Fictional dudes want me. Cringe culture fears me.

🌺Jenni 🌺she/her🌺 20s 🌺

[hibiscus-ships]

Hello, I apologize for abruptly going dark. My break was unannounced but ultimately necessary.

I've made the decision to place this blog on indefinite hiatus for the foreseeable future. I love self shipping, but after placing some much needed distance between myself and this blog, I've realized that the self ship community at large is no longer fun or healthy for me. Watching several awesome people get harassed into deletion/inactivity over nothing has not made me feel the best about being here, and my personal last straw was seeing an adult try to smear an actual teenager a while back. So yeah, I don't know what else to say, other than I'm tapping out for my own peace of mind.

I will be refollowing a few of you from my main blog in the coming days. If you see a Tieria plushie and a 00-themed URL in your notifications, that's my blog and you are more than welcome to follow it! I have a separate sideblog where I post Gunpla and art (self ship and otherwise), so you can check that out as well.

To my followers: Thank you so much for your support. It got me through some very difficult times, and it's part of the reason as to why I wish things here were better.

-Jenni 🌺

[ls00-deactivated20221112]

It’s Tieria’s (tentative) birthday today!

[raptorific]

I’m genuinely worrying about people whose main source of social development comes like 100% from these incredibly insular and entirely unregulated internet spaces. Like this isn’t even a “technology is bad and kids these days don’t learn how to talk to one another” post, it’s a “basic conflict resolution skills and the practical realities of interacting with human beings are the sort of things you probably shouldn’t learn in an unstructured environment, populated largely by antisocial weirdos, and when you do develop your interpersonal skills entirely in that environment, you’re going to have a fast and rude awakening when you finally do have to apply those skills outside the tiny toxic community you cultivated them in and find that they don’t transfer well to classroom discussions or dates or job interviews or having a roommate”

[faerieyuri]

i've had so many conversations with people in fandom/creators' circles who are genuinely afraid to make the stories or art they want because they fear (often with good reason!) that their friends might kick them out of their circles, or worse, launch a public harassment campaign against them.

as someone recovering from this fear-based mindset, i want to affirm:

- friends who use implicit or explicit threats to maintain social control are not your friends

- communities that monitor your social media and ao3 to surveil you for perceived transgressive content are not safe communities

- the vast majority of people are NOT going to hate you if you make the art you want

- if you find yourself in a friend group that makes you feel afraid to speak your mind, it's in your interest to disentangle yourself from that group as quickly as possible

- real, honest disagreements between friends can be solved respectfully without the use of public shaming

- if you're feeling afraid in a community, it's likely that others are feeling afraid too. support your friends who may be struggling to leave an abusive fan or creative community, and let them know you're a safe person to voice doubts and disagreement to.

- if you're feeling like you'll never find a safer community of people, i promise there are others who feel that way too. it may take some time, but you'll find people who treat you and your ideas with respect. a good place to start is the people who make the type of art that you admire but that you're too afraid to make yourself.

ok that's all, take care of each other and be nice 💜

[griseldagimpel]

This is all excellent advice.

I'll add: okay, so not too long ago, one of my fics got put in the spotlight of the fandom panopticon. Now, the person who'd done this hadn't found my fic objectionable; they were just trying to be funny on the internet, but then their post had taken off because tumblr is built to make posts circulate.

A lot of the people reacting to my fic (or, well, to the concept of my fic, since everyone who actually read it had to admit - sometimes grudgingly - that the execution was great) were just having a laugh. And a couple of people seemed to actually find it objectionable. (They have been blocked.)

But there were many where their objections came off as performative. After all, if my fic was in the spotlight of the panopticon, it meant that theirs wasn't.

Even though the initial person hadn't found my fic objectionable, people perceived their funny post as Objecting and so rushed to asserted that oh no siree, nothing they wrote was the objectionable thing.

