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hello guys !!!!! i miss tumblr so much ㅠㅠㅠㅠ anyway i broke my laptop (yes i deadass break everything i touch even im tired with myself) so i dont know if i still can update or not :((( tumblr is banned here in my country and my laptop is the only one with vpn so i cant access tumblr on other laptops in the house. and the app sucks real bad so i can't update freely from here as well :(( i'll try to find a way tho. thank you for keeping up so far!
its almost eid means i'll be super busy oof ㅠㅠㅠㅠ and twitter locked me out :(((( it sucks aaaaahhhh everything does. my twitter is now @ bjytracks.
disclaimer before we start: im not trying to offend anyone or insult about how unloyal wannables are or anything. i’m also not calling my mutuals out bc i understand and i know you guys are amazing people and really it’s not your fault lmao. wannables are amazing and appreciated and loved by our 11 babies and fellow wannables!!!! also i have like 9283928 grammatical mistakes if you will excuse me-
omg yes this is SO RIGHT. its not like ymc actually give two shits about the boys, they only do because wanna one and us wannables are money maker for them lmao. ymc lacks creativity, yet keeps demanding for us to spend money on them. this is getting ridiculous tbvh. lip card? 6 versions of album (which designs aren't even different from the previous ones lol)? lol gdi ymc you just released a photo essay. the vip standing ticket in my country reach 3 and a half million. everything is about money money money, especially in this era.
and this wanna one go xcon ... i don't know what to say anymore lol. in the previous wanna one go, we got 2 hours content of 11 boys having fun. they're happy, we're happy. but what is this lmao? everything is suddenly a competition in this w1 go, as if ymc forgot that wanna one themselves formed from a survival show. it saddens me, esp knowing we can't stop the fans from comparing each subunits. despite the album name, we are so divided. since everything is a promo, i found it sad that im not even that excited anymore. i feel like we're all staying for the boys only. omg this is sad.
“Is your heart still beating?” he asked, still not looking at her. “That’s what you’re doing to me. Every single time you’re around.”
Characters: Bae Jinyoung x nameless OC
Genre: Fluff + Tsundere!Baejin uwu
Words count: 1498
A/N: This has been in my ask box for quite sometime and i finally managed to finish it i’m so sorry for the wait :(( anyways if this isnt what you expected or you dont like it please forgive me also ㅠㅠㅠㅠ thanks for the ask though! ♡
"Did he pick up the phone?"
Jinyoung turned his head to the shorter person, staring straight into her eyes then shaking his head, acting cool like he usually was. He was silently praying that his heart didn't betray him. It was beating faster that it should. This girl just had the power to play with his heartbeat like that.
"So we're trapped here? It's raining soon!" she panicked, looking at the sky.
Jinyoung just stared at her blankly. He had to keep his cool. He didn't even know why, in front of this girl, he just wanted to act cool and like he doesn't actually care. It was dumb of him to think of that, but still. He wanted to be one of those admirable guys in manga.
"Bae jinyoung? Are you deaf?"
What the heck.
Jinyoung turned his head back at her, looking offended. She also didn't ask out of pure curiousity, but this guy was driving her crazy. She was literally panicking, the sky was getting darker and it's gonna rain soon, but then this guy right next to her, being another person fooled by their other friends, acting like he didn't hear her.
"What?" Jinyoung tried to chill, although the fact that he was offended was truly visible.
"It's raining soon, you heard me, right? And we're getting nowhere, they're not picking up their phones, what are we gonna do?" she asked out of frustration and honestly, Jinyoung thought it was cute.
She was the new girl at school who quickly became the talk between the guys in Jinyoung's soccer team because she was really pretty and nice. She sat in front of him in the class and she was really smart too. The other guys were trying to get her number and Jinyoung, being a dumbass he was, decided to act differently like he couldn't give two shits about her.
When actually, she had the power to increase and decrease the pace of his heartbeat just by doing simple things.
They were actually planning to do a group project together. It was Jinyoung, her and their two other friends, who were dating and seeming to notice that Jinyoung wasn't the Jinyoung they know when he's around her. Long story short, the two were trying to set them up without them knowing, telling them to meet up together with the group in the bus stop, but in the end didn't show up.
