I get jealous when I see people around me happy, calm ,and at peace with their lives. It's pathetic but if only I could change the past..

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I get jealous when I see people around me happy, calm ,and at peace with their lives. It's pathetic but if only I could change the past..
Maybe I'm the only thing preventing my happiness?
I miss you and I'll always miss you but I have to let you go...
I'm slowly forgetting you.. Everyday you keep fading from my memories. How could I forget those eyes? The eyes that made me feel special one day...
I try, I really do.. but every time I give life a chance, it reminds me of everything wrong. Am I never escaping this labyrinth?
Why should I pay the price for someone's fault? Why does my life have to be ruined because of everything they are?
If only I could get a second chance, to be everything I'm not today. A chance to be who I should've been but never got to be..
It's been months. I keep telling myself I'm done with you but why do I always want to tell you everything happening in my life? Why do I miss your curiosity about me? Your eyes when they see through me?
With every disappointment, I change. I lose something in me. I become quieter. Does it ever end?
Why do I always hurt myself? You're not going to change so why do I keep getting disappointed? Maybe sometimes I naively believe you actually will..
I could've reached out, I could've gone back but I didn't. I wasted all the chances I could've got. I burnt all the ships.. But why do I still long for it?
I miss you but I just can't..
I had a dream it never happened. It was all fine, I was me again. But then I woke up and in those few seconds it felt real, like all I suffered was just a nightmare only to realize it wasn't..
I want to live again, to feel again, to be free but it keeps holding me back. It's always there making sure I never forget..
I'm sorry for being this cold. It's the only way to not feel pain, to not feel anything...
Maybe I'm just a bad person making believe I'm not. What if I really deserve all what happened. What if I only make people around me suffer..