Inkspiria

writing fanfics & paint pictures

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You've got to be kidding me

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The fandom is going wild today. Meanwhile my tooth decided to act up and I've been functioning like a total zombie all day long. On antibiotics, but so far they aren't really helping. Talk about a cruel summer 😒

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I can't believe he posted this today! Right when i was writing about the pool and the night garden OMG

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It’s the last day of June. My plan for July is to finish the freewriting phase of Call Me and edit the initial chapters.

Honestly I don’t know how some authors write long form fics in parts and post them online as they go. For me, before a story becomes a part of my daily life and I truly feel it to its core, my early writing always feels a bit off. I always feel the urge to go back and edit the beginning. This time won’t be an exception, so I need to make room for that in my schedule.

So if all goes well and I finish the freewriting in July, maybe I can post the first chapter in August. This fic is drenched in summer and I feel a strong need to start posting it while it’s still summer - in August or at the very latest in September.

To be honest I would feel so much more comfortable not posting anything until at least the first part is fully ready. But that’s a huge amount of work! It's massive! And posting a summer fic around Halloween or Christmas just feels plain wrong, I’m incredibly sensitive to seasons and their vibes.

So for now everything is a big question mark. But I will try my best.

Actually I’m so deep inside this story that I’d gladly stop eating and sleeping just to write 24/7. But it's impossible, I still have a real life that needs attention. Plus there are several paintings still waiting to be done. I keep putting them off so bad and can’t bring myself to start. Ugh.

I wish there were at least 36 hours in a day. Or even better, 48!

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Exactly one week ago today I started writing Call Me. Аnd it is pure madness!!! I’ve never experienced anything like this before. I literally cannot think about anything else

According to my WriteTrack plan, I was supposed to be at around 4k words today. Instead, I’m at 27.5k! Wooooow! I’ve basically written a third of the story already. It’s absolutely surreal!

And I am so in love with how it’s turning out! But I’m terrified of letting my guard down right now.

This stage is the easiest part - just freewriting, trying not to drift too far from the outline. The hardest part will come later - shaping this raw mass of words and letters into its definitive form.

And after that, there will be a whole separate intellectual project - translating all of this into English.

I just can’t write fics in anything other than my first language, I need to feel the atmosphere of the words. And that’s exactly what’s going to be so difficult with the translation this time - will I be able to capture and convey that atmosphere? Will I manage not to turn a text where summer ripples, where the wind blows, and ripe fruit matures on the branches into a flat lifeless picture?

And then there’s the original story - it’s so perfect and soooo monumental! I’m scared that my own writing will feel pale or trivial, and I’m terrified of failing to do justice to such a masterpiece.

So in short - this entire week has been nothing but inspiration, fear, obsession, text, text, text, more fear and more text. And endless attempts not to think about how I’ll manage, or if I can see this through to the end the way it truly deserves. Because the story in my head (I feel it!) deserves to see the light of day. I want it captured in words. Not for anyone else, just for me, but I NEED it to stop being just fragments of thoughts in my head.

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Yessss! Finally some discounts on art supplies today!!!!! 🙌 Ordered the sketchbook i've been eyeing for like a month now, and snagged a pack of watercolor paper. Happy as a clam!

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Noah’s cursing is Foah proof 👀

Notice how in recent interviews Noah has been cursing a lot—saying the occasional “shit” or “fucking”. He’s never done this before. He has cursed, of course, but now the cursing is more frequent and more harsh than before.

And, sure, one could say it’s because he’s older and has grown out of the “kid-friendly” language, but he’s over 20 years old? He should’ve been cursing like this a long time ago, since most people typically have the worst “cursing phase” at around 13-17.

So what is the reason for Noah’s recent cursing awakening? Well…

Who’s another person that we know curses a lot (and has done so for long) and is close to Noah? It’s of course Finn Wolfhard.

Finn, as we know, curses a lot and cursed a bunch even when he was a child (which Noah did not do). Finn usually uses the exact words Noah says nowadays, words like: shit, fucking…

And according to psychology, a person will mimic another person’s behaviour if they spend a lot of time together OR if person A has a particular interest in person B.

Now both of these things could be factors as to why Noah curses more—he himself said that he spent a lot of time with Finn during the filming of season 5, which would check the “mimicking because of proximity” box.

But if we bring in other factors—such as Noah and Finn both copying each other’s behaviour—we can draw the conclusion that both of them seem romantically interested in each other and have also spent a significant amount of time together, to the point where they exhibit the same behaviour.

So, rough conclusion:

Noah’s increase in cursing is because of Finn and that is one of multiple branches on the same tree: the copying behaviour tree.

The number of shared or copied behaviours also tells us that this isn’t just them crushing—they have spent alot of time together, they are “merging into one person”, like couples do.

Basically, them exhibiting the same behaviours is a significant sign of them already being in an established relationship (and obviously liking each other very much).