"We wait," Jinyoung shrugged.
"Her phone's turned off and Jihoon didn't pick up the phone .... are we actually doing the project or not?" she sighed heavily, staring blankly at the raindrops falling onto the ground after tapping on her phone for a while.
"Don't know," Jinyoung shrugged again, didn't even bother to look at her.
She frowned, getting frustrated. She wanted to scream at the guy. Who did he think he was? She wanted to knock some sense into him but she just stood there staring at him with a frown on her face. To be very honest, it hurt her that he was acting this way.
Jinyoung, on the other side, wanting to keep up with the act. He thought he was cool enough, not realizing that she could actually see his dorky side when he thought she didn't notice. She thought that he was actually pretty cute, and him acting this way towards her made her think too much. Was she really that bad that he doesn't want to associate himself with her?
She thought doing a group project together would make him warm up to her and treat her just like he usually does to people. Apparently not.
Not yet.
"Bae Jinyoung," she called out. "Do you really ... hate me that much?"
At this, Jinyoung turned his head in surprise. This was unexpected. His eyebrows narrowed in confusion, but his cold expression still hadn't fade. They stared at each other intensely, him waiting for her to explain and her wanting him to quickly reply.
She sighed. "Am I really that bad?" she asked again. "Am I that bad that you just ... don't want to deal with me?"
Jinyoung nervously shook his head, still look too stiff despite the gesture. "That’s ... that's not the case. No."
"But don't you think i can see that? Is that just how you are with new people?" she asked again, taking a few steps closer next to him.
"Uh ... yes," jinyoung nodded, the pace of his heartbeat increased, but he didn't even bother to move away.
Damn it. Why am i scared?
"But you were more like ... you dislike me than being shy," she exhaled a breath. "You give short answers, and ... you act like i'm not there most of the time when i'm around. You don't even bother to look at me. And you—"
"That's not the case," he cut her off.
The sound of the rain was thankfully louder than Jinyoung's heartbeat. He tried to look chill, but in fact he actually felt like he's going to burst anytime soon. His mind was spinning so fast because she was being unnecessarily too close. His mouth tried to form a word, to explain further and come up with an excuse, but he just couldn't.
Jinyoung gave up. He looked at the rain blankly, as if there was nothing on his mind.
"Then what?" she asked. "Tell me. Tell me if i do wrong,"
Jinyoung continued to ignore her as his heart was beating faster and faster each second. He didn't move his gaze. His focus was still on the wet pavement and the loud sound of raindrops, trying to keep himself sane.
"You're actually pretty cute, you know."
Oh my god, shut the fuck up before I'm losing it for real.
"So tell me," she said, her voice was unexpectedly lower than she intended to. he turned his gaze to her, and it felt like his heart stopped right there. "Why are you doing this to me?"
God fucking damn it.
Her light brown eyes stared at him intensely, waiting for an answer, as he stared back with fear being too apparent in his gaze. He exhaled a breath he didn't realize he was holding, trying to shake off the fear and keep himself sane. He bit his lower lip, unsure.
But he sure was going to teach her a lesson.
"Do you really want to know?" he asked, his voice was lower than her as words blurted out of his mouth.
Her eyes widened in surprise. It was his turn to make her heart beating faster than it should. And it was her turn to be scared.
But she was curious and excited. She wanted to discover more about this cold, mysterious guy.
So she nodded her head.
"Then don't regret it."
She closed her eyes, getting ready of all the possibilities. He would probably throw some words out of his mouth, some unexpected ones. She was all hears, she was ready to hear it.
But he still stood there unmoving. She could feel his breath against her face, finally realizing that she had been holding her own. She opened her eyes, confusion written all over her face. She narrowed her eyebrows, still demanding an answer.
"Okay?" he asked again, smirking.
God, he was driving her crazy.
"Uh ... yes," she said, biting her lower lip. "Uh, yes, okay."
But instead of actually do something, he just stared at her for a few more seconds before sighing and turned his gaze back to the rain. At this point, their heartbeats were probably louder than the rain ever would. They were already deaf because the thumping sound was blasting against their ears, couldn't focus on anything else.
"Ah. I would be the one who regrets it though," he sighed, biting his lower lip again.
