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While yapping about a different topic elsewhere off tumblr, I ended up touching on some stuff re: how Ai is rhetorically used in discourse around AquRuby as a ship, so I thought I'd mirror it here for posterity's sake...
People love using [Ai] as an appeal to authority argument on AquRuby in this way but Ai would be the last person to be on board with AquRuby for all number of reasons lol. Ai does, in fact, deeply care about social norms and a huge degree of her self-hatred comes from her own perception of herself as an 'abnormal' person who cannot properly interface with normative society. On top of all that, we're told in chapter 131 that Ai came close to being sexually abused as a child by a man she was encouraged to view as her prospective (step)father. So, like. No, actually. I don't think the woman who deeply desires to fit into normative society and who herself was a victim of pseudoincestuous abuse as a child would be cheerleading for her kids to have an incestuous romance. Navigating her disapproval and betrayal over finding out it was happening (if it even would happen with her around) seems to be like it'd be a huge part of the appeal of a taboo romance like this so again, idk why we need to dismiss it.
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Like I said, I think it's primarily an appeal to authority argument. Ai is the story's heart and despite her fumbles and flaws is consistently upheld by the narrative as its moral and emotional center. So shippers who want to argue their specific romantic endgame as not just their preference but as the Inherently Morally Correct And Superior Choice, it becomes extremely important to 'claim' Ai as one of their own, so to speak - this also happens with AquKana and AquAka but is especially important when it comes to trying to sell AquRuby as a good and healthy endgame. A lot of AquRuby discourse while the manga was running came from a place of trying to downplay or even outright reject the taboo elements of the ship, to the point where I legitimately saw multiple people arguing with their whole chests that AquRuby actually wasn't even incest at all because of their past lives and Ruby disowning Aqua - so that appeal to Ai's moral authority is the natural extension of that kind of logic, I think. Which, again. A huge part of the appeal of a taboo, star crossed romance is the taboo. I would assume people who are into AquRuby are there for that element of it, among other things, so I've never understood this impetus to try and exclude those more fricative aspects of it.
What do you think of the comparisons of KamiAi and AquAka? I can see some of it but it bothers me a little when it's painted as a positive thing for AquAka and glossing over the bad things.
I'm about where you are with it. Broadly speaking, I don't think it's an inappropriate comparison in isolation - OnK really wants to equate Aqua and Hikaru and Akane obviously has All That going on with Ai, so the text is absolutely inviting the reader to draw parallels, if nothing else. Akane's talk of "carrying [his] burden" is echoed later when Ai talks about her desire to do the same for Hikaru and just the broad strokes of the "damaged sadboy and his endlessly supportive gf" dynamic is obviously at play with both pairs. And ofc, AquAka and KamiAi are the two 'canon' ships of Oshi no Ko (i.e, the two ships in which the characters actually enter an official, committed relationship) which invites comparisons. So again, I wouldn't say this is an off-base or inappropriate comparison to make, when approached in good faith.
The problem, of course, is that, well... if the text is intentionally equating AquAka and KamiAi, then that's really not a good look for AquAka but that's not a conversation most people making this argument are ready to have!!! KamiAi was a dysfunctional and unhealthy relationship, one in which both parties did genuinely and earnestly love each other and want to be together, but still one that was stifling and codependent and so obviously going in a bad direction that Hoshino Ai, Earth's most autistic and poorly socialized fawning bunny rabbit, got the hell out of there and refused to get back together with the boy she still loved even when he offered. KamiAi is framed as a tragedy of two deeply damaged people who were simply not capable of having a healthy relationship with each other, or possibly anyone, at that stage in their lives. To compare AquAka to this relationship dynamic unavoidably suggests that AquAka shares these same dysfunctions and is on track for a similarly tragic ending... but of course, most people making this comparison do just kind of avoid that anyway lol.
From what I've seen, there's mainly two avenues this takes - one suggests that AquAka is a sort of "redo" of KamiAi, or a "corrected" version of it, where Akane is succeeding where Ai failed or Akane is able to offer Aqua the support Ai wasn't able to offer Hikaru, etc etc. I think this by and large ignores the actual text, which is that Ai was 100% in the right to cut off her relationship with Hikaru and her only failing in this scenario was her inability to properly communicate why she was leaving. To frame her decision to escape a toxic dynamic as some kind of failure of spirit that Akane is 'correcting' just feels kind of gross to me - it feels like it's part of a pattern that a lot of pro-Akane fan discussion falls into, where her tendency towards self-destructive, self-annihilating devotion to Aqua is framed as some kind of admirable virtue (as previously discussed in this post). It can also lead to some really victim-blamey rhetoric towards Ai to suggest that getting yourself out of a dysfunctional relationship with a partner who is making you feel stifled and unhappy is some kind of skill issue that Akane totes would never fall prey to! Akane is simply just built different!
