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"Guilt is a gift from Allah warning you that what you are doing is violating your soul."

The last message that people heard from the earlier prophets was: "If you have no shame, do as you wish." — Ibn ʿAsākir, Tārīkh madīnat dimashq, liii. 120 / Ṣaḥīḥ al-jāmiʿ no. 2

mashriqiyyah

A woman gives her heart completely, entirely, submissively, without any defence to a man who brings peace, safety, calm and gentleness to her soul. No money. Neither looks. Nor his status. Just him being a man whom she doesn't feel the need to be scared of in any way.

~ mashriqiyyah

fr0gg13b413

I love you so much and I don’t know where to put it all.

i worry that when you leave the weight of it will crush my ribs, all my oxygen leaving with you, robbing me of breath till you return.

ihateiu

But I apologize for coming into your life

Just to break your heart to pieces, and then leave you in the night.

And I tried my best to stay by your side

But who knew the rolling seasons would reveal that sometimes

We aren't meant to be the one-

So, goodbye to the ones we once loved </3

#Spotify

was he leading me or was it me who lead him for something I know I cannot commit? 🥺

sheikh-sayeed-deactivated202504

Duaa 🤲🏻🤍

bnmxfld

And all I loved, I loved alone.

Edgar Allan Poe

Pictures that didn’t make it to gram <3

SLOW LIFE

The heart could only bear bits of our heartaches at a certain point in time. But I wonder how is mine able to outweigh the average pain it should bear. How is it possible that it still finely beats after the handful of battles it has endured? I hardly stood proud of how far I've come because nothing has ever been the same since I lost my battle with my dad. I can't seem to grasp that this life felt more like a facade that is full of pretentious as we strive hard to live. I wonder if there will be a comfort that will happen in this lifetime. And I look at my friends and people I love the most of how much they make things easier and bearable for me these days. I had to remind myself over and over again that for every person who isn't willing to love and care for you in ways you need, there will be someone else better- who will go beyond what you expect, and it will be the most natural thing in the world. That hasn't ever happened to me, but Ya Rabb if ever it will be here one day- I hope that this someone will realize that the way I love is my favorite thing about me. I have so much love to give after all. I know that the cliche advice I always hear from other people is "Be careful whom to give a piece of your heart". But it so freeing to be able to love these beautiful souls around me- knowing that they helped me unburden myself with all this love I carry. Thankful for the warm messages I receive every time I feel blue. The dine-out invites I always look forward to after work were my favorite as it gave me a sense of hope. The change of scenery helped me to get through my darkest days; unplanned short trips with my constant were definitely made me more like a human. It isn't always a grand trip but sure as hell that it did spark my heart, rewired my brain, and give me more perspective in life. It felt surreal to feel this way again despite the emptiness, the loss, the grief, and all the unwelcoming emotions. I am such a senti person. But I'm so happy to be surrounded by the people who never fail to give me sunshine in this almost-failing life I have. The mundane things we enjoy yet fill our hearts are my therapy these days. <3