losing fat gaining muscle

active november 2022 block don't report / dni if in recovery tracking & goals / arfid, body dysmorphia, probably ortho/anorex side account

[maneater2008]

changing my hole personality for 2023

[capriedainty13]

Control is addictive.

Saying NO is addictive. Having your brainpower over your hunger & body desires is addictive.

Let the world spiral & unravel. But MY body stays under MY control.

[itgirlslim]

body dysmorphia is a bitch but also clothing companies exacerbate that shit for profit, like i've finally accepted i'm an eu36/us4/s but i ordered a vintage pair of designer low waist 36 jeans and i am CONVINCED i'll get them in the mail and they'll be too tight because it's designer obviously the label isn't going to mean anything but also because even jeans that are supposed to fit me look and feel like they don't

[itgirlslim]

update they juuuuuust fit

the early 2000s really were the worst

[itgirlslim]

it is absolutely evil how my restrictive ed can use my arfid against me, i fucking hate this. nausea is the worst why would i do this to myself

[rexiexoxo]

body dysmorphia

im considering quitting my dance class because i cant spend so much time looking at myself in the mirror. i have no idea what i look like. sometimes i can see my ribs and bones and sometimes my stomach is basically exploding out of my pants. sometimes my face is chiseled and small and sometimes my face is just so round and structureless. i wish i just knew what everyone else saw. i constantly feel like im looking in a funhouse mirror. 

[itgirlslim]

body dysmorphia is a bitch but also clothing companies exacerbate that shit for profit, like i've finally accepted i'm an eu36/us4/s but i ordered a vintage pair of designer low waist 36 jeans and i am CONVINCED i'll get them in the mail and they'll be too tight because it's designer obviously the label isn't going to mean anything but also because even jeans that are supposed to fit me look and feel like they don't

[itgirlslim]

ed a triggering ed b and ed b triggering ed a and the cycle continues it never stops

[itgirlslim]

the food safety TRAUMA of getting food poisoning twice in one month

[itgirlslim]

baked beans >>>>>>>

[unheard-defaced-deactivated2022]

Autism in LU form. That is how I’m doing this now.

[notabled-noodle]

sending love to people who have multiple eating disorders, or who have an eating disorder that is complex in nature.

you deserve to recover, even if your symptoms are atypical. even if you’re worried that it’s not bad enough, or that it “doesn’t count”. you deserve to find a way through this.

[itgirlslim]

balancing macros with deficit is hard :(

but i'm happy with last week

having been very consistent with my workouts also makes me happy

weekly average intake: 1540 cal

cals burned (week): 12.675

[angelisproductive]

me and my little fitness and nutrition youtube videos every morning

[itgirlslim]

reasons why i'm doing this (hopefully successful body recomp):

1. restarting my metabolism and changing my lifestyle so i don't have to worry about fat mass/weight long term, only muscle maintenance

2. visible muscle tone (abs! & back)

3. slimmer face

4. get noticed by modeling agencies & clients easier

5. looking good from all angles

6. ergo not having to worry about performing on stage etc.

7. building stamina & endurance

8. stronger skeletal musculature for joint support

9. not having to dislike the way fat sits on my stomach & thighs because it's not there anymore/has been redistributed

10. the sheer ego of just wanting to be able to do pull-ups to show off (& for practical reasons)

11. rounder glutes

12. slim toned body in general

[itgirlslim]

which demon do i thank for the fact that the last place i lose fat is my tits

[itgirlslim]

watch to see what happens if you don‘t quit and start believing in yourself #transformation

watch to see what happens if you don‘t quit and start believing in yourself #transformation

[itgirlslim]

wearing extra leggings under clothes because feeling cold all the time 🤝 wearing the extra tight pair of leggings until they're not anymore for discomfort/motivation