you ever think about how in episodes 29 and 30, Wei Wuxian physically, emotionally, and mentally tries to distance himself from his Shijie and the Jiang Clan and how much it fucking hurts him every single time
like,
like when heâs with Lan Wangji, he catches himself the first time he starts to say âShijie,â and then freezes, swallows the words with a flinch, and corrects himself to call her âJiang-Guniangâ, because Jiang Yanli is no longer his Shijie, he has no right to call her that in public,
 or when
or when he bows to her before he leaves like heâs not her family anymore, putting up that barrier of formality that should not be there between family members, but he has to do it because he chose the Wen Remnants and he canât treat her just like family anymore, he has to put up that barrier even as it breaks him to do it
or when
or when she calls out to him as heâs leaving and he stops, and stands there, and goes through about 5 stages of grief, where he canât help the smallest glance back before he forces himself to face forward, away from her and Jiang Cheng, physically shoring up himself and his heart and his pain, and burying it under determination because he must go forward, he must go to the Wens and away from the Jiangs, he canât have them both, andÂ
and