Fandom as a Panopticon is incredibly unhealthy, and I don't know how many people in it are actually happy with that state of affairs. Because the fear at the back of everyone's mind is that they could be next.

[t00thpasteface]

got told at lunch "you feel like Tumblr Incarnate" and i had to tell them i've been here for 13 years and counting. i was here three years before dashcon happened. i saw the mishapocalypse. i survived the gigapause. i've been here longer than the shoelaces post. i've been here since it was hipsters versus fandom and i played both sides extensively by overdoing the sepia filters on everything and making my own flashing galaxy gif edits for my fandom posts. i'm every tumblr. it's all in me

[dovelylittlebird]

Oh ancient one what wisdom do you hold?

[t00thpasteface]

99% of callout posts are bullshit and just petty personal drama someone is escalating to get even on a grudge. do not engage with these, do not freelance as a cop

DNIs do not work. accept this. internalize that people you don't like will see your posts and engage with them. this is unavoidable and the sooner you make peace with it the freer your mind will be. block the freaks and don't sweat the small stuff

building a tight knit circle of fellow weirdos who vibe with your particular quirks and taste is infinitely more rewarding and sustainable than chasing the biggest numbers

don't respond to bad-faith arguments or bad takes; just block people, blacklist tags, filter post content, and move on. don't feed the trolls (or the bigots)

don't hate-follow

don't tag your hate (ex. if you're posting about how much you hate a ship, don't tag it as that ship, etc.)

don't feel obligated to keep following someone who posts stuff that upsets/depresses/angers/bores you just because you know them really well, or because you're mutuals, or because you used to like what they post. following is nothing personal and neither is unfollowing

op doesn't know you; avoid parasocial relationships

don't pick fights or reblog posts just to disagree/argue

spread joy and positivity in your circles

disable anonymous asks

[hyacinthorchids]

MTAS Trucker Hats Part 1

[patricia-taxxon]

u gotta be hedonistic about vegetables. they're not good boy food that u eat to prove you're mature, they're the food that you can shovel into your mouth at 5 am without getting nauseous

[hellolovelyscientist]

#they also taste DECADENT baked with butter and honey#or olive oil and herbs#or fried with sausage#or made into salad with cheese and nuts and dressing#or simmered in beef broth with baby potatoes#INDULGE in your veggies#this is a manifesto

[disgustinggf]

[hibiscus-ships]

Btw I have watched the My Time At Evershine trailer (sequel to My Time At Sandrock) and I have something to say. 🌺

[transfaguette]

genuinely one of the most powerful things you can & should do on this site is refuse to engage in bad faith criticism and arguments that don't seem to understand your point. It's not your job to pick apart and make sense of their response. I'm so guilty of trying to piece together the shit people say to me when its full of non sequiturs and misinterpretations. Just don't do it.

[apolladay]

When you hear the term “skin colored” or “flesh colored,” what do you envision?

Light skin, and I’m light-skinned

Light skin, and I’m dark-skinned

Dark skin, and I’m dark-skinned

Dark skin, and I’m light-skinned

Nuance/bald/vanilla extract

Voting ended onOct 1, 2024

[prokopetz]

Wrong: Ada Lovelace invented computer science and immediately tried to use it to cheat at gambling because she was Lord Byron's daughter.

Right: Ada Lovelace invented computer science and immediately tried to use it to cheat at gambling because that was the closest you could get in 1850 to being a Super Mario 64 speedrunner.

[bear-disguised-as-a-human]

This is how I found out that Ada Lovelace was Lord Byrons daughter

[prokopetz]

Well, yeah. That's why she received the unusual education which laid the foundation for her later discoveries in the first place. Her mother, Lady Byron, firmly believed three things:

It was her responsibility as a mother to ensure that Ada didn't turn out like her father;

Fundamentally, the thing that was wrong with Lord Byron is that he was a poet; and

The opposite of poetry is math.

Ada Lovelace's biography handily illustrates how well this theory worked out in practice.

