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I saw a wizard today.
No really.. an old man gray hair scraggly beard, a black pointy beanie a dirty white T-shirt, blue pajama pants and a striped blue robe, barefoot picking up sticks at 2pm, as it was raining. Thats a wizard if there every was
One of the hardest things is not being able to communicate clearly. That was one of the main issues in our relationship. And now that i know how, i am legally not able. I am only able to talk about our child. But somehow you still think I can respond to other things. I care so deeply for you and your well being. But I also value my safety. It pains me not being able to comfort and support you. And somewhere deep down I know that this grief will make me a more empathetic person. And help me grow. But the impermanence of love and life are so frustrating. I want to be held, so i can cry into your shoulder. But sitting with these feelings and emotions, learning to self soothe, to be independent is growth. I’m finally growing up. I’m only 19 years behind.
this grieving is especially hard because it isn’t just a life, or the end of a relationship, it’s over 10years of a relationship, and dreaming and planning for the future, that I am also grieving, plans for exploring and adventure. Building a home, a community. Just everything I thought my future, our future was going to be.
RESTFUL BODY SCAN MEDIATION - UNDER THE FORCE TREE AT THE JEDI TEMPLE
Hello everyone! I'm very excited (and extremely nervous) about this post. I've been working on this project for 6-9 months, and I'm ready to start sharing it with you.
I'm making this first meditation free and open to everyone so you can get a sense of what to expect from future posts. It's available on our Patreon page (completely free - you don't have to be a member in order to listen to this one). Moving forward, all meditations will only be available to the Jedi Master tier.
WHAT TO EXPECT DURING THIS RELAXING BODY SCAN
In this mediation, you will envisions yourself lying under the Force tree in the Jedi Temple's central courtyard. Body scans are a form of meditation where you focus on each body part and actively relax it. I will walk you through your body from head to toe, giving you time to breathe. This will engage your parasympathetic nervous system and is a wonderful way to ground yourself in the present moment, thus temporarily removing yourself from any stress or anxiety you are currently experiencing.
CLICK HERER TO LISTEN TO THE FREE JEDI MEDITATION
The above link will open a page where you can listen right there, or you can even download the audio file right to your device :)
WHY I'M MAKING GUIDED MEDITATIONS
1. Meditation helped me get through the hardest time in my life, and I want to help others with what I know.
Many people I know seem to be struggling right now. They are stressed, hurt, scared, lonely, overwhelmed. I want to do what I can to help. My goal is to provide you a few minutes of relief where you can (at least temporarily) let go of everything that's bothering you.
A few years ago I went through a very hard time, and the stress I experienced took its toll physically and emotionally. As embarrassing as this may be to admit in other circles, I think everyone here will relate when I say that I turned to the Jedi and Star Wars for inspiration. I started mediating and practicing mindfulness and manifestation. Amazing things have happened as a result, on a large and a small scale.
2. There's nothing out there that's practical and creative, AND related to Star Wars.
I have scoured the internet looking for Jedi/Star Wars meditations, but haven't found anything remotely like what I wanted. I know Star Wars recently started releasing mindfulness videos with Ashley Eckstein, but they are still not what I was looking for.
My mediations are creative, immersive, and designed to activate your parasympathetic nerve system.
I hope putting this out into the world actually helps someone. If you listen to it, I would love to know what you think 💜
This is my first scan of someone else- name in upper left- I think he is a REALLY good musician, check him out on Spotify.
What am I to believe?
My head, my ears, your words, my heart, the suggestions of others, your actions, my reactions? My feelings and emotions?
Why do I receive conflicting messages, am I reading too far into it? Am I reading too far into everything? Did my literature teachers do too good a job? What patterns are there? Or am I human, we who like to make order out of chaos?
Or do I listen to the ramblings of the prophet Katy Perry, “you change your mind..”
Do I trust my intuition? Do I doubt and question everything?
Had I done that, had I done this.
Had I done this, had I done that.
“I am scared” does not seem to encapsulate what I am experiencing. I know that these feelings are not permanent. They are still real, and beautiful and scary, and destructive but they also bring life and healing, like a storm.
I am a storm
Dark clouds, filled to capacity,
Cool air, SNAP, lighting tearing through the silence
Bright light, BANG, the thunder echoing
Throwing, damage, ruin, shaking wind,
Downpour on my cheeks
I am a storm.
The right person
Someone who is truly meant for you would never be the reason why you cry yourself to sleep at night. Someone who is truly meant for you would never be the reason for you to ask yourself if you are good enough.
Someone who is truly meant for you would never intentionally hurt you in any way.Someone who is truly meant for you would never treat you like an option - but as their first priority.
