I haven't posted on here in a few years because I've been busy trying to pursue more treatment, build up an at-home career, etc. Although I'm doing better than I was before physically and financially, within this broken system all of that effort is not enough to sustain myself independently of family. Late-stage capitalism requires even healthy people to burn themselves out to survive, which is wrong on so many levels and a whole other conversation. But as disabled people, we can't even attempt to keep pace with inflation and the full-time work and side hustles needed to get by. That feeling of never being good enough is pretty soul-crushing, and I just needed to express it somewhere.














