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13~Aries~lesbian~she/her~ singer/songwriter This is where I'll be mostly posting my gay thoughts

[heythatskindagay]

Times I should have figured out I was gay but didn’t #5

In fifth grade I had a friend who would kiss her friends goodnight whenever she spent the night at their houses. The first time she spent the night at my house I pretended to be weirded out by it so people wouldn’t think I was weird but I actually enjoyed it. She never did it again at any other sleepovers we had together but 10 year old me secretly wanted her to but I didn’t know why.

[heythatskindagay]

Times I should have figured out I was gay but didn’t #4

When I was little I used to go around telling people “I don’t know how guys aren’t in love with every girl they meet? If I was a guy I would love them all.” Those were my exact words.

[sapphic-courtship-for-dummies]

Flirting Tip #32

Gaze at her lovingly while she pops off about science.

Who knew proteins could be so interesting?

[heythatskindagay]

The first time my ex came to my house I told her I liked to stargaze so she brought a telescope. For like 45 minutes she explained to me how it works and she put it together. I didn’t understand most of what she was saying but hearing her talk about all of that cool sciency stuff made my heart go ajxzgxkgaxkagxk

[heythatskindagay]

Times I should have figured out I was gay but didn’t #3

In 3rd grade a guy friend had a crush on me and anytime anyone mentioned it I was really obviously disgusted. Also, in 4th grade a guy asked me to be his valentine and the first time I didn’t say anything and I stormed off. Later he came back and said “is that a yes?” And I screamed “NO” in his face and stormed off again.

[heythatskindagay]

Times I should have figured out I was gay but didn’t #2

This is similar to the last one but a bit different. From the ages 9-12, every time I would get a new stuffed animal I would give it pronouns, a sexuality, and decide if it was cis or trans. I even had an aro-ace platypus that was the "mayor" of my stuffed animals.

[heythatskindagay]

Times I should have figured out I was gay but didn’t #1

When I was little I would always make my girl barbies get married. I also once had a wedding between Aurora from sleeping beauty and Belle from Beauty and the beast.

[extramadness]

[heythatskindagay]

Here's some advice: there are probably a lot of things you want to do but are too scared to do. But if you really want to do it, it's best you do it because you might regret it if you never do it. And I know it's scary but a lot of times the really scary things are worth feeling vulnerable and terrified for. Because once that fear washes over, you're left with the outcome which can be an amazing thing.

I used to never do anything I wanted to do because I was scared. I didn't sing in front of people. But one day I started doing it and it was scary but I loved it and the more I did it the better it got and I do it all the time now. I used to be so scared of rollercoasters that just thinking about riding one made me shake with fear. So one day I decided that I was forcing myself to go on a 280 foot roller coaster. It was really terrifying at first but then I realized how fun it is. And I've loved roller coasters since. The thing that was scarier than all of that was when I told the girl I liked how I felt. I felt scared and vulnerable and I don't like feeling vulnerable around people. But that resulted in a beautiful relationship and even though it ended, I don't regret it at all.

[heythatskindagay]

Lesbian fashion style is like Shrek

We have l a y e r s

[heythatskindagay]

I did some calculations and even if you didn't have a chance with 99% of the world's wlw, you still have a chance with roughly 3,734,880 wlw. There is someone out there for you. Don't give up💕

[kissofchita]

Gonna be putting this on all my posts from now on

[eilinknight]

HEY!!

Rude

[kissofchita]

Literally what did I say

[caterjunes]

#what did you expect you know they can’t sight read  (via idrils)

[the-tired-tenor]

911 I’d like to report a murder

[heythatskindagay]

I'm an alto and a soprano, so am I allowed to interact?

[extramadness]

[heythatskindagay]

Everytime my ex gets off the bus (I hate calling her that because I'm so used to people using it negatively, but even though she's my ex I still love her so much and she deserves everything good in this world) she stops and turns around for a second to wave at me. She's done this ever since before we were dating. And I always love that moment she turns around a waves. That one wave gets me through the rest of my day💕

[louisandthedagger]

where is the lie

[heythatskindagay]

Hahahaha remember that time my friend's mom thought that he was secretly dating me and a bunch of other girls at the same time but little did his mom know, me and my friend are BOTH gay

[extramadness]

[heythatskindagay]

Aye I'm staying loyal to her even though she's not in a good state to be in a relationship right now so clearly she should marry me in the future 👀 just a thought 👀

[heythatskindagay]

My hands are always FREEZING. It's a shame there's not a pretty girl here to warm them up for me 👀

[heythatskindagay]

I just listened to I Wanna Be Your Girlfriend by Girl in Red on repeat for an hour

[heythatskindagay]

I truly don't think I'll fall in love again. I know I'm still young but I can't imagine myself loving anyone besides her. I've only ever loved her. Maybe one day she'll be ready to date again, maybe I still have a chance. But will she still love me by that time? I have no way of knowing but I'll keep silently loving her and silently waiting. This is what I've been doing 8 months out of the 10 months I've known her. Silently loved and silently waited. I miss those months when I was able to love out loud.

[extramadness]

[heythatskindagay]

I hate how we talk now like we didn't spend the last month holding hands, feeding each other swedish fish, kissing, telling each other were beautiful, etc. It feels like none of it really happened now🥺