Time to share something:
It is now almost a week after my first Ghost Ritual and one specific thing happened that I need to share since it made me realize why I am as deep into ghost as I am.
When they played moac Copia/Tobias bend over to our side and looked directly into my direction as he sung "your beauty never ever scared me". I am aware he was just performing and was not directing this to anyone specificaly in the crowd. Still, from my perspectiv it looked like he was looking at me... singing this line to me... and something in me healed.
Being someone who never feld like they are pretty in their youth, someone that only got called names, someone that only got laughed at, someone who was never seen as loveable and in turn started to think this about themselves as well, this small thing moved me. It made me feel seen, not because he really saw me (he probably did not), but because it made me finally realize the deeper meaning of the line (at least in my way of interpretation)
"No matter what they called you, no matter how they made you feel, no matter how ugly you feel because of the way they treated you... your beauty never scared me"
