and he loved those fucking kids. he spent too long on that aircraft carrier being an actual scientist, THAT was his problem. flying him to and from sanfran would've taken too long but they wouldn't have needed the amnesia drugs and the sedation anymore, just put his ass in front of those kids again and make him look them in the eye and see if he can still say no without throwing up in his mouth
#and you know what? maybe he would've said it still. but he WOULD have thrown up#and it would've eaten him alive and genuinely genuinely it would've ruined the rest of his miserable life on earth#more than the apocalypse he signed the planet up for ever could#grace can only distance ignore avoid his way out of his problems so far#make him look cáceres in the eye. make him TRY to teach her everything he knows for those three days#wrap his hand around the trolley lever grab him by the hair and force his head to look at what he's doing