May gentleness fill your whole being and reach everyone you meet 💛🙏🌷💖 My intention always is: May I be an instrument of peace, love, kindness to my self and everyone I meet ❤️
I do not know what lies ahead, I will find joy anyway
What is your favorite cup?
What are three adjectives/reasons why?
What if I told you the cup, and adjectives/reasons represents the way you view your emotions.
the body and emotional capacity is often compared to a cup or a vessel that can hold liquids- “you can’t pour from an empty cup”
This is an expansion on the one where you have to name a body of water an animal and article of clothing and three attributes of each-(Freud?)
To uncover more subconscious aspects of your emotional state- I’ve used the analogy/metaphor for the cup to explain my feelings and capacity before, a broken cup that has been put back together with glue, but there is a piece missing about a 1/4 from the bottom and one at the bottom, and there are a few others. The one at the bottom I tried to plug that hole with various things (drugs, tv, food, sex) before I found the piece that stuck (self esteem), but the only glue I had was water soluble so occasionally it falls out and I have to try to . I am unable to receive anything poured into me (and therefore pour to others) with no self esteem. Now sometimes I can tilt my cup in a way that the hole doesn’t leak- but it’s not stable- it may fall, break more, splash and spill, or I might be able to hold it long enough to pour a little into someone else.
The other pieces that are still not together are yet to be identified- one of them is shame.
And maybe the hole that looks like one piece is missing might be two or three that make up the piece to fit the hole.
Anyway, I’d like to make a sculpture that is a cup, my cup.
Just an opinion/ thought.
I started making these pastels before the two serious suicide attempts, (the first two pieces- the one with two figures reaching towards each other, and the more colorful one with a figure in center) the others I’ve done since. I made one while I was in the mental hospital about anger. That will be another post.
Today is the first day of summer, it’s also the day that my depression medication is supposed to start working. It’s been 6 weeks since I started, and I’ve already had a dose increase when I was in the mental hospital following suicide attempt number 2(or 3 depending how you look at it). I’m not sure what I’m expecting today. Maybe to not feel anything. I’m scared of that. Maybe I won’t have any feelings. In three weeks the dose increase kicks in. Im scared/sad going through this with out my best friend.
I’m back. After a hiatus, I think this blog will be my comfort, i was a heart broken youth who found love. Again I am heart broken, but not lost, and not without love. I am on a course toward self love, mindfulness, acceptance, and gratitude.
what got me through the hardest 2 months of my life. finally over.
Psalm 23:1-4 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.He makes me to lie down in green pastures;He leads me beside the still waters.He restores my soul;He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil;For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 94:19 In the multitude of my anxieties within me,Your comforts delight my soul.
Philippians 1:6 being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;
My son, keep my words and store up my commands within you. 2 Keep my commands and you will live; guard my teachings as the apple of your eye. 3 Bind them on your fingers; write them on the tablet of your heart. 4 Say to wisdom, “You are my sister,” and to insight, “You are my relative.” 5 They will keep you from the adulterous woman, from the wayward woman with her seductive words.
6 At the window of my house I looked down through the lattice. 7 I saw among the simple, I noticed among the young men, a youth who had no sense. 8 He was going down the street near her corner, walking along in the direction of her house 9 at twilight, as the day was fading, as the dark of night set in.
10 Then out came a woman to meet him, dressed like a prostitute and with crafty intent. 11 (She is unruly and defiant, her feet never stay at home; 12 now in the street, now in the squares, at every corner she lurks.) 13 She took hold of him and kissed him
With persuasive words she led him astray; she seduced him with her smooth talk. 22 All at once he followed her like an ox going to the slaughter, like a deer[a] stepping into a noose[b] 23 till an arrow pierces his liver, like a bird darting into a snare, little knowing it will cost him his life.
24 Now then, my sons, listen to me; pay attention to what I say. 25 Do not let your heart turn to her ways or stray into her paths. 26 Many are the victims she has brought down; her slain are a mighty throng. 27 Her house is a highway to the grave, leading down to the chambers of death.
Just a reminder to never call your girlfriend a whore… Because you might end up marrying the worst 2 months of your life #marriedlife
People change, there is growth, there is forgiveness, there is healing. There will always be regret, guilt and shame for this. Using religion to hide/justify my feelings that I was too scared and immature to face and voice is one of my biggest mistakes/regrets. You are not, you have never been a mistake or regret. Even those two “bad” months and the “bad” month(s) we are coming out of has been eclipsed by so many good days and months and years. A couple drops of salt water in gallons of clean water is still drinkable and refreshing. If not better- added electrolytes.
I am making progress, Please continue to be patient with me, as I have continued to ask.