"Well, don't be!" she exclaimed. "I ... I need an explanation. I don't want us to be partners when all you do is ignoring me when I say something important."
He turned to her again. "Are you really really sure?"
"Yes, I really really am."
And that was it. That was it before he started kissing her softly, and she felt like she had lost all her senses of reality. As she started to kiss back, he pulled away, turning his head away from her. She could see that his ears were red, and it didn't take her a while to realizing that she was also a blushing mess.
"Is your heart still beating?" he asked, still not looking at her. "That's what you're doing to me. Every single time you're around."
i just wanna tell you that i love your baejin text au!! i'm rooting for the next parts♡ thank you for sharing it with us!
ah thank you ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ to be very honest, i don't think anyone actually read it and that's exactly why i kinda lost my motivation to continue ㅠㅠㅠ anyways, i'll try to finish it before i leave ^^ i kinda have some problem with the series but uhhh i'll fix it soon. thank you so much for the support! ♡
Characters: Lee Daehwi x nameless OC x Bae Jinyoung
Genre: Fluff ?? Slightly angsty, i think ?? + Reverse Idol!AU + School President!Daehwi :))
Words count: 1948
A/N: Its almost 2am and im editing this omg pray for my soul lol. anyway, @princehwii said they’d like to see me write about daehwi. its been fun hehe but im sorry if u dont like it :( leave feedback? thank you!
I loved this so much I’m weak 😪 now you got me thinking whether they get a happy ending but lemme tell you at the end my full uwu jumped out at this, thank you 💖
hey~ I’d love to see some of your writing about daehwi? I love that boy 😪 also I’d love to be friends
hello! i tried, hehe, you can check it out here. i’m sorry if you don’t like it though, i really tried ㅠㅠ anyways yes yes yes just hit my message anytime!! uwu
Characters: Lee Daehwi x nameless OC x Bae Jinyoung
Genre: Fluff ?? Slightly angsty, i think ?? + Reverse Idol!AU + School President!Daehwi :))
Words count: 1948
A/N: Its almost 2am and im editing this omg pray for my soul lol. anyway, @princehwii said they’d like to see me write about daehwi. its been fun hehe but im sorry if u dont like it :( leave feedback? thank you!
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"Look! Look it's her!"
Daehwi turned his head immidiately, his eyes gazing at the girl his best friend Jinyoung pointed at. It was her, looking so beautiful like she usually is. Daehwi didn't seem like the only person who think that way, knowing that the whole classroom was staring at the same person the moment she took a step in.
"Uh, guys?" she asked nervously, showing confusion on her expression. "I'm ... uncomfortable? Please don't stare like that."
And just like that, half of the students in the classroom turned their heads away, going back to do whatever they were doing before she showed up.
But Daehwi still froze in his spot, eyes following her movement as if she was a butterfly flying around flowers. These days, whenever he saw her, he couldn't believe it was real. she was such a dream, so beautiful yet so out of reach for someone like him. so impossible, it hurt.
"What a whip," Jinyoung snickered, trying to get Daehwi's attention back. "Mr. President, please be more subtle about your crush next time. You literally have the heart eyes right now."
Daehwi turned his head away, too embarassed to continue staring nor to look at his best friend who was smirking as if he just won a bet. Daehwi tried to get his heartbeat pace to go back to normal, before acting like nothing happened, as if he didn't just stared at a girl like she was a fallen angel.
Daehwi had been so hopeless about his crush. He had been watching her from afar since middle school, but never actually brave enough to start a conversation with the girl. Sure, they have spoken to one another especially because they have been seeing each other for quite a long time, but they never actually had a real conversation together.
As if she wasn't out of reach enough, Daehwi was still shaken at the fact that she debuted.
Yes, she apparently had been training to be an idol and she got what she deserves. It crushed Daehwi's hope to actually be with her. He hadn't even make his move yet but she was drifting away from him, so far away that he couldn't reach her. She was thrown under the spotlights on stage, when Daehwi remained one of the crowds, silently being one of those who had always been there even when she's still struggling to stand on stage.
