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I am InsanityGod: I feel like a ghost in my own life and my own brain makes me go insane

I am the god of chaos and insanity

OK this is a poem I wrote, but if you're not ready for raw honesty, scroll away now

This is called 'My Soul is Dying'

My soul feels like it's died

Like there's no room to provide

Anything that makes my sour soul

Pump with excitement at the way I don't feel so cold

Part of me wishes I never got attached

Because it would be easier if I didn't get attacked

Just for being myself by everyone around me

My soul tries to scream

But everyone's mean

And I don't think I can do this anymore

I used to try to make others happy, into their soul I'd pour

My heart beats faster at the thoughts

And I feel a book no one ever bought

My mind starts to unwind

I lose track of time

Is anyone there to hear my screams?

Isn't there anyone in the world who isn't mean?

My soul cries out at the rushes of pain

My bitter soul doesn't want to do this again

My eyes fell hollow and suck the life out of me

I'm trying so hard, why can't you see

That I'm trying my best to stay afloat

Around everyone who likes to sink me like a broken boat

Does anyone actually care about me?

It's so very sad because they don't see

My mind, soul and wary eyes

Part of me wishes that I could just die

It's hard to struggle when you don't have anyone there

When I was a kid, I was so scared

That everyone would leave me but now I don't care

I'm used to it now, even when it strips my heart bare

I'm so tired of always being the nice one

I claw desperately for anything good that they bring to me like I matter to someone

But I trudge through the seconds that kill me inside

Barely breathing, barely alive

You should've seen all the tears that I've cried

Nobody listened, nobody pried

About the life I live because they don't care

I feel like I'm constantly gasping for air

Someone save me from this broken world

And into my body I curled

To try to comfort myself as I lay in a ball

This world always leave me feeling so small

I don't know if i can do this anymore

#trans #nonbinary #many mental illness #mental illness #ftm #raw poetry

anthonyhurd

What’s your number 1 take away from 2025? Mine is clearly this: We’re not going anywhere.

constant-diablerie

HEY TUMBLR WHAT’S WITH THIS HMMM

bloominhibiscus-deactivated2022

FUCK YOU I’M REBLOGGING THIS

totally-india

This is a serious post of vourse

But I cannot help kt

Rebecca sugar sounds like the name of Rebecca Black’s good twin

transpigeon

I just really want to die

creekfiend

A friend of mine from around here who is Very Christian and has never had a Jewish friend before was asking me some stuff about antisemitism today, and it made me realize that the ways people talk about various types of bigotry and racism are so designed to stump people about the nature and purpose of systems of oppression. "Why do people hate the jews so much?" is such a common refrain and while there have been many books and articles written pulling apart all the important contextual and historical things that can help people understand antisemitism SPECIFICALLY, what I ended up saying to my friend was this:

"Something to understand about antisemitism is it isnt just ideological. The expulsion of jews from various countries was very often a method of "legally" seizing their wealth when the church needed money. It has been historically an incredibly convenient source of both a group of people to blame and also an easy way to just... Be able to steal from people, lmao. It has served very concrete material purposes for churches and governments throughout history. Sometimes you have to approach asking those questions from a different angle because it often isnt about the hatred so much as it is about ... Redirecting energy and attention, right, like upholding structures that benefit those in power. The hatred is convenient because it allows those in power to take actions that would not be tolerated if the group in question were not considered to be Exceptional in their inhumanity. Like the undocumented immigrants now, asking "why do they hate the immigrants so much" isnt always a productive avenue of thought because the hatred is usually just... Useful. Rather it is more helpful to ask "Who does it benefit for these people to be treated this way" -> "what do they need to make the general public believe about that group of people in order to justify this treatment". I think sometimes we are made to think hatred of jews is special and rooted in something different than other hatred... It's not. I mean all types of racism etc are unique. But it very much is about justifying actions that benefit a ruling class in all instances, imo."

