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[meladoodle]

Hey welcome to my blog

lower your expectations immediately

[annabelle--cane]

I open tumblr for some quick phone time in bed before going to sleep and the first thing I see is several posts in a row by mutuals about something bad happening to ryland grace's penis. has something occurred .

[annabelle--cane]

ah, okay, I see what occurred: something bad happened to ryland grace's penis

[annabelle--cane]

right I've now seen the footage myself so I can sum up what happened. basically the scene starts and then something bad happens to ryland grace's penis.

[ipborgdan]

translation state has everything a girlguy could want in a sci-fi book. horrifying cannibalism puberty. horrifying cannibalism arranged marriage. horrifying cannibalism gender discovery. it has it all.

[deervsheadlights]

the parallels between grace's vs stratt's presentations on the vat (astrophage breeding vs what is project hail mary) are very interesting to me. both are great examples of how they operate in their respective roles when confronted with other professionals! and they happen back to back!

first you have stratt dragging him in front of that stacked audience and making him explain his process for HIS SAKE. she didn't have to do that. at all! by the time he arrives they've reproduced his results and acquired a more in-depth, refined understanding of the process than HE has! his plywood box is yesterdays news. SHE DOES THAT FOR HIM! she makes him get up there and take credit, then takes off the pressure because the point was never the information at all. the point is that she knows a) he left his field with his reputation in shambles and a significant chip on his shoulder, and b) if she's going to keep him on the vat, she needs to integrate him into its intellectual ecosphere. and to make sure that happens, as many before me have pointed out, she puts herself in his corner and makes them acknowledge his expertise.

and then grace more or less does the inverse of this during the "what is project hail mary" scene, phrasing his questions such as though stratt were defending her thesis statement and he's there to uncover argumentative weak points and logical leaps. and the thing is, THEY needled him with questions because stratt INVITED them to acknowledge his expertise; he turns around and needles them because now he's testing their collective expertise. he's questioning their methods and outright going (smug guy voice): "you can't just build an interstellar spaceship." he could rephrase that if he cared to, but he doesn't. he hasn't yet made the leap from we're having a debate to we're trying to solve a problem together, so he's going back to being a contrarian because this is a setting where that's his default. you can't be pushed into defense if you're actively attacking theirs, can you? EXCEPT. stratt doesn't even blink because she's given this presentation a hundred times, probably more, and the final blow completely disarms him: "it's what you americans would call a- long shot?"

and he says, finally, "i get it." because oh! turns out this is not a test and nobody is actually fighting him. the sun is dying and also he lives on a boat now.

(anyway grace my guy i'm going to need you to be so serious. does all of this look like an elaborate joke orchestrated specifically so you can have your time of day and go WELL AKTSHUALLY about it.)

[jiiin22]

the bravest human

[onlyplatonicirl]

Oh man I haven’t had a new interest in a while. It’s always been the same three things on repeat. I wonder when I’ll st-

Ok.

[stealingpotatoes]

I would give an arm and maybe a leg to see the PHM characters in your artstyle (no pressure)

PUT YOUR LIMBS BACK AND HOLD THIS INSTEAD

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[hachinana87]

You’re a long way from home

[scalemodelarbysreplica]

first contact

[ratarmorjpeg]

thinking about the fuckass red line that appears on grace's throat during the excessive centrifugal force scene,,,, when rockys crying out for him,,,,, and abt to break through,,, and like yeah the petrova line was abt to fucking kill his ass but rocky was there so he saves him idk they make me sick

[dcartcorner]

PHM x TMA (1)

[hailingonhismarytilimfullofgrace]

"Stratt didn't care about Grace, she only kept him around because he was the tertiary science officer!"

[gailynovelry]

The fastest way to accomplish The Project is to cease being afraid of The Project. The Project cannot maim you. The Project cannot kill you. The Project is more afraid of you than you are of it. It is okay if The Project turns out differently from how it was in your head, and it is okay if it has flaws. You are capable of engaging with The Project.

[kaomojiloser]

spoiler alert: he ended up developing a false sense of security.

[pansyfemme]

wish there was an easy and normal way to say “I’m not as sane as you probably assume i am, and when you can see it, will you still try to love me?”

[pansyfemme]

just in case this spreads: i literally mean “not sane” here. I’m not joking about how goofy i am. I mean i have behaviors and symptoms and histories that most people don’t- and ones that have been considered insane. Will you still love me when i tell you I hear things sometimes? Will you still love me when you know I’ve attempted suicide multiple times? Will you still love me when I obsess over things and break down often and can’t promise you i can always be happy?

[pansyfemme]

wish there was an easy and normal way to say “I’m not as sane as you probably assume i am, and when you can see it, will you still try to love me?”

[pansyfemme]

just in case this spreads: i literally mean “not sane” here. I’m not joking about how goofy i am. I mean i have behaviors and symptoms and histories that most people don’t- and ones that have been considered insane. Will you still love me when i tell you I hear things sometimes? Will you still love me when you know I’ve attempted suicide multiple times? Will you still love me when I obsess over things and break down often and can’t promise you i can always be happy?

[pansyfemme]

wish there was an easy and normal way to say “I’m not as sane as you probably assume i am, and when you can see it, will you still try to love me?”

[pansyfemme]

just in case this spreads: i literally mean “not sane” here. I’m not joking about how goofy i am. I mean i have behaviors and symptoms and histories that most people don’t- and ones that have been considered insane. Will you still love me when i tell you I hear things sometimes? Will you still love me when you know I’ve attempted suicide multiple times? Will you still love me when I obsess over things and break down often and can’t promise you i can always be happy?