That's the take I see most frequently but the other one, which I see less often but am driven to Lovecraftian madness whenever I am forced to engage with it, is the absolutely unhinged assertion that ackshully, KamiAi was a totes happy and healthy relationship and Ai was 100% happy and thriving in it and everything was perfect and the only reason anything bad happened was because of the breakup. Oh, er, why did Ai break up with him if everything was hunky-dory? Don't worry about it, kitten. You see, the breakup was bad and that's why Hikaru is the way he is so the relationship was actually fine and perfect and thus, any similarities AquAka shares with it are only good things that make AquAka a good, happy and healthy ship. This is obviously a completely insane reading of the text that requires you to fundamentally ignore everything about both characters' motivations and expressed emotions and a frankly weird amount of the plot of the story, but it's out there and it haunts me!!! I have straight up had certain genres of militant AquAka shipper say to me with their whole-ass chests that Hikaru becoming an actual serial killer cult leader off the back of their breakup doesn't indicate that there might've been some problems in paradise before that because he only turned evil after the breakup and if they hadn't broken up he wouldn't have turned evil so ONCE AGAIN THIS IS ALL AI'S FAULT FOR NOT BEING HER HIGH SCHOOL BOYFRIEND'S MOMMY-HE-CAN-FUCK THERAPIST GF FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE OH MY GODDDDDDDDD
coughs. anyway. like I said, I don't think it's an unfitting comparison to make in the context of a wider lens/good faith analysis, but most of the takes I see about it come from, as you said, a place of wanting to gloss over the negative aspects of one or both relationships. It sort of feels like it's coming from the same place as something I discussed in an earlier post, of wanting to borrow the perceived authority of something else in the text to better prop up your preferred ship as the morally/thematically/intellectually/whatever superior one.
Framing Aqua/Akane as Kamiki/Ai if Ai wasn't willing to leave could be interesting.
And I don't think it would be hard to justify characterizing Akane that way. Akane faced such intense harassment during the reality show arc that she tried to jump off a bridge. Of course, Ai faced her share of harassment and abuse and bullying, but unlike Akane, she has years of experience adapting to the abuse, while by all accounts Akane has a loving family and a healthy social life. Akane clutches harder to her life raft in the storm because, unlike Ai, she never had to swim.
But of course, most Aqua/Akane shippers don't want to characterize her as a traumatized teenager making bad decisions due to harsh trauma inflicted by a heartless industry and bloodthirsty fandom. They also don't want to characterize Aqua as a traumatized teenager making bad decisions due to harsh trauma inflicted by his dad and a bloodthirsty fan. They want to characterize Aqua and Akane as Sherlock Holmes and Irene Adler, specifically from one of the adaptations where Holmes and Adler are a couple and solve mysteries together.
...weird that "AquAka is KamiAi but Aqua is a better BF than Kamiki" isn't a take. Considering that, canonically, Kamiki killed both of the women we know he was intimate with, while Aqua only ever killed his girlfriend's boyfriend.
how would you set up an introspective fanfic where ai lives and has to wrangle with how much her personhood is tied to her as an idol? like what impetus would force her to finally confront the lies she tells and how unfulfilling it all is? something large enough to shake her and force her to think, but not so large to overshadow her internal struggles for identity
I chewed on this for a bit because something about it was kind of hitting my brain funny and what I ultimately came to was that I think any trouble you might be having in working with this premise is that it's conflating two different ideas from the text that aren't quite the same thing - that is to say, Ai's dissatisfaction with her own "falseness" and, separately from that, her experiences as an idol. Obviously, within the wider context of OnK's themes and overall narrative, these are more deliberately intertwined and 'idolhood' is often used as a microcosm of societally imposed ideal/acceptable womanhood, but in the context of Ai's personal character arc, I think those are two distinct struggles that simply happen to intersect a lot.
