at a glimpse of you, I explode
my heart aches and splits open, hot lava of love spilling out and melting my body into a puddle on the floor
somehow my body as a puddle continues to ache and throb, painfully aware that you are not scooping me up to make me whole again
you will never know how I long for your presence, your being, your body warmth
I LONG for your smile, your anger, your hurt, your jealousy
I long for YOU and that’s it, that is all
you affect me in a way that is almost impossible to put into words so I come here and try to paint a picture letter by letter of what you do to me and it’s still not enough
I EXPLODE at the glimpse you and you have never had a glimpse of me
I don’t even find it unfair because I GET to look at you
I GET to feel the wild, amazing, crazy things you make me feel
there is no injustice because I still get to feel and experience you in my own way
I could never be more grateful for something as minuscule as this little bit of you I consider mine, though you are not even mine, you belong to the world and i love to see you interact with it through my own lens
I will sit in my quiet little corner, still a pool of lava and ache and long and cry over you until my lava cools and I take on new shape and move on to the next who has the power to melt me