Crow

They/Them

[hundredacreangel]

It is always going to be so beautiful to me that in Season 4, Dean desperately doesn't want to feel anything for so long, but then he is pleading with an angel to believe in the power of hope, of sacrifice, of love.

And Castiel is terrified of feeling. He sees the suffering Dean has been through. He himself has suffered at the hands of "Heaven's persuasion." And feeling means falling.

"If there is anything worth dying for, this is it."

Dean, the man terrified of death if it brings him back to Hell and Castiel, the angel who is supposed to only feel devotion to Heaven, find something worth dying for, living for, and everything in between.

Like what do you mean that Dean and Castiel who were slowly losing faith in everything found faith in each other? And I'm just supposed to be normal about that?

[parasocializer]

would anyone read a fic abt young sam being obsessed w birds n wanting to be an ornithologist as a kid so the family gets a parakeet n dean ends up being the one having to preen it cuz sam is a snot n hes very good at it to the point where this lil ass parakeet informs this bird boy castiel of deans skills which leads to bird boy visiting dean n routinely being preened by him n they become bffs. etc

[beybuniki]

cas: Dean and I were rubbin’ and scrubbin’ each other in purgatory

Dean: please don’t say it like that

Sam: I applied to grad school

[idontneedasymbol]

[beybuniki]

buddy

[shallowseeker]

dean smith starts intercepting angel transmissions during his work calls

he doesn’t, of course, know what it is, only it’s definitely weird voices, and no one else hears it , and he’s sure he’s going nuts

he changes headset over headset and one day even shuts his office door and tries out tin foil

to no avail

[shallowseeker]

i guess this very well could be cas trying to break into zach’s mini fantasy fortress

he’s trying to warn dean smith, which just would only serve to make dean more and more paranoid (a voice telling him not to trust anyone? to run? i mean, yikes)

this culminates in cas breaking into the world but majorly incognito, as a very “inconspicuous” character, maybe a janitor

[shallowseeker]

cas ambushes the admin assistant, and apologizes profusely for the ‘almost-miss’

all the while fucking up the lids of dean smith’s coffee

so when dean smith inevitably takes a drink, there’s -predictably- a huge (very hot) mess

cas positions himself perfectly, as the closet building mgmnt to dean’s office, and as soon as he hears the pained yelp, he’s on his way to clean up the coffee catastrophe

he doesn’t want to spook dean ofc or blow his own cover, so mostly he’s collecting details on what might be keeping dean here (as it turns out: bobby, ellen, jo).

[shallowseeker]

Oh Janitor Cas is definitely getting surprise-kissed, and he’s like mmmmmmmmm? leaning pleasantly into it before he REMEMBERS

so Cas ofc breaks it off and Dean Smith panics, thinking he just dangerously outed himself and misread everything, Cas tries to soothe the distress with a half-truth, like:

“Dean, if you really knew me, you wouldn’t want this…”

And that somehow backfires, bc Dean Smith gets all starry-eyed, “So come to the hospital with me tomorrow, and we’ll grab lunch after… get to know each other…”

[shallowseeker]

#dean smith au

#janitor cas

#dean’s world grows legs and the hospital materializes and cas finds himself meeting the spectre of dean smiths family

#and he’s so charmed but also heartbroken

[scoobydoodean]

A few moments later:

Sam insists to Dean that he needs to do the trial alone so Dean can’t come, but then is visibly extremely anxious once he realizes Ajay’s not going to be with him in hell or purgatory (aka realizing he’s going to be alone).

It was never about doing the Trial alone. It was about doing the trial without Dean—proving he could.

[scoobydoodean]

Purgatory seems to frequently become a location for reflection, doesn’t it? Sometimes it’s for wallowing in ones failures. You have to wonder what Sam’s thinking, anxious being alone in Purgatory—the place Dean was trapped in for a year while Sam didn’t look for him… the guilt he feels over that that he represses… and he’s about to step into hell, which is another place Dean went where Sam tried to get him out (or stop him from going altogether) and couldn’t. And then when Dean came back, there was another failure—an emotional one they don’t talk about: Sam’s narrative around Dean’s hell trauma quickly becoming that hell broke Dean and made Dean weak (using that as justification to lie to and sideline him). Now Sam’s been to hell too, and didn’t do so hot with the trauma. Dean buried his hell trauma on his own but Sam couldn’t. He needed a supernatural fix. And I do think these are other ways Sam feels he’s not only let Dean down, but can’t measure up, and that’s why he’s so stuck on proving he doesn’t need Dean to have his back, and taking offense to Dean wanting to have his back.

[scoobydoodean]

Sam is super on edge walking through Purgatory (gotta be running through his mind that Dean was there for a YEAR. Sam is taking controlled breaths and it’s been like 10 minutes). Then he gets into hell… and all the spirits he sees are calling for their loved ones. They’re calling for their loved ones to rescue them.

Couldn’t save Dean from hell… didn’t look for Dean when he was in Purgatory… Sam’s not gonna confront those failures specifically out loud, but we know what he’s talking about when he breaks down about them at the end of the season… about how he’s a failure.

[scoobydoodean]

#followup #very important that after sam hears this woman #he says what? #i'm sorry i'm not him #i'm not him #i'm not the hero #i'm not a perfect brother #i'm not an angel

AND @shallowseeker WITH THE STEEL CHAIR

[scoobydoodean]

Yeah so Sam’s solo rescue attempt of Bobby? Bobby ends up saving him from two demons in hell. Then when they get out into Purgatory, Sam gets CONFRONTED by Bobby for abandoning Dean there.

