Mirage

My Incomplete Complete Collection

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I'm beginning to wonder if it's actually hard to move on, or if it's more the thought of being alone?

Incomplete Mirage

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One Month Exactly

Broke up with my boyfriend through a text last night. Not by choice, but he wouldn't answer the phone. I really like him so much, my heart is broken again. There comes a point though, that I can't and won't be ignored. I'm not equal to nothing. I am a person. With real feelings. I still want you, but I can't be the invisible girl anymore.

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This could not cover it better. 

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In The Feels

I’m so emotional lately. And just to be frank, I think I’m just a sex appointment. No, scratch that.. I think I WAS a sex appointment. Now I’m getting closer and closer to being nothing. And who even knows how long I’ve been nothing. . 

Two more days and it’ll be an official month. Lol... I say lol, but really I’m crying. Literal tears. Truly sad right now. Not because it’s been a month, but because it’s been a very long few months in this year that has been even longer. 

I’m so stressed right now that I can’t even think. I took a pregnancy test earlier this week. Halloween to be exact, and it was negative. Which was a huge relief for me. Which also kind of makes me sad. I literally thought you were like truly interested. And yet, after you said “I love you,” you lost interest. I know I didn’t say it back, but I truly was crazy about you. 

But I have no regrets. Not over that at least. I know you wanted to hear it, and I actually wanted to say it, but I didn’t want us to be the couple who said it too early. Because if you really feel that way about someone then why can’t you wait to say it? You can. You can wait if you love someone. You can take things slowly and if you do truly love them then you don’t just lose the feeling if they don’t say it right back. 

I want someone in my life so badly. Just a best friend at the very least. I just want to be loved. LOVED. Like truly loved and cared for, even with us just being friends. That would be great. And yes, I mean a man. Someone I can talk to all of the time. Confide in. Someone who can also confide in me. 

Don’t get me wrong; I have friends, but I want ONE great friend. Someone who makes me feel safe. . 

Is that so much to ask for?

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Lately, I’m losing myself again. This is the 84 millionth time. I’ve been so absent. So absent to my responsibilities and absent to my life. Until I see you. You are literally the only thing that I have been present for. It’s absolutely absurd. We have only been seeing each other for a short time, yet you are the one who fills the newly empty slots in my head. I shouldn’t feel like this about you. 

Do I really like you this much already? Could it truly be? Or is this my desperation for love, roaring its ugly head again? The connection feels so valid. Yet, the late night visits, the texts that don’t exist, and the 1 a.m. phone conversations all add up to something different. Am I just a fool once more?

I’m loosening the hold you’ve got on me. Your power will be weakened day by day. Take advantage of what you have now, for soon it will be a mere memory. 

[hiddenwhalewriter]

Maybe with each tear I shed as I think of you, you would slowly come back through the tears that contain memories of you.

The Hidden Whale (hiddenwhalewriter)