[arqueete]

Hark, a vagrant: 298

[selfshipstation]

Pick a romantic F/O!

It’s 5 years before they and your S/I get together. Someone who is able to see the future approaches your S/I and tells them they will end up with the F/O.

Do they believe them?

Yes

No

They don’t know who F/O is yet.

They don’t know if they believe them.

Other

Voting ended onSep 29, 2024

[giragirameganedan]

its crazy how lolcow culture is mainstream to the point where people in my life will look at me like im the weird one for being like ‘no i actually dont want to watch compilations of random disabled people being stalked and tormented by neonazis with you i dont find that funny’

[giragirameganedan]

“but you dont get it, this time the impoverished schizophrenic in active psychosis with a severe learning disability and zero competent support… did something BAD” oh no way i never would have guessed. thats hilarious man

[yamada-ryo]

that is a concorde

that is specifically an air france concorde

france exists in gundam??

[loop-zoop]

[paper-mario-wiki]

i thought this was a screenshot of Peggy Hill for a second

[camelpimp]

[soon-palestine]

More profound when you consider that Doctors Without Borders rarely makes political statements.

In #UNSC mtg on Middle East, @MSF SG Christopher Lockyear says: "Israeli forces have attacked our convoys, detained our staff, bulldozed our vehicles, hospitals have been bombed and raided. And now for a second time, one of our staff shelters has been hit. This pattern of attacks is either intentional or indicative of reckless incompetence. Our colleagues in #Gaza are fearful that as I speak to you today, they will be punished tomorrow."

He adds: "The humanitarian response in Gaza today is an illusion. A convenient illusion that perpetuates a narrative that this war is being waged in line with international laws. Calls for humanitarian assistance have echoed across this chamber. Yet in Gaza we have less and less every day, less space, less medicine, less food, less water, less safety."

[snailchimera]

Specifically, Doctors Without Borders rarely makes political statements because doing so can jeopardize their ability to work in as many places as possible (including places controlled by incredibly shitty governments), and their one singular goal is to provide medical care wherever it's needed. They are extremely practical-minded as an organization and will, regardless of members' personal beliefs, avoid potentially offending people who have the ability to make their work more difficult/impossible. All they care about is getting doctors to the people who need the doctors. If they're doing this, it's because providing medical care in Palestine has become so difficult that calling on the global community for action gives them better odds of being able to do their jobs than avoiding offense to the Israeli government, possibly because offending the Israeli government can no longer make the situation worse than it already is.

[atlinmerrick]

If you don't know what to do for this world, if calls to help Palestine confuse you because there are many, Doctors Without Borders is always there. They go where they are needed. They provide help. They are always there. You can donate to Doctors Without Borders anytime as they are always helping.

Make a general donation

A donation specific to Gaza

[yamotasu]

"It's Been 12 years..."

WIP 'n these sketches for them.

After nearly 8 years of working and their relationship together after a high-profile homicide case, Majima and Khloe had grown close. Majima, a former Yakuza, and Khloe, a retired FBI agent, had shared a deep bond forged through countless dangers and close calls. But when the case ended and they had to part ways, fate was not kind. Khloe believed Majima had been killed during the events of Yakuza 5, and Majima thought Khloe had moved on with her life after they lost contact. Their separation was marked by silence, and both assumed the other was lost to them.

Now, years later, Khloe is living a quiet life in Waikiki, running a restaurant, having retired from the FBI. Her daughter has just finished college, and she’s found some peace, though her heart still aches with the memories of Majima. Unexpectedly, there’s a knock at her door. Khloe opens it to see the face she never thought she’d see again—Majima, standing there with a familiar, almost mischievous smile.

“I promised I’d see you again… once I was no longer Yakuza,” he says. The last time they saw each other was back in the 2008 when Majima tells Khloe when she left Japan to go home. Now, here he is, back in her life, as if fate had always planned for this reunion.

(I'm going to color this soon)