The new kenshin anime news has brought up so many feelings from that first year after the news broke. I feel fucking terrible to be honest like it feels just as intense as though it happened yesterday. I went on twitter(i know, cesspool website) and left and right people were talking about it and its not like i even disagree with everything they're saying (it shouldnt be made, people shouldnt watch it, watsuki will rot in hell forever with those that support him etc) but i am just heartbroken again and again at how something that used to bring me so much joy to share with others is spoken about like this. Since 2017 i have been able to enjoy kenshin and even make new positive memories with others revolving around it but its just.. its hard right now. Especially with the guilt. I am mostly past the guilt of having loved kenshin and given watsuki money in the past because i couldnt have known, but i feel guilt in waves still at how i am unable to cut kenshin out of my heart.
I do hope on a different emotional note that something is done eventually about the rampant pedophilia problem in the manga industry. Seeing how little anyone gives a fuck and how almost every major mangaka in the business continues to celebrate watsuki makes me furious. Naruto, inuyasha, bleach, toriko, one piece, trigun, mha, the list goes on for fucking ever none of those people care in the slightest. Imagine if any other industry was like that
I guess for now i just need to keep on reminding myself that
it is not wrong to love something that brought and continues to bring me immeasurable comfort.
I couldn't have known, and it is not my fault. (I know it is not my fault logically, but i have ocd and trauma from csa so. If you get it you get it.)
Loving kenshin does not make me a bad person.
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