And it hurts my heart.

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[macrolit]

We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be.

Kurt Vonnegut

[indecisiveavocado]

a while ago, i read the metamorphosis for a school project. a book club. it was interesting, and i thought i understood it.

i didn't.

i feel like i understand it more now.

you wake up one day in october and discover that people who you have worked for, people you have sacrificed for, have decided you are an Ungeziefer.

(people translate that as bug, because they don't want to acknowledge you. but that's not what it means. it means vermin.)

and you're still you, but people won't see that. they avoid you. they talk about you as though you're not there.

they injure you, they hurt you.

no one cares.

they were once your family, you considered them your family, but apparently you were to be discarded the moment you ceased to be of use to them, the moment you ceased to be someone other people would like.

eventually, once it becomes clear that you are Not Like Them and will stay Not Like Them, you will not cease being Not Like Them and become Good and Like Them again, once it is clear that you are a social and financial liability, they decide you are worthless to them. they make it clear that you are no longer really you, but vermin. that you do not deserve to live. that really, it would be better if you just died.

you die that night.

when you die, they do not mourn you. they go on the train and are happy. they are free from the burden of pretending to care about you.

they talk about marriage. one of the people, the one who helped convince the others that you are no longer worthy of life, has fine marriage prospects.

after all, who cares what she does to you? what she thinks of you? (if she thinks of you anymore, that is.) you're an Ungeziefer. you're just vermin.

you're just jewish.

[thelightcomingthroughthewindow]

Podfic is the ultimate portmanteau btw

[uptownthots]

what is a normal amount of photos to have on your phone. probably 28,000 right

[uptownthots]

DONT SAY THAAAAAAAAT

[sanrio-stud]

how many pics & videos do you have on your phone?

0-500

501-1,000

1,001-5,000

5,001-10,000

10,001-15,000

15,001-20,000

20,001-25,000

25,001-30,000

30,001-40,000

40,001-50,000

50,001-60,000

> 60,000

Remaining time: 4 days 3 hours

[a-tiny-angry-bisexual]

74,000.

[injuries-in-dust]

Good news to get through July 2026

[excusethequality]

While watching a DVD from the library my TV popped up a message saying to press a button if I wanted to watch this from additional providers.

It's never done that before so I looked it up and turns out Roku TVs have added all sorts of creepy things in the privacy section since I last checked.

One of which being they take screenshots from what you're watching and send them to third parties to identify it.

Fucking hell! Remember when every fucking device in your life wasn't a spy implanted in your home and working against your interests to try and sell your data? Remember how nice that was??

Remember when the TV was just a tool that would play the things you plugged into it?

Why must the future suck SO much?

[excusethequality]

How to Turn Off Smart TV Snooping Features - Consumer Reports

TVs collect a huge amount of data. Here's how to use privacy settings to limit the surveillance on TVs from LG, Samsung, TCL, and every othe

A good rundown on what each brand of TV is up to and which settings you should turn off.

[anarchistmemedistro]

[lytefoot]

PSA - Do not buy an LG smart TV. They just added a line to their terms of use that it's the user's responsibility to inform any guests in their house that by entering they consent to be recorded, in order to comply with wiretapping laws. That thing is literally recording you.

You can find tutorials online telling you how to open that thing up and physically remove the mic and wifi module. Frankly I don't trust anything less.

[victusinveritas]

There's worse to come, folks. Strap in and stay strapped.

[toasthaste]

according to An Immense World, apparently giant squid eyes are, like, UNREASONABLY large, even for something their size living at those depths. the next largest eyes on earth, blue whale eyes, are less than half the size, and swordfish, who live at similar depths as giant squid and have the largest eyes of any fish, have eyes that could fit inside a giant squid's pupil.

eyes hit serious diminishing returns wrt resource costs vs vision quality as they get bigger, so the question became: what the FUCK do giant (and colossal) squid need to see so badly that they couldn't see with swordfish-sized eyes that's justifying that massive energy cost? that nothing else in the deep ocean needs to see so fucking badly??

turns out the one strength eyes that big really have over much smaller eyes is: seeing large glowing objects in water deeper than 500 meters from an appreciable distance.

sperm whales are the primary predator of giant squid. sperm whales don't glow. BUT! water that deep is full of bioluminescent creatures-- these creatures light up when bumped into. something a sperm whale's size is continuously bumping into those critters, it's just surrounded by a glowing field all the time when it's swimming at those depths, visible from a distance-- if you have the right eyes-- as a massive glowing shape. so basically the only reason to have eyes the size of soccer balls is if you live in the deep ocean and your life depends on having a heads up when a hungry sperm whale lurking around

and also I gotta say, the imagery... the huge lurking threat betrayed only by the ambiguous glowing shape of its movements through the water, is really evocative, if spooky deep-sea games aren't already using that to make things extremely ominous then they should really start

[librarycards]

people on here who have been on 10-15+ years like myself...i don't know how they claim that there were never any Black bloggers on here, or that it was always such a white website. trudy gradientlair was on here. thisiswhiteprivilege was on here. there was a feminist citation project sara ahmed was involved in on here. there was someone on here whose username was wretchedoftheearth and that was how i learned who fanon was when i was 12, by googling those words. tumblr was the only place i knew i could go to get accurate & compassionate info about what happened to trayvon martin, when everyone around me irl was rabidly racist. the amount of reportage and scholarship that happened on here before the first big wave of bans was so huge and so much has been lost. where were you when it was happening??? why weren't you paying attention??