Broadly speaking, Ai is dissatisfied with herself because she feels she has a fundamental inability to connect with people or understand genuine emotions - even her own - without lying and her idol persona is something she uses to manage that as an idealized self. As such, I wouldn't really say that her dissatisfaction with lying is something she needs to come to a realization about because it's already something she's extremely aware of - that self-perceived 'lack' is something she'd been struggling with her whole life and something she expresses knowledge of and frustration with a few times across episode/volume 1. In the sidestory 45510, she also expresses a desire to be seen and accepted as she truly is, without having to perform, and it's the center of her little monologue that leads directly into her opening the door to Ryosuke. So I wouldn't say that Ai needs any real impetus to confront this part of herself, because she already very much understands what the problem is, she just can't imagine a reality where she can successfully resolve it.
And to a degree, she's right! A consistent part of Ai's story is this pattern of her needing to be everything that everybody asks of her, succeeding against all odds and being punished for it anyway. There's a certain futility that she has to wrestle with where, fundamentally, the problem isn't that she doesn't know how to be honest, it's that society by and large is uninterested in letting her. Even when Ai does try and make the effort to open up, she's misinterpreted (sometimes in spectacularly bad faith) or made to feel like she's still doing it wrong somehow.
When it comes to her career as an idol, I also think it's worth keeping in mind that within the text of the story, Ai doesn't seem dissatisfied with her work - she even expresses to Miyako that she likes the lifestyle and the moments that we see her struggling are, again, more to do with her already established internal struggles. From a narrative perspective, her career as an idol is a vehicle to exacerbate and externalize that pre-existing dissatisfaction, not its root cause. She's proud of B-Komachi and seems to enjoy the work of performing and the satisfaction she derives from seeing people happy. B-Komachi and her idol work are not inherently the problem - her dissatisfaction comes from it not being a solution to the root cause, and how it becomes an extension of the already extant pressure she experiences to mask and perform the most socially digestible, idealized version of herself at all times.
It also doesn't help that, like... even if we do get Ai to a place as a character where she feels dissatisfied with her career, there isn't really a whole lot she can do to resolve that. This is something I've discussed before, but Ai really is kind of trapped in the entertainment industry by both obligation and material necessity. She sacrificed her formative years to the entertainment industry and was rewarded for it with nauseating success, but it also means that she has no other real experience, education, or job prospects to fall back on if she wants to leave. Viewpoint B discusses how difficult it is for idols who've graduated to find their footing in everyday society and that's for girls who aren't neurodivergent abuse survivors with no high school diploma and two mouths to feed. It's not like she has any friends and family to support her - she's not really on everyday speaking terms with Hikaru, she's not close to anyone in B-Komachi and the closest thing she has to a parent is her boss. She doesn't really have a future or support network outside of the industry.
I definitely do think you could write a fic of her having a sort of crisis of faith over her career and having her negative feelings about it overlap more explicitly with her general dissatisfaction with how she's forced to perform to get by in society but that's not Ai as she already is straight from canon and getting her to that point in the first place would kind of be a whole fanfic in of itself. And ofc figuring out how you'd do all that is the fun of writing a fic so I don't want to just dictate to you how to do it LOL. But I hope my rambles here were at least helpful in breaking down some of those moving parts so it's easier for you to assemble them in a way that makes sense to you!
kind of fascinating that a linguist doesn't find meaning in a predetermined being choosing their own name and purpose entirely separate from what they were meant to be
I think part of what makes Priestess so effective as Arknights' ultimate antagonist is that there's nothing significant to her on Terra. She finds the actions of Theresa and Theresis and the countless people who oppose her as nothing more than a novelty, an interesting little bug to momentarily observe before squashing it. She's threatening but not as some kind of evil overlord that wishes everything to suffer, but more of a bored god looking down on Terra and annoyed that these primitive, tiny, stupid little beings don't just listen to her and do as she says, don't they realize that she knows what's best for them?
There's a detached feeling to all of Priestess' interactions on Terra, her opponents aren't threatening, they're just a child throwing a temper tantrum because they don't eat their (Originum) veggies. It's particularly frustrating for Priestess because she's done this same song and dance of humoring newborn civilizations an uncountable amount of time to where, in her own words, she lost the enjoyment in it.
The life on Terra, the Teekaz and the Ancients and the Elders, all of them were just a random accident, an experimental anomaly that isn't offensive on its own, just another one in a million random chance that sprung up.
And yet they did something that not a single member of Oracle and Priestess' cosmic, nigh-omniscient race could. Something that eventually befell every civilization they'd encountered prior, yet Terra has seemingly circumvented.
