Oyasumi, Punpun

26/triggering/doing my best

[hell-on-acid]

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[thereasonformyexistence]

“But you seem always to be dragging your heart along the ground.”

— Haruki Murakami, Thailand (via stuff—n—things)

[hell-on-acid]

engaged 🫶🏻

[hell-on-acid]

condemned.

& i am a disgusting, heaving mass of viscera—

gore and agony, a wound beyond wounds.

a smear of suffering so deeply human it inverts, and can only be called inhumane.

i do not know how to name this pain.

i do not know how to wrap my head around it.

the memory is like a dream half-forgotten, dissolving as i wake to a vice-grip stealing the air from my lungs.

the recollection of hope, strangled by a hand that screams:

“THIS IS HOW THINGS ARE.”

and shatters me.

a thousand deaths, an eternity of grief, loss personified—

the price i pay for daring, for dreaming, for wanting and pursuing a path the gods deemed “not for me.”

a lifetime of punishment.

the sorry skin I wear, pretending to be someone.

playing at somebody, a person with a name, and not a pit of suffering.

I bleed. It feels fake, too.

False hope, wishing wells in the palm of a monkey’s paw—

damn it all.

[hell-on-acid]

the devil tricked me into coming back to life with false love, false hope, and then twisted my wishes into something unrecognizable—

my dream became a hell of my own asking.

[hell-on-acid]

if i asked, would you join me?

this coffin for two, this eternal dream.

these sunflowers,

bowing their heads in the dark as we say goodnight.

[hell-on-acid]

reap the scorched&salted earth you’ve sown.

[hell-on-acid]

may the furies take you.

[tamsoj]

Charles Bukowski, "for crying out loud," from Slouching toward Nirvana: new poems

[tamsoj]

Charles Bukowski, "to hell and back," from Slouching toward Nirvana: new poems

[dark-romantics]

~ Ernest Hemingway

[bvrderline]

further apart, the closer that we are.

[lostunhappy]

[vixvaporub]

Goodnight Punpun | Oyasumi Punpun – Chapter 132

[folkpunkfishercat]

[hell-on-acid]

I wanted to take my skin off piece by piece and use it to sew up your holes

[angelnumbers]

this was always going to happen.

matthew stover, david levithan, margarita karapanou, aeschylus, karese burrows, richard siken