𝓲𝓫𝓫𝓲𝓮 @ibbiest - Tumblr Blog

Having hobbies, connecting w others, laughing and smiling and dancing and having a good time, reaching out in place of turning inward, being in love w a person and my friends and the world, nourishing my soul and heart and mind, eating good food, being part of this world—all these things really are so much better than digging my own grave and trying to make a home out of it

Forever grateful for the ability to detach slowly, unnoticeably slowly. No desperation, no closure, no grief. Just quiet despair that feels more like liberation than loss. Already grateful for the day I wake up and this feeling becomes part of a past I won't remember. Already grateful for the place in which I will truly belong someday.

#thoughts

persianmom

you can spend your whole life internalizing everything to avoid burdening those around you but it will eventually start seeping through the cracks no matter how tightly you seal yourself off

imdrinkingmiso

Im not analyzing anyone anymore . I accept your behavior on a surface level and move on !!

ibbiest

And in one moment, you realize that you've never belonged there. It's like watching all the stars fall off the sky after trying so hard to convince your eyes that they've always been there, they've never been. You walked away from the coast and into the light-polluted streets thinking you'll carry the same stars into the same sky, and you look up, and you squint your eyes to bring yourself to see a star or two, and you never realize that you're in the wrong place until it's too late... The coast is always there, but your eyes now are too blurry and fatigued to see any stars at all, even if they were really there.

ibbiest

i always come back to this