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lucas | he/they | french If you had a follow from me, it can be Clyde mobile links

[hxwly]

made this awful compare to lucas graphics tho but still as you see, there are 2 new system member....... one came in 14 april 2017 and one few days. we lose our grandpa.

[hxwly]

Need to make update asap!

[hxwly]

My grandpa is no longer here....... I..... I just wanna disappear. Idk just stab myself for fuck sake so i don't have to endure this.

[akamxru]

i need more s l e e p

[camborama-deactivated20180225]

[hxwly]

im just fucking not okay idk what crisis i do but fuck it's horrible i wanna die so fcking much make me disappear.

[hxwly]

i :) wanna :) die :) so :) fucking :) hard :) rn :) :))))))))))) I made a post about people who vote for opressor idk what name is it in english but basically i've mention cishet white male who try to tell us it's discrimination to hate people who vote for opressor (homophobia, transphobia, xenophobia, etc) are fucking cringing. A transgirl fucking respond telling me mention "cishet white male" is horrible, that we don't have to police people, that i've become radical. Another show her terf side. Another cis white male respond it wasn't okay 'cause "we all have discrimination y'know". EVERY FUCKING POST I PUBLISH THEY FUCKING SAY IT'S STUPID, TRYING TO MAKE ME IN THEIR WAY AND I WANNA FUCKING DISAPEAR. LIKE IT'S HORRIBLE. I THOUGHT THEY WERE MY FRIENDS.

[labors]

no soap or water will ever wash away what you’ve done

[hxwly]

I hate front.

I hate bring the chaos to our system. I take care of the trauma but when i front all theses thought are shared by all of us. They all can see what Lucas lived.

And it’s so fucking hard i wanna rip the flesh apart and kill myself so fucking hard.

I’m not strong Lucas please stop think i’ll take care of us i don’t. I can’t even take care of myself, look at me.

[fuckupsuggestion]

I feel sick when I remember how we used to be.

[to-be-far-away-deactivated20171]

My body is disgusting. I am disgusting. And I just want to stop existing right now.

(via to-be-far-away)

[faultedmultiples]

can system blogs reblog this please?

this isn’t a new blog but it’s not too popular and i’d like some more followers and systems to follow

- drex

[hxwly]

You used me like one of your toy. And you weren’t fucking bad about it. I wish i could die so i can’t remember and feel again these things you’ve done.

Idk i needed to vent so i don’t harm the body and i didn’t had my tablet.

[hxwly]

We dissociate so much that we don't think about come here. That's sad.

[frigidkin]

Otherkin On Youtube

As you may know when you search otherkin on youtube all you will find are videos of otherkin hate. I am hoping to change that. I would love to start a channel on youtube for otherkin by otherkin about otherkin. I am werewolfkin and I am tired of being called fake and treated without respect by anti-kin and others who just don’t understand what otherkin is.

This channel would be to inform those about what being otherkin is and what it is like to be otherkin. I am looking for any kind of kin. I just want to spread some otherkin positivity.

If anyone is interested in joining me please send me an ask! Tell me your kin type and if you are on anon (due to side blogs) please include your url!

If you do want to join, I will NOT tolerate hating on anyone else’s kin type(s). This channel will be accepting of all kins.

(Please reblog this so that the word gets out!!)

[hxwly]

Anyway. I'm back. I front a lot more, Lucas don't really front anymore. I'm not sure if Lucas sleep or he changed. I was so happy to front that i forgot it was because Lucas doesn't really have personality anymore (i mean he hadn't but it disappear). I'm so not okay i miss Lucas so much i'm so alone. I'm sure he's happy to not deal with the reality but man i wanna be w him.... I feel like we should get help, i mean i don't trust therapist but i'm affraid that someone will do stupid things and Lucas' bad. The problem is that we restart work Monday. I.... i don't know. We'll see.

[hxwly]

I'm freaking stupid i swear. This night was okay i told on a vent post how i feel all these stuff and someone ask us if we can talk about the trauma, i said okay, I SAID OKAY AND I WRITED ALL OF OUR TRAUMA TO A FUCKING STRANGERS!! I WASN'T EVEN DRUNK OR ANYTHING! They all gonna hate me so much...