And she like totally got it!!! She was like "OH I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT IT LIKE THAT BUT THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE THANK YOU" I am very proud of myself lol :')

zombie2undeadboogaloo-deactivat

"Who does it benefit for these people to be treated this way"

dykemd

i should only be charged a symbolic amount of 10 cents for my groceries because i have kind eyes and my intentions are pure

saywhat-politics

"A Prince, whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a Tyrant, is unfit to be the ruler of a free people."

—The Declaration of Independence

gainaxvel3o

The Phantom of the Opera is a guy in a mask who pretends to be a supernatural creature to harass his opera house into giving him ransom money, causing disasters when they don’t pay him.

Clearly, they should have hired these guys to stop him:

vinceaddams

no no, you need these ones:

(by Lauren Illustrated)

byjove

I wish they could invent a medical device that temporarily transfers your symptoms and pain to the doctor treating you and it worked like a shock collar. “I think light exercise would-.” and then bam they’re rolling around the floor clutching their stomach in agony and dry heaving.

celinethefeline

cyber-knifee

HELL YEHAHHH

gh0stbeelive

WOOO FUCK YOU TRANSPHOBES

schizopositivity

I go to work, no one knows I'm schizophrenic.

I make prosthetic feet, none of the costumers know the person who made their prosthetic is schizophrenic.

I go to the grocery store, none of the fellow shoppers or cashiers know I'm schizophrenic.

I take the bus, no one knows I'm schizophrenic.

I go to concerts, no one knows I'm schizophrenic.

I sing karaoke at bars, no one knows I'm schizophrenic.

I pass my neighbors in the stairway, no one knows I'm schizophrenic.

I walk in the park, none of the owners of the dogs I pet know I'm schizophrenic.

Sure, these people may notice that I seem anxious, odd, maybe spaced out at times, but they don't know I'm schizophrenic.

So you don't know that if the strangers around you are schizophrenic either. We are ~0.3-1% of the population. We are everywhere. We are your coworkers, your classmates, your neighbors, the people at the grocery store or on the bus, the people singing at the bars and concerts, the people in your friend group or family. We are part of your community, part of society, part of your life. You wouldn't know unless we told you, and we often don't because of the unfair stigma against us.

Just please consider that we may be close by the next time you choose to make fun of us, or demonize us, or erase us.

And yes, we are also the people speaking to someone that isn't there on the side of the road, or living in a long term psychiatric facility, or locked up in prison, but we are all still part of your community, part of society and part of your life and deserve the same respect that any other human deserves.

Just because you don't care about us, doesn't mean we aren't there.

hotvampireadjacent

objectlessondujour

The book is 1984, which is neither. It's anti-authoritarian, which tells you a lot.

musicalsilence

Ya know, sometimes I wish the joke *didn’t* write itself.

librarycards

SF Bookstore The Booksmith Commits to Stop Stocking JK Rowling's Books

trans book lovers + accomplices! go support The Booksmith, an indie bookstore in san francisco, that recently decided to stop stocking jk rowling's books in solidarity with trans people. their statement (beneath which, at the link, is a list of alternative wizard books) is as follows:

In May of 2025, author JK Rowling publicly committed to using her private wealth from the Harry Potter series to develop the "JK Rowling Women's Fund," an organization dedicated to removing transgender rights "in the workplace, in public life, and in protected female spaces." With this announcement, we've decided to stop carrying her books. We don't know exactly what her her "women's fund" will entail, but we know that we aren't going to be a part of it. As a group of queer booksellers, we also had our adolescence shaped by wizards and elves. Look at us, it's obvious. If you or someone you love wants to dive into the world of Harry Potter, we suggest doing so by buying used copies of these books. Or, even better, please find below a list of bookseller-curated suggestions for books we genuinely love that also might fit the HP brief for you and yours. Many are series; some are standalone. Books for the younger folks are listed first, switching to teen/YA about halfway through (the book Wise Child is the first in the YA section). Questions? Concerns? orders at booksmith dot com. Happy reading, solidarity forever.

visit + order from them if you can, share either way!