They evolved beyond what was fated for them.
I thought at the time it was a little weird for them to continuously bring up the flower field that Theresa made with Originum during the Babel event, but the new context we have for it makes it clear why Oracle was so enraptured by it: Theresa evolved Originum in a way that Oracle never realized was possible.
Despite Oracle's misgivings and the guilt they felt over how Originum was harming a newborn civilization, this same newborn civilization with the iota of time given to them compared to the countless eons of Oracle's own civilization and technology, managed to surpass them.
Terra took Originum, the literal fire and language of the gods, and made Arts with it.
Arts, of course, has a huge double meaning here both in-context and thematically, Arts of course refer to the literal arts that people can devote themselves to and it's why so many instruments/wands/etc have a huge variety among the weapons in Terra, people cast Arts through a variety of creative means like music, writing, painting, you name it. Arknights places a heavy emphasis on the importance of self-expression to the point where it's a literal hard counter to things like Daemon infection or Seaborn assimilation, but I think looking at this in-context is also important.
Originum is fundamentally a language. While the Assimilated Universe and the actual rocks themselves serve as a storage system for the information of everything that has ever existed, that's mostly a lot of bells and whistles for what Originum really serves to do: Universal translation and understanding.
Languages are born from a primary need for communication, which is so broad that it makes sense why Originum also needs to store an absurdly broad amount of information. We even see in the beginning of Ch15 that Raydistorter has a few sequences of calibrating itself to then properly communicate with Hierda because it's combing through all the accumulated knowledge of Originum to approximate the language and means of communication that Hierda uses. This makes sense because languages are also a form of culture (civilization), they can evolve on the spot from seemingly anything like slang and memes (hell just consider Tumblr itself, phrases like blorbo and oh worm and the like, these are all memes, units of culture that become part of Tumblr's 'language' that we understand but other websites might not), so Originum stores a functionally infinite amount of information to cross reference and approximate any new culture and language it comes across.
Originum thus has a by-design need to be stagnant as opposed to ever evolving, a Rosetta Stone for any form of language it can come across.
And yet, Terra evolved it still, because the arts are still a form of communication. By nature of Originum being a language, it is still capable of the evolution any language can undergo: Cross-culture idea mixing and remixing, songs, paintings, theater, puns, memes, these are all things that can emerge from any sort of language, forms of self-expression that, in a lot of ways, go beyond language.
To Terra, the Arts derived from Originum are a form of self expression, a way to evolve beyond the static nature of a singular universal, unchanging language. A way to continually evolve language and communication. Theresa in severing the thread of fate that bound Terra's fate to Originum is also what lets them evolve beyond a set meaning.
To Priestess? Priestess literally does not care for the Arts. She does not recognize any significance in something as small as changing a name.
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I love it so much. he committed femicide, guys. the exact same energy as that one tweet about Dimitri fire emblem. he doesn't just kill women he MURDERS them.
anyway any true hikaai shipper knows that Hikaru having her violently murdered in her own home is a cornerstone of the appeal
micha's tags on a reblog just reminded me. who wants to see my favourite ever onkblr post.
I love it so much. he committed femicide, guys. the exact same energy as that one tweet about Dimitri fire emblem. he doesn't just kill women he MURDERS them.
anyway any true hikaai shipper knows that Hikaru having her violently murdered in her own home is a cornerstone of the appeal
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Re: not exploring reincarnation in OnK: honestly, I think it's a missed opportunity for Ruby in particular. We've established that Ai is The Idol and Ruby is doing her level best to be The Second Coming Of Idol Jesus, and i think there's something interesting out there where pre-reveal Ruby hits a stumbling block in her career because the template for Ruby's idol persona is Ai, which can be construed as Ruby imitating her by those not in the know. 1/2
Who is Ruby as an idol (as a person) when she's not using Ai as a template? Because the answer can't be Tendouji Sarina. Who is Ruby as a person (as an idol) when she's not falling back on her experience as Tendouji Sarina. There needs to be a secret third thing, and I don't know that Ruby as we know her has one. There's a lot of time in OnK spent on Aqua self-actualizing separate from his past self(ves) and Ruby, i feel, doesn't get much time to even try. 2/2
This this and this, basically. It's really bizarre because the first half of the manga already very openly lays out exactly the idea you're suggesting here - during the Private arc, it's noted that Ruby is not really all that compelling as an idol because of this sense that she's just copying someone - and that someone the reader implicitly knows is Ai.