Daehwi was getting busier, slowly getting suffocated with life as he got selected to be the school president. That way, he got to talk to her more, notifying her if there's anything she needed to know as a student, but of course he had always been scared to start a casual talk with her. his best friend Jinyoung had push him many times but he wouldn't do it. Some other days, Jinyoung had to be the one who notify the girl because Daehwi just couldn't do it.
But Jinyoung, being the charming school prince who got everyone's drooling over him, do it too easily as if it was nothing. Sometimes even threw some jokes and accidentally start an actual conversation, while Daehwi, silently boiling on the other side, jealous of his best friend's ability.
It wasn't actually that hard. She's a nice person. Daehwi was just scared.
"You're the dumbest dumbass there ever was," Jinyoung clicked his tongue. "You literally had more chances than anyone else! And you let them pass, because you're too scared."
"Seriously, shut up," Daehwi glared at him. "I didn't ask to be insulted."
"It wasn't an insult, it was fact." Jinyoung argued, chuckling at his own words.
"Like you're any better."
"Hey, of course, I am! I have a girlfriend!"
Yeah, of course.
"That doesn't prove anything, asshole," Daehwi glared again at his best friend, while Jinyoung, being himself, wasn't exactly subtle about holding his giggles seeing Daehwi angry.
They had been best friends since they were little, and Jinyoung had always been more likable than Daehwi thought he was. Jinyoung had always have more friends, but Daehwi had always been smarter. It was as if Jinyoung had been born as a prince. And now that they're in the second year of high school, the prince disease was starting to infect him.
Time passed by really slowly that day. Daehwi was excused to be absent in physical education to have a talk with the homeroom teacher. Jinyoung was making jokes during lessons so many times, trying to drag Daehwi along so that people would notice the poor president more, but he just wasn't having it. Thinking of the school council meeting after the school ends that day put him in a bad mood.
"President, you're eating lunch?" Jinyoung asked. He got so used to call Daehwi that after his best friend won the school election. Rubbing off the fact to everyone's face that he's the school president's best friend sounds like something Jinyoung would definitely do.
"I don't think so," Daehwi shook his head slowly after thinking for a few seconds, too tired to tell Jinyoung that he didn't want Jinyoung to keep calling him president.
"Who are you meeting up with? Tell them not to see you when it's time to eat," Jinyoung scolded.
Daehwi shook his head again. "I'm not meeting up with anyone. I'm just not eating this time."
Jinyoung wanted to ask further, but something seemed really off that Jinyoung was kind of scared his best friend would start being angry for real. Daehwi would probably end up being in the library reading books or doing homework anyway, so Jinyoung let this one slide.
"Okay, then I’ll just, uh ... see you later?" Jinyoung asked, tidying up his books.
"Sure."
"One more thing. Do you have meetings after school today or not?"
"Yeah, I do. You can go home without me," Daehwi answered.
"That's unfortunate. Mom said she's going to pick me up and asked you to come along," Jinyoung frowned. "Alright, I'll see you later, Dae. Don't forget to eat also."
And just like that, Jinyoung left.
Daehwi was actually really thankful to have a best friend like Jinyoung who sticks with him through thick and thin and actually care. Jinyoung could've just left Daehwi alone and hang out with the kids who are more like him; good-looking and popular. Sure, Jinyoung annoyed Daehwi sometimes but Daehwi couldn't bring himself to be really angry towards the guy. Jinyoung knew this and that's exactly why he kept annoying the school president.
Then there Daehwi was, in the school rooftop, listening to music while looking down at the sight below. The sight of the busy town welcomed him, seeming to be crowded and suffocating just like his mind.
"Thinking about something?" a voice asked from behind. "Uh ..., President?"
Daehwi immidiately turned around, but then he felt like his eyes were fooling him.
She stood there, smiling and walking towards him. She then stood next to him, joining him looking at the town below, still smiling.
Jinyoung's words replayed through his head.
"You're the dumbest dumbass there ever was. You literally had more chances than anyone else! And you let them pass, because you're too scared."
Let's not be a dumbass this time, Lee Daehwi.
"What are you up to, pres?" she asked again.
"Uhm, uh, no-nothing," Daehwi sighed. His mind was working harder, trying not to be the usual Lee Daehwi. Trying not to be boring and awkward. "It's just that ... the cafeteria, uh, the cafeteria has too many people in it."
