{{ANAKIN SKYWALKER INDIE RP BLOG. Familiar with the SW universe. Heterosexual. Clone Wars friendly.}} Fear is a path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. I know that. Attachment is forbidden. Possession is forbidden. But... Love is not something that takes a single form. It does not bend to rules and regulations. It is powerful, driving those consumed to madness and rage. Love blinds...burns the skies with its passion and has the capacity to reduce the soul to a pile of smouldering ash. On the other hand, love is beauty, warmth, and a gentle hand. Kindness in the midst of suffering. Unexpected praise. The longing ache of absence. The brazen hope of a young heart. The tired, knowing smile of an old friend. So with love, like anything else, you must learn to strike a balance. Too much can draw blood. Too little and you grow cold. To put it aside altogether...is impossible.
The thing is "Padawan. Steal a car." is actually one of the oldest and noblest Jedi traditions. Part of the standard duties of being a Padawan involves securing the getaway vehicle when your assignment has gone sideways six times over and developed into a full Situation. They have all done this. I know in my heart that even Luminara at some point looked at a situation and sighed and asked Barriss to please steal a car before the shooting starts.
i think it's great that people who've suffered religious trauma feel a connection to anakin. i also think it's deeply troubling that the majority of them are either unable to recognize or unwilling to admit that the religion he was indoctrinated into and abused by was the sith and not, in fact, the jedi.
i know it's easy to look at anakin's descent into darkness as he strays further from the jedi teachings and think "hey, that's how i felt disconnecting from my oppressive religion", but his darkness isn't coming from the mindfuck of exercising autonomy for the first time and wondering if you're doing it right.
anakin's darkness is coming from the atrocities he's committed in the past and the ones he finds himself more and more willing to commit the further he falls. it's coming from the fear and pain of a traumatic childhood of slavery on tatooine. it's coming from selfishness and hatred and a lust for power, because the only way he knows how to feel safe is to crush everyone he perceives as a threat - you know, kind of like the religion that traumatized you.
and that is exactly what the jedi tried to steer him away from. it's exactly what the jedi teachings are there to prevent. they wanted him to find peace in himself, and balance, and serenity. it was palpatine who saw his fear and uncertainty and stoked those flames until they grew into anger and hatred.
anakin didn't leave his oppressive, traumatizing religion behind. he ran toward it headfirst, and that is why he became vader. that is why he had a miserable life. that is why he lost everything.
anakin skywalker is a tragedy, and he was indoctrinated, manipulated, and abused, but it was not by the jedi.