But then of course, this all comes to nothing because (as I've pointed out before), the manga is so hung up on this idea of having Ruby 'surpass' Ai as an idol but the only metric by which the manga seems to be able to measure and/or demonstrate her success at this is how much Ruby resembles Ai in the process of doing so. She strikes Ai's iconic poses, sings songs that are associated with Ai in the narrative, Mengo gets to a point where she basically draws Ruby as a blonde Ai... and by the end of the series, Ruby barely has her own identity as a character, full stop, let alone an idol. It's incredibly bizarre - but more than anything, it's disappointing.
Some of my pals recently blitzed thru the OnK manga for the first time and one of them had a really fascinating reading/suggested arc for Ruby that I can't stop thinking about... we both 100% acknowledge that this is kind of reading against the intended text but also the intended text makes so little sense that i think we can have a bit of death of the author as a treat.
The real problem is the yawning, gaping void in the center of Hoshino Ruby. She's tried to fill it with so many different things and none of them work so she turns outward and puts her heart into everything she does at 200% to ignore how hollow the organ that pumps blood through her body really is. Even B-Komachi wasn't enough to find the one connection she had that briefly bridged that gaping void. Her wholehearted obsession with revenge was another tenuous straw she used to grasp at Ai yet that gap is forever doomed to widen because she's refusing to see Ai as she was, and so that sense of connection can't even be found in her memories. Aqua at least has a sense of his own identity via denial of it. "Ruby" is a girl that doesn't exist, not even to herself. "Sarina" doesn't either. Ruby is backfilling her with what she and Aqua want out of "Sarina" since that's easier than being "Ruby" at this point.
(lightly shortened and reformatted for readability, thank u lily sorry i gave you and cobalt secondhand brainworms)
I think this an extremely interesting reading of Ruby, not just for self-evident reasons but also because it's something the text itself kind of sets up (only to end up forgetting all about it because of course lmao). But during the private audition, when Ruby thinks about what 'lies' mean to her, she ends up expressing a very similar sentiment - that both "Ruby Hoshino" and "Sarina Tendouji" are roles that she feels it necessary to play in order to contort to other people's expectations but that her 'true self' is something different.
This is a fascinating aspect of Ruby's psychology for many reasons but the manga never really iterates on this idea and never returns to it. This is especially strange given the way the manga will later try to push parallels between Ruby and Ai - contorting the self you present to others for survival and to match their expectations is something that defined Ai's life but the manga never seems to make this very obvious connection. More broadly, we never learn what Ruby's "true self" supposedly is outside of some vague snapshots of her negative feelings and ultimately, as I've said before, we reach a point where the story stops ever entertaining the idea that Ruby might be anything less than Literally Perfect, Flawless and Ontologically Blessed and Inherently Special in every way that matters.
Ultimately I think a lot of this comes down to an issue in OnK's writing that I've mentioned before that Akasaka never seems to have had a super strong grasp on Ruby as a character beyond her surface level behaviour and backstory, which is why we get so many abrupt and seemingly inconsistent takes on her personality and psychology that never resolve into a coherent whole. Her motivations can change at the drop of a hat if it's what the plot demands and even then, the plot never demands very much from her - she's almost always reactive to what is going on around her rather than proactive in her own right. Much of her behaviour and motivations are defined in relation to other characters and while this is not bad in a vacuum, she's never really given the space to define herself and as such, ends the story less defined and less realized than she was when we first met her.
one thing that's startling is how unlike ai ruby actually is - the only thing more surprising than that is the consistency of that across the various eras of ruby .
the closest i feel she organically gets to it without C + P ai's visuals is the scene early on where she comforts kana the night before they're due to perform and tells kana it's okay to fail . it's okay if they flop . people just want to see them pour their hearts out and do their best . that sort of iron faith that things can work out is like ai , but it's also very much uniquely ruby - ruby is comfortable with failure and disappointing others in a way ai isn't . it's much easier to see ai sharing kana's anxiety , but difficult to imagine ai either a) having this sort of rapport with a co-worker or b) sharing ruby's 'it's okay if i fuck up or flop' mentality . ruby very much shares ai's resilience , but it isn't expressed the exact same way .
but across her different eras , ruby just doesn't have much in common with ai . this post has already pointed out the various ways early era ruby is decidedly unlike ai (argumentative , willing to seek support from others , etc) , but i'd like to point out how dark ruby and movie arc ruby are also unlike ai , especially because this is where ruby's lack of cohesion as a character begins to really show .
