Hi, I'm crawling out of depression and I've let myself go a lot...not just in the healthy eating and working out department. I stopped focusing on a lot of things...I went two years without dying my hair or cutting it, it was a struggle reminding myself to brush my teeth every day. It was difficult to not resort to spending all of my money because it made me happy. This went on for 3 years.
It just wasn't worth it to me anymore. My depression stemmed from a family problem and I felt alone and abandoned. Broken and betrayed. And I just didn't care to workout. To eat the good stuff. I wanted to be happy and just do the stuff that makes me happy.
But I am feeling a lot better now and rather than hating the weight I've gained I'm trying to embrace it and have a better outlook on it. I am also starting to talk to my family again, too, and we are setting aside our differences and moving forward. I'm still very cautious at this point and I don't think we will ever be where we were, but I think it'll be ok.
I feel good overall, but I am very worried about my health now and want to better my diet for that reason. I've been doing small things for the past month. I haven't weighed myself because to be honest my weight isn't a concern for me, for once in my life.
I'm turning to tumblr to ask - what do you suggest to do to start sustainable habits? I'm trying to start changing things that are easy...like changing my bread (to ezekiel), changing my drinks (to carbonated water), adding veggies to a meal that I typically wouldn't...etc.
I'm cutting my chocolate down significantly and I'm trying to think of meals to make that do not involve pasta. Just to keep carbs down, but not to restrict myself because I think that's where I've always gone wrong in the past.
I did buy an elliptical to get back in the exercise game (and my husband has a little home gym), but I've gained so much that I want to get my eating in order first. I am trying to walk more and eventually upgrade to the elliptical before work.
Please give me pointers. I've felt like I've past a point of no return. I've never lost more than 30 pounds before and I am scared. I want to just commit but I need to teach myself how to be healthy. I need help. Serious suggestions. Maybe youtube channel suggestions. Tumblr page suggestions.
My idea of healthy lunch is salad. I hate salad. When you force yourself to eat something you hate, you don't follow through. I just need more ideas.