The deep end

sarah | 29 | artist | straight edge

[stlamb]

lydia morrow

[sun-crustt]

yall.

YALL.

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starting on my back and felt like I had to share

[oceantoyz]

[dreamgirlvibes]

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I got married earlier this month. I can’t believe I grew up on this website and made it here.

[kosmogrl]

[yellbug]

me when i remember it all

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I’m at the age now that the oldest dudes were when they were in my inbox commenting on my underage body. Men whose names I don’t remember, and the ones I do, I wish I didn’t. Some of them have apologized; most of them don’t know if they should.

“I can’t believe you’re only 15.”

Feels surreal to think about having been on this website for over 10 years and growing up so fast on it. Now I tell stories of adult men sending me dick pics and having to hide my phone screen while I was in the theater room as a 17 year old in high school and we laugh because it hurts and we can all relate and what else are we supposed to do?

Anyway. I’m 26 and I live in Texas now. My fiancé and I have lived 1100 miles apart for the last year and a half, but tomorrow he’s moving here. We’re getting married in five months in our dream destination, just the two of us. I learned how to pole dance and it feels like flying. Our cat died in April and I was out of town. I have a job I’m good at. They sent me to Portugal last year. I have an apartment that gets beautiful morning light and overlooks the city skyline. I have friends who encourage me to do all of the things I missed out on in adolescence (right now that means watching the Twilight movies for the first time). I came out as bisexual. I was diagnosed with autism. My sister is my best friend, something younger me would never have expected. I finally feel like I know who I am.

I’m not just a teenager on a website anymore who can be fetishized by men. I’m a whole person now. I always was.

[boxheadpaint]

[boethiah]

no such thing as wasting your 20s your 20s are for recovering from whatever the fuck happened to you as a kid so that youre ready to get weird with it in your 30s

[gay-thoughts-blog]

[lordofseagulls]

Lil Nas X should not be allowed to be this funny

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[mytearsrricochet]

[last-picture-show]

René Magritte, The Survivor, 1950

[seabeck]

Mount Rainier National Park