the manipulative , evil ai allegations are 100% false . ai couldn't manipulate a wet paper bag . so much of her story revolves around how people feel intensely about and over her (ruby included!) , but how those same people often fail to see her . the powerlessness she feels on her pedestal is so core to her as a character - which fundamentally puts her at odds with dark ruby , who not just possesses the cunning but forcefully goes after what she wants without a single care for who she steps on to get there .
movie arc is most interesting because while it tries its absolute hardest to force ai parallels (as the linked post + OP both discuss) , it inadvertently ends up writing ruby as much more like hikaru .
it's difficult to imagine ai treating somebody as ruby does gorou - she's hesitant to press her presence where she feels it might not be wanted . but the intensity of hikaru's feelings suffocating ai and leaving her uncomfortable (as aqua often seems during these scenes) parallels ruby fairly strongly . divesting so much energy into somebody being your light in the dark is textbook hikaru , not ai . and if you back-track to early era ruby for a moment , the hikaru parallels are still fairly strong there too .
both of them often talk to ai . we get quite a few scenes of ruby visiting her grave or addressing her thoughts to mama , but i'm hard-pressed to recall if we get anything equivalent for aqua . both hikaru and ruby want to honor ai's legacy and keep her memory alive , but they have fundamentally different approaches to it - hikaru is destroying any talent that threatens it , while ruby wants to honor her by following in her footsteps . more to the point , both of them are missing a rather large piece about that : that ai DGAF about being the ultimate idol .
ai didn't dream of the dome . ai doesn't care about fame the way both hikaru and ruby think she does . ruby and hikaru's ideas of keeping her legacy + memory alive are transparently self-serving and blind to ai , even as they both love her deeply .
and the comment that spurs ai into contacting hikaru comes from ruby - ruby says the twins must be a virgin conception . it's meant to be humorous , but ai's concern is very real . we know that in ruby's case , it very much comes from a place of love . she rails against misogyny and purity culture on ai's behalf on twitter - the issue isn't with idols dating . it's with the idea her ai , specifically , would have dated . pre-dark ruby , she thought about her father as often as he thought about her - which is to say , only when other people poked .
she evinces no curiosity or desire about who ai would've even dated . she's not interested in filling in that blank . as far as she's concerned , it may as well have been a virgin conception . some of that can be written off as returning the investment - no point in wasting energy on a deadbeat . if he wants to be here , he would be . but that begs the question of if ruby would even want to share - she's more territorial over ai's time and energy than aqua is .
either way , the point is that ruby doesn't quite see ai for reasons quite similar to hikaru . and it feels like early on , she was meant to have an arc in tandem with aqua's - as he pursues revenge , ruby has to learn who her mother really is .
some of that gets brought back for the movie arc's penultimate conclusion that ai was just an ordinary girl , but it's a journey she should've been having much earlier and one she's denied . the moment aqua starts living his best life , dark ruby is ushered in to substitute for him . much of early ONK focuses on how much of a grind success can be , even when things are lined up well for you - and it feels like akasaka hit the fast-forward button on b-komachi's success so ruby would be in a good position to do what aqua currently can't . the text prioritizes the progression of the revenge plot over ruby's personal arc .
from there , once aqua re-enters the chat , akasaka's attempts to do something with her end up relying on mining the imagery and dynamics of previous characters - ai and sarina .
it feels like the start to giving ruby her own identity would be to acknowledge she isn't ai . as i said earlier , it's amazing that what endures through every era of ruby is how unlike ai she truly is . and that's a good thing ! she shouldn't be ai 2.0 .
as much as i hate to rescue the slop , it feels like there's actually a character here that , against all odds , prevails through the bad writing . she's just buried . but akasaka isn't interested in exploring that . actually exploring ruby's hikaru tendencies means examining how destructive they become if left unchecked , to both idol and fan . it also means possibly destroying his intended ending for ruby - if ruby realizes ai never dreamed of the dome , how does she square that with her own motivations for becoming an idol ? what does honoring ai actually look like , then ?
but we never get an answer to any of that because ruby was drawn into the revenge plot as needed , but then hastily spat back out .
the framing & repetition of this scene implying that this unimaginably tender smile is the first thing both the twins saw makes me emit a noise akin to a man who has just shut his hand in a car door
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