[wholeheartedsuggestions]

my 5 year plan is to get back my joy

[malinaa]

[iletgo]

this song finally being released next month i'm gonna throw up, actually

[achillesinhighheels]

sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and i'm losing sense of time

[tf2heritageposts]

doing research into my penis options and this is such a funny stock image to use here

[tf2heritageposts]

people pointing out i said penis options and i am in fact doing research into my options for penis. my penis options #mypenisoptions

[scramratz]

I think people would be less suicidal if they were allowed to talk about being suicidal without risk of being sent to the Torture Dungeon

[iletgo]

tried to read You Weren't Meant to Be Human by Andrew Joseph White and i had to stop i think roughly 1/3 of the way through because of the pit it was already leaving in my stomach

it's compelling and raw but it's disgustingly, disturbingly visceral in a way that makes me want to crawl out of my skin, and it's in a way that i don't think i'm in a good mental/emotional place for right now. which i was pretty cognizant of in the first place, i might add, but just truly did not realize the intensity of the emotions it would stir up for me.

so anyways i'm gonna leave this on my blog as a reminder to myself to maybe someday try to read it all the way through,

*already wrote my tags and don't want to delete and rewrite them; just want to disclaim that i am trans and the whole 'trans lead characters are hard for me to read!!' is not because i hate trans people! i can't actually even articulate everything i mean by that/why i feel that way beyond the fact that it makes me more aware of my own body at all times in ways i cannot describe or explain outside of it making me very overwhelmed.

[iletgo]

took three pictures with the flash on & she didn't move an inch, she is passed tf out

[weltenwellen]

Carl Phillips, from “Civilization”, Then the War: And Selected Poems, 2007-2020

[iletgo]

there's something 'bout the window seats, got you feeling like a poet

you said, "i think that we had everything, until now just didn't know it"

i'm leanin' towards a subject change in a sentimental moment

we're drivin' through the garden state, we'll be strangers in the mornin'

the way you've got your hair up straight makes you look real Californian

you know you never really could quite place when i'm angry and i'm jokin'

i'm cursin' every exit sign and my damn christ-like devotion;

to hopin' you might change your mind, and to hatin' you for goin'

roadkill fawn, you said "how sad, left to rot alone like that"

you state a feelin' like a fact

i'm glad you left, but you'll be back

so call me when it goes to shit

i'll be keepin' the house the way it was

i won't rub your face in it

i swear i won't tell anyone

i don't mind being your dead end

i think it's fine to never move on

keep my ear up to the doorframe

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

call me when the bugs don't die and the spring looks just like autumn

oh, tell me when you miss the climb from a hole that has no bottom

i'm hoping that the view ain't nice, that the streetlights bleed into your bedroom

that you open up to someone kind, and they hold it all against you

roadkill fawn, you said "how sad, left to rot alone like that"

you state a feelin' like a fact

i'm glad you left, but you'll be back

so call me when it goes to shit

i'll be keepin' the house the way it was

i won't rub your face in it

i swear i won't tell anyone

i don't mind being your dead end

i think it's fine to never move on

keep my ear up to the doorframe

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

so call me when it goes to shit

i'll be keepin' the house the way it was

i won't rub your face in it

i swear i won't tell anyone

i don't mind being your dead end

i think it's fine to never move on

keep my ear up to the doorframe

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

and i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

oh, i'll keep rootin' for your downfall

[tpwrtrmnky]

It's really quite bizarre how much work in trans healthcare bases itself on the idea that a patient who deliberately seeks out the Penis Removal Doctor and says "Yes, Penis Removal Doctor, I am certain that I would like to have my penis removed" might be lying to the Penis Removal Doctor, so that they can have their penis removed without actually wanting that.

[iletgo]

you'd call me stupid, then kiss my skin with the same mouth

you'd sink your teeth in, you'd double down as i bled out

i heard once that wild dogs will eat their prey alive;

i handed you my beating heart, of course you took a bite

was there something 'bout my fear that made you feel braver?

i don't wanna think you cruel by nature

was there something in the dark that made you feel weaker?

i don't wanna think you a vicious creature

what did i taste like?

was there a sweetness to the power?

you played a real tough guy because you knew you were a coward

tail between your legs, look at you run now

was there something 'bout my fear that made you feel braver?

i don't wanna think you cruel by nature

was there something in the dark that made you feel weaker?

i don't wanna think you a vicious creature

don't wanna think you, don't wanna think you

don't wanna think a predator of a parasite, don't wanna think the devil of a small man

don't wanna sharpen the claws of your pride, with my blood running over your hands

don't wanna call it what it wasn't, though it'd be easier to stomach

was there something 'bout my fear?

did it make you feel brave?

look at you run, look at you run, look at you run

look at you run, your tail between your legs

look at you run, look at you run, look at you run

look at you run, look at you

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

I do not want the ai overview. I want to read six wikipedia pages as god intended.

[iletgo]

i've been bleeding through past lives like bandages, trying to make me a friend

i've been tolling the sundays, the damages, all through to my bitter end

count the freedoms as baggage, as told by the dragons that i couldn't slay

i hope i was right about someday, wrong about today

they've been singing, the barflies, a ballad, but no one can nail down the tune

they'll be scaling the walls of this city, but we'll all be wasted by noon

watch the windows aglow with the lonely, a beacon for the terrible few

i hope i was right about soulmates, wrong about you

(the dragons that i couldn't slay)

i've been wandering the streets of my bedroom, desperate to take it all in

in a ghost town, i showed you the body, and you touched my hand with a grin

at the end of all things, all i can think to say is; what a year today has been

i hope i was wrong about endings, but right to begin

[the-korova]

Harry Potter is trending at #1 on tumblr so I thought I’d take the opportunity to say fuck JKR, fuck transphobes, fuck her stupid books, her theme park, her endless landfill fodder merch slop, and her fucking castle on a hill. Read another book yall!! Read another book!!!!!!!

[iletgo]

i fear i must be stopped. to put this in context for my reading habits, i read 55 books on kindle last year total, so i'm nearly halfway there in 3.5 months. which makes the current pace for this year about 7 books a month but i fear a disproportionate amount of that is from this month alone?? do i need to be sedated

in my defense (or not defense) i checked out like 15 books on libby all at the same time without thinking that through and so this past week i had 9 books due in 9 days so i read a book a day out of sheer stubbornness

[unchildhood]

ANAÏS NIN

from a diary entry featured in The Diary Of Anais Nin, Vol. 4: 1944-1947

original photos and edit

[cheaphalloweencostume]

i’m sure this opinion will get me killed for some reason but it’s wild how almond milk seems to be the dominant alternative milk when it tastes like nut based cerebrospinal fluid meanwhile Oat Milk is right there being sexy and thick and delicious