watching amber heard recount tales of what she claims to have gone through is disturbing
a lot of the words are almost right. a lot of them are close. but the distance from reality is something she can't capture. she can't bridge that gap between concepts she's been coached on and living through them.
she's had a long time to study stories. she's had a lot of stories told to her. she's sat as the face of a movement for a long time, of course she's been exposed to the horrors that other people have gone through.
but she's never gone through the things she's claiming.
ignoring her face, ignoring her tone, because those are topics that can take hours to delve into, the words are not real.
some of the things she is trying to describe, i have experienced. and the way she's telling them is someone else's story, not her own. she's searching for adjectives to describe the pictures in her mind she's built, with help, but her adjectives don't capture the emotions she's never felt.
she moves when she remembers to, copying johnny's dynamic recounting of his experiences. adding a physicality when it dawns on her that she's been reminded to do so. but the movements aren't to express the emotional impact of the actions being replayed, they're just movements. references to paint a picture. and you paint what you see, not what you know. she adds details because she's been told that adding details makes it seem more real, makes it seem like she's telling the truth. the pink dress. the dog getting a bee sting. they're stops on the ride for her, checks on the list of things to cover. and she pretends to not know why she's focusing on these things, but she calls them up as things she almost forgot to mention, not arbitrary details drilled into her mind in a moment of extreme stress.
listening to her words, she doesn't understand the story she's telling because it is not her story.
i'm sure someone much more eloquent than i can explain the facial disparity, the lack of connection between her words and the emotions she shows on her face, the grimace and consistent shake every time she knows she is lying. i'm sure someone else can explain her tone, her cadence, the pauses for recall of recitation and their shape and form.
but this woman is not speaking of a traumatic moment in her life. she's telling a tale that sanitizes something she did. her every word betrays her unfamiliarity with being in the situation she claims.
she does those of us who have experienced these things a disservice.
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