[dumbtrannybitch]

it's cause they never engaged with non white bloggers so they never noticed them disappearing. they got the tumblr they wanted, and those of us who aren't liberal/conservative fandom bloggers were robbed of our black and brown friends, and worst of all black and brown bloggers were robbed of a dpace that once was a legitimate vector for talking about black issues. at least some members of staff know what they are doing, it's like the war on drugs in this website the way they crush black people on this website.

[nyokoko]

I literally published an essay several years ago about how a lot of people stole the intellectual work that Black feminist bloggers on here published regularly to build this website and its reputation as we know it. White people love them some revisionist history.

The reason Tumblr became the bastion of intellectual discourse that it was known for--the reason the term "social justice warrior" even EXISTS as a derogatory descriptor--is because of the work of the Black bloggers who migrated to this site from 2009-2014 from LJ and Jezebel's forums. Myself included.

[junebug-draws]

if i had a nickel for every time i draw fanart incorporating a visual from the sinner's finale i'd have 4 nickels. and the focalors' execution would be two of them

[screampotato]

Suddenly struck with a need to explain to you how boat pronouns work (I work in the marine industry).

When you're talking about the design of the boat, you say "it".

When the boat is still being built, your say "it".

When the boat is nearing completion, you can say "it" or "she".

When the boat is floating in the water you probably say "she", unless there is still a lot of work to be done (e.g. no engine yet) then you say "it".

When the boat is officially launched and operating, you say "she". If you continue to say "it" at this point you are not incorrect but suspiciously untraditional. You are not playing the game.

If you are referring to a boat you don't really know anything about you may say "it" ("there's a big boat, it's coming this way"). But if you know its name, it's probably "she" ("there's the Waverley, she's on her way to Greenock").

If you are talking about boats in general, you say "it" ("when a boat is hit by a wave it heels over")

If you speak about a boat in complimentary terms, it's "she" ("she's a grand boat"). If you are being disparaging it may be it, but not necessarily ("it's as ugly as sin", "she's a grotty old tub").

If she has a boy's name, she's still she. "Boy James", "King Edward", "Sir David Attenborough"? The pronoun is she.

If it's a dumb barge (no engine), you say it. But if it's a rowing boat (no engine), you say she.

I hope this has cleared things up so that you may not be in danger of misgendering floating objects.

[glitched-out-mess]

[theramblingvoid]

Hit "view post" and lost it

[ineedarendezvous]

Lower back hurts since 1-2 days ago, and oddly, the right leg aches today. Its like the old “growing pains” i used to get when i was a kid. Sigh.

[ineedarendezvous]

Oh my god the pain is gone i am SO happy hallelujah

[ineedarendezvous]

Damn. Now the other side hurts rip

[ineedarendezvous]

.

Do you ever find mentally healthy people unrelatable? I wont say theyve never suffered, because nobody has never suffered

But whatever suffering they endured, they came out the other end more or less ok. Mentally healthy

When i meet these people i feel like there is a gulf between us that i cant cross. Like we’re different species and we live in different worlds

[depsidase]

[thememedaddy]

[ineedarendezvous]

Lower back hurts since 1-2 days ago, and oddly, the right leg aches today. Its like the old “growing pains” i used to get when i was a kid. Sigh.

[ineedarendezvous]

Oh my god the pain is gone i am SO happy hallelujah

[donnabrutta]

The founders of Jane, an underground network in Chicago, US that assisted people in getting abortions. From the left moving right: Martha Scott, Jeanne Galatzer-Levy, Abby Parisers, Sheila Smith and Madeline Schwenk.

Martha Scott was 19 in 1965, when her friend's sister became pregnant and Scott helped her find a doctor to perform an abortion. The group connected individuals seeking abortions with doctors, and later, performed abortions themselves. Their clients were informed they were not doctors, but doing abortions themselves allowed them to keep costs low. They made people aware of the services through signs with slogans like "'Pregnant? Don't Want to Be? Call Jane." The group operated for seven years and performed an estimated 11,000 abortions; no deaths were ever reported.

Quote from Scott: "You're messing around inside somebody else's body. It's not necessarily given that you won't do harm. It wasn't perfect, by any means. But we were dealing with women who really didn't have other options."

Quote from Galatzer-Levy: "I hadn't had so much as a speeding ticket [when I joined]. But abortion really was the front line, it was where women were dying."

In 1972, two women reported Jane because their sister was seeking an abortion, and the women believed it was murder. All seven founders were arrested. Six months later, Roe v. Wade was decided and the charges were dropped. Read more here (link).