Then Sam realizes Ajay is gone, and that Dean has had to bail them out... VIA BENNY, who has showed up to rescue them, even though Sam has been a TOTAL PIECE OF SHIT to him and Sam realizes that Benny isn't the person Sam insisted he was at ALL. So it's more stuff Sam was WRONG about and Dean was RIGHT about—changes how Sam reevaluates how he behaved in Citizen Fang (where he was SO confident he was right!)

And Dean made this risky play with Benny, and Benny didn't come back—Dean loses Benny and never gets to make things right with him because Benny came down there to help HIM! And the thing is... they never would have NEEDED Benny if Dean had come on the trial with Sam to begin with like he wanted!!! Because Dean knew the way to the human portal and could have instantly pivoted when Ajay didn't show! So this situation comes about because SAM insisted he could do all this alone without Dean and then he couldn't and Dean had to bail him out, and Dean lost somebody who mattered to him in the process making a risky play to help him, and it is just further and further digging into the wound that he can't manage without Dean, that Dean is the hero and Sam is not, and on top of it... that Dean is more loving, more forgiving, more selfless. He's just a better man. Like this is stuff Sam is thinking!

[soft-pine]

15.19 deleted scene & 1.08 bugs

[soft-pine]

coincidence? NOPE!!!! PATTERN!!!!!

dean literally Does this On Purpose to set a boundary when he feels he's been treated badly so jot. that. down !

[frownyalfred]

Bruce Wayne is best viewed through the lens of “holy shit your parents were genuinely so hot, insanely charismatic, wild, and hot and do whatever the fuck they want, and then they combined their DNA??????? they made one person out of that??” because then you truly understand he’s just Like That.

it’s not even that he’s doomed to be the main character. he’s just the product of two stars collapsing into each other while also fucking the butler along the way. that man was never going to have a normal life.

[beybuniki]

purgatory "night" routine

probably unpopular and easy to dispute but I like to think that the beginnings of their friendship is devoid of any sexual tension or awkwardness, still weird but Cas is so devoid of any sexuality in the beginning that Dean doesn’t really think about him like that like that's just how Cas is, and purgatory is so liminal and lawless in general that conventional boundaries are completely lifted why yes let's get naked and scrub our backs in this river let's spoon so Dean can rest a bit while Cas can make sure nothing happens to him this is what friends & comrades do. Dean is also touch-starved and craves normality so he doesn't mind Cas' insistence to wrap him in his stinky trenchcoat and watch over him while he rests idk it’s a mess and Benny thinks it’s very funny and oddly endearing and so do I

purgatory has great yaoi potential too but i feel like even that can co-exist with whatever I doodled today, nothing makes sense in purgatory

[thevioletcaptain]

thinking about that time samuel campbell met cas and immediately said "you're scrawnier than i pictured"

[thevioletcaptain]

and then when charlie met cas and was like, "i thought you’d be shorter"

[thevioletcaptain]

and how in both cases it's 10000% because dean wouldn't shut up about the guy.

like clearly he was trying to impress his piece of shit grandpa with stuff like "yeah my buddy cas the literal angel who pulled me out of hell is SUPER TOUGH and BADASS"

and then later he was clearly telling charlie stuff like "yeah he's dorky this dorky little guy, y'know, i could put him in my pocket"

and those things are all true about cas btw!

but dean is obsessed with him and thinks other people should also be obsessed with him so he tailors his descriptions accordingly.

[werepire05]

Sometimes supernatural is so gay it has me crying rainbow tears idk.

[sheepstiel]

*cas voice* yes dean you have to sit in my lap for me to heal you. yes i have to gently cradle your face while i do it. it would help if you could audibly breathe out.

[microcomets]

a lot of fandom seems to gloss over the fact that cas is like, funny? like has a dry sense of humor. often it gets pigeonholed into naivete or cluelessness, which in the earlier seasons is sometimes genuine, but take, for example:

“But come on, dried dung can only be stacked so high.”

“I’m not ashamed to say that my big brother knocked me into next week.”

“It’s a shortened version of my name.”

“I’m an angel, you ass.”

“I missed television.”

“The bird represents God. And coyote is man, endlessly chasing the divine, yet never able to catch him. It’s…it’s hilarious.”

“[What the hell?] Guess again.”

“Uh, you could try….insouciant, maybe.”

“You should’ve seen Luke.”

“[Do I look like I’m joking?] …you never look like you’re joking.”

“Just so you understand….why I can’t help.”

“[How was Jerusalem?] Arid.”

“[What was riding in a car like?] Uh…slow.”

“[I’m dead?] Condolences.”

“Don’t ask stupid questions.”

“[How’d you get here??] I took a bus.”

“[‘Hello? Hello??’] Uh…that is still the term.”

“It seems this is going to require talking to people.”

“Less dumb, less ass.”

“I got this. I don’t got this.”

“[to a cat] Hey, I’m not through with you.”

cas’ humor is weird and offbeat and esoteric because….he is? cas is weird and offbeat and esoteric. luv it.

[jasmineintheforest]

sam and cas disaster in-laws so true. but also! rowena and dean disaster in-laws is so underrated. they're failgirls together. they're so smart and so stupid and so femme together. they don't start any apocalypses but they do worse things like putting on blonde wigs for disguise and trying to take down demon pimps etc.

[limbel]

controversial opinion maybe but i think they were actually RIGHT to give dean a hundred iterations of the same lame outfit because now everytime i see him wearing even the most mundane piece of clothing (that a completely normal person would wear on a completely normal day) i get +1000 hp and thee strenght to lift cars with my bare hands

[limbel]

i could take down an entire army

[greatcometcas]

DEAN WINCHESTER in LAZARUS RISING

[greatcometcas]