that one ghost

your local dyke dog 18 they/them men DNI

[itsaghost0]

hello to all 3 gloriava fans

i posted a gloriava sickfic on ao3

you guys should like totally read it or whatever haha

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[itsaghost0]

just got out of the mental hospital guys do NOT try to kill your self that place sucks

(for real though it can get better)

[itsaghost0]

if i'm going to be like this forever what's even the point of living

[robotrocky]

Rocky Said How The Fuck Is My Fucking Sweetie Pee

[cheeseanonioncrisps]

Your partner came back from the dead after being missing for decades. Every one of their friends who they went with ended up dying a horrible death.

Now, somehow, their entire mental health is based on the continued life and happiness of this fairground goldfish that they picked up.

Neither of you know the first thing about how to care for even a healthy fish. This fish has been poorly cared for, has multiple diseases and the person who handed it over explicitly didn't expect it to live nearly as long as it already has.

You're frantically googling how to set up a fish tank, where to buy fish food, can you even take a fish to the vet? Your partner wants you to know that they're happy they made it home and survived their horrific ordeal, but also that if anything happens to the fish then they're going to kill everyone on this planet and then themself.

You're honestly wondering if you're even helping the fish, or just prolonging its suffering, but your partner will only accept medical help for their many injuries or engage in basic self-care once they're confident that the fish is being looked after.

So you get a tank. You set up a filter and all that stuff. You learn way more than you ever wanted to know about water temperature and ph and nitrate levels. The fish is safe. You start to develop some affection for the little guy. Your partner begins to recover. The fish begins to recover.

Which is when you learn that in its 'healthy' state, the fish regularly refuses to sleep when tired, keeps begging for food that is obviously unhealthy for it (and struggling to eat the food that you do provide because “it tastes gross”), and continually tries to persuade your partner to take it out of its nice safe tank so it can go explore the wonderful world of Outside, where the slightest mishap will kill it instantly.

Your name is Adrian, and you kind of wants to strangle this fucking fish, statement.

[chromaticrainarts]

Made this in 10 minutes but you see the vision, statement

[emotionalsupporthandgun]

why do i gotta get my hopes up still like just give up already brain 😭😭

[paksthestoic]

thinking about eva stratt crafting a coffin for her friends. the very best coffin, full of every piece of pirated media the entire world has to offer. crafted for maximum comfort, this coffin, with every bit of authority available to her, which is all of it.

and then thinking about all the people who call her cold or uncaring or clinical about what she has to do to save earth. eva stratt, who had silly t-shirts and vodka and favorite meals stored in the Hail Mary and treated with the same level of importance as the finely tuned equipment and the centrifuge the entire planet relies on for salvation.

and then thinking about eva stratt nodding and saying, “yeah, I’m pretty awful. that’s why i’m in charge” with a neutral expression and even believing it. as if crafting the most beautiful coffin and homage to her soon-to-be dead friends won’t haunt her always.

thinking about eva stratt being the first person on the “eva stratt is a monster” train, welcoming ryland grace aboard and knowing she believed in him more than anyone else.

it’s fine, really it’s fine and normal and eva stratt makes beautiful coffins for the people and things she cares about.

[25-984microns]

breaking out the vodka to celebrate an engineering breakthrough

[itsaghost0]

everyone will always get tired of bearing the burden of loving me. i really should stop expecting anything different

[bpdmutt]

being self-aware but still unable to change your own reactions is such a uniquely miserable experience

[jupitertears3]

fuck i just remembered i’m fundamentally unlovable

[splittingatbothends]

All my relationships end like that scene in Toy Story where Andy says “I don’t want to play with you anymore” and drops Woody on the floor

[itsaghost0]

i want someone to care for me so bad that it hurts but i am fundamentally unlovable so i can't have it

[itsaghost0]

i'm so sad right now i just want to be held and there's nothing i can do about it

[splittingatbothends]

Leave me the fuck alone but also don’t or I’ll tweak out so hard

[horseusedtheelevator]

I'm so pathetic. All I want is to have someone, I want it so bad I will put myself through hell just to feel loved for even a second. I'll take any scrap anyone can give me, just distract me from myself please.