a rich, delicious sauce you will consume more energy than you can use today.

You're worried that energy might be stored so that your body can use it when it needs to later.

You're worried that your relationship with gravity might change. You've been taught to worry about that. You've been taught to misconstrue manufacturered body issues as being "health conscious." But you're not doing things to promote health. You're just trying to reduce your energy consumption no matter what.

And I am begging you to consider, that this is not actually a "health conscious" mindset at all.

[healing-food]

i...think im relapsing...but in a way i haven't done in a while...

instead of bingeing im more just...avoiding food...im also unbothered by when i throw up (i don't make myself throw up necessarily but it happens frequently rn and i'm not bothered by it)

[healing-food]

another thing is im like....sometimes when im coughing and dry heaving i catch myself thinking "come on, why can't i just throw up?" which probably more distressing than i feel emotionally about it

[healing-food]

i...think im relapsing...but in a way i haven't done in a while...

instead of bingeing im more just...avoiding food...im also unbothered by when i throw up (i don't make myself throw up necessarily but it happens frequently rn and i'm not bothered by it)

[robotslenderman]

I’m sorry my lovelies but the reason you hate yourself is because you treat you like shit. If you came up to me and then told me I was a fuck up who could never do anything right I'd fucking hate you too.

[robotslenderman]

if you didn't let me go to bed until after midnight because you'd rather watch Netflix than let me rest, and then got mad at me for not being productive the next day I'd be PISSED

[robotslenderman]

You keep calling me a fatass but you tell other overweight people they’re beautiful? Why do you keep shitting on MY weight, then?

Oh? It’s different if it’s me? Wow fuck you too

[robotslenderman]

Love is a verb! Self love isn’t a warm fuzzy feeling, it is compassion and action in support of yourself!

And yes, this includes having compassion for the bully in your head. Unfortunately that part is also you and deserves as much of your understanding as the rest of you.

[robotslenderman]

via @corazondebeskar

This is the real reason why you need to be kind to the bully in your brain too, because that motherfucker is really good at doing a switcheroo when you're not paying attention.

[healing-food]

blegh, my fear of food has come back with a vengeance....it doesn't help that i got triggered again recently to want to lose weight....so anyway ive been skipping breakfast

at least i have my vitamins...

it's also a cruel joke bc im scared of taking too much sugar/carbs rn but also i need sparkling beverages to not be debilitatingly nauseous after eating and the easiest accessible option is ginger ale...

[healing-food]

a friend recently gave me this (for a bit)

any recipe suggestions beyond just making really creamy mashed potatoes?

[injuries-in-dust]

"Proceeding with caution..."

[chilewithcarnage]

I think I cracked the code on why current fashion is all atheleisure, body con, lingerie outside the bedroom, tight polyester material and how it coincides with the rise of eating disorders/diet culture and heroin chic. the clothes are no longer fashion, the body is the fashion. rather than wearing something as an expression of yourself you wear to show of your body. that's not even me being on some slut shaming shit, but I think about most often when you see the comments on a person ootd unless they're somebody known for a alternative or maximalist style it's always the emphasis of the body. Body tea, body tea, snatched, snatched, ate no crumbs. That whole waistline trend. Just imagine how if fat people started a belly band trend or something similar how people would jump to decry it as fetish material. Yet the obsession with thinness is never seen as perverse, rather something that should be regarded as inspo or hell even promoting a healthy lifestyle.

[healing-food]

i keep eating eggs bc they're relatively affordable but they are not a safe food so i then suffer the consequences of nausea

[kaijuno]

CROCKPOT SEASON is here!!! 9 easy and cheap crockpot dump recipes

[this-is-trans-joy]

To whoever needs to hear this, because I certainly did a few years back, you don’t need to eat “like an adult”. You are allowed to prep meals or snacks like you’re a child, and I don’t mean you need to treat yourself like you’re immature, but you’re allowed to give yourself the same grace, patience and willingness to compromise as you would a little kid.

If you don’t like the textures of vegetables, you can blend them up and mix them into something tasty. If you struggle to cook a proper lunch, you can just make yourself a luncbox full of snacks or sandwiches that you can easily take out the fridge later on and pick at. If snacks or ready-meals targeted at children look easier or more appealing, you can just buy them. If you want to cut the crusts off your bread or use cookie cutters to shape your sandwiches into fun shapes, do it!

“It doesn’t matter what you eat, what’s important is just eating” is a crucial philosophy to take on board, but the other important thing to keep in mind is that absolutely no one should control how you eat your food. I don’t care if it’s considered childish, if changing how you eat something gets you to eat it in the first place, make the change. Let yourself eat exactly how you want to.

[rllysleepyy]

if you’re a fat person not looking to lose weight, i love you. the weight loss industry is going bonkers right now and i’m proud of you for continuing to take up space. kisses u on the forehead

[sudaca-swag]

as a woman in the ozempics era you HAVE to have friends who eat normally (3-4 meals a day, no girl dinner bullshit) and who are always down to going to cafes and eating burguers and fries and stuff, I cannot stress how vital for your mental health it is to have friends with whom you feel free to say you're hungry at any time and with whom you feel free to eat as much as you want

[healing-food]

i just went swimming for the first time in....i wanna say over a decade?

i try to move my body intentionally and mindfully, which is very difficult with chronic pain bc all i can think is "owowowowow" but i managed to swim for about 30 minutes and walked home.

this is following some recommendations from both my GP and a rheumatologist i recently saw. while i'm in the process of being evaluated for fibromyalgia and whatever else may be causing me pain, i should be treating myself like i have fibro to see if any of the tools help. one such suggestions for exercise is swimming bc it's very low impact. and while im not sure how im feeling in relation to it versus my hypermobility, i do feel really good after this one time. so hopefully ill be able to continue?

[genericpuff]

public service announcement to every plus-sized person in the chat:

you don't owe anyone an explanation for your body or your health

being fat isn't a moral failing deserving of judgment

you don't owe anyone self-shame or weight loss just to be loved and accepted

your health isn't solely defined by your weight

you deserve proper healthcare that doesn't reduce you to a number on a scale

you deserve to take care of your health in whatever way you need without being judged for trying

life is too short to not enjoy good food

life is WAY too short to care what other people think

just because other people want you to feel bad for being fat doesn't mean you should

you deserve to feel sexy and beautiful in your body without being reduced to a fetish or told that you're fetishizing fatness

you deserve to take pride in your body without being accused of 'promoting unhealthy lifestyles'

you deserve to date whoever the hell you want without judgment

you deserve to love yourself and your body without being called vain

you deserve to take selfies and share pictures of yourself without people commenting on your body

you deserve to have standards for yourself and how you're treated

you deserve to do what makes you happy and healthy without others turning you into a political statement or a social martyr

you're allowed to have flaws and quirks and personality traits that aren't attributed to your weight

there is no such thing as a "perfect fat person" and you certainly aren't responsible for setting that example

you are loved and you deserve to exist without apology or explanation

the world is better with you in it and that is not up for debate

[the-haiku-bot]

the world is better

with you in it and that is

not up for debate

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.