"Oooohh, you need fresh air?" she asked, chuckling, finding Daehwi cute.
Daehwi nodded, lowkey cursing to himself.
"Literally same," she mumbled back. "It's just ... tiring to be around people too much. Some of them are toxic."
Daehwi usually would just listen, but this time he wanted to get the conversation going. "Yeah, um, must be so tiring for you. You know, you're around people ... almost everytime."
"Right," she sighed. "This is so tiring. I want rest. but I'm actually happy doing it. What about you ..., President?"
"I think you talk to Jinyoung too much," Daehwi said bitterly. "His girlfriend wouldn't like this. And I know he almost never use my name when referring to me. And that's dumb, because my name is so much simpler."
She giggled. "Daehwi! Why are you salty about that?" she hit Daehwi's arm playfully. "Yeah actually I liked him back in middle school but he was too annoying so that ticked me off. And his girlfriend is nice but kind of intimidates me so i better back off."
"Wow. Someone intimidates you?"
"Yeah, Of course. you did too," she admitted, winking at him. "You're just so smart and all, and you seem so perfect. I mean, to be very honest here, you're good-looking and--"
"Do you not think you are?" she asked back, seeming shocked. "What the hell. Here I thought you can make it to magazine covers. You're dumb to think you aren't."
God, is this real?
"You're joking." Daehwi stated.
"I won't force you to believe it either. I know already that you're this dumb," she giggled.
"You sound like Jinyoung."
She laughed. i know, oh my God. To be honest, I know so much about you more than you think I’ll ever do. Oh my God, sorry that sounds creepy. I swear I'm not into weird things, it's just ...," she bit her lower lip, unsure. “I've been meaning to say this, but ... you remember last year, for like, three weeks straight there were uh, notes under your desk? Sometimes even ... chocolate? Candies? Even coffee? Well ... I did that."
Wait, what?
Daehwi's eyes widened, staring at her in disbelief. "You're joking."
"No. Jinyoung caught me once but I made him swore on his mother's life that he wouldn't tell you. That was ... oh my God, I’m embarassed," she put her face on her palms, and Daehwi could literally see that she was blushing. "I ... I liked you back then."
Jinyoung's words replayed again. "You literally had more chances than anyone else!"
Daehwi was too shook that he froze for a moment. He remembered those notes, the notes which helped him to get through the day and Jinyoung just wouldn't stop teasing him about this secret admirer.
"Not anymore?" Daehwi asked.
The girl giggled. "Honestly, if not anymore, I wouldn't be embarassed to admit it just like how I admitted I liked Jinyoung. But, uh ... you see ... these days the situation is hard for me to actually like someone, so, uh ...," she gulped. "I'll get over it. Haha."
It was weird. She was the one being nervous. Daehwi couldn't believe it. Was he dreaming? Were his senses deceiving him? Was this really happening?
He couldn't think straight. This really was happening. His heart was beating so fast and it felt like its going to burst. But then he gulped his nervousness down, finally deciding to spill the truth.
"I ... I think I have something to tell you too," Daehwi confessed. "I liked you ... and I still do."
What surprised him was when she replied, "I know that too."
from a boy who had his eyes glued to the ground when doing a performance,
to an amazing performer who makes everyone's jaw drop when he's on stage.
bae jinyoung, you worked hard.
you went through so much. you overcame the fear of being in front of people, you solved your lack of confidence. you successfully grow, continued improving and proving everyone that this is the path you want to walk on, that you really deserve to walk on it.
and we're happy to have you here now, as a member of wanna one.
happy birthday, our bae jinyoung.
thank you. thank you for making us smile. thank you for being here. thank you for working hard. thank you for not giving up. thank you for loving us just like how we love you. thank you for existing. thank you for being you. thank you for being such an amazing role model. thank you and please keep blossoming beautifully like flowers in spring.
we hope your days are filled with happiness in each moment just like how you deserve it. please stay well and healthy. please take care and have some rest when you're tired. please don't push yourself too hard as you continue to work on this path. we hope you have a bright future ahead. please stay strong, always.
we love you.
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wannables.
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