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-she/her-16-pro recovery[5'8.5 cw:160 lw:127] lowkey really need more friends so please dm me-

[daffodily]

i love the idea of a ghostinnit that’s much more free with physical affection, but i want to expand on it with a ghostinnit who is always compelled to tell the truth, because it’s something tommy always struggled with in life that was a big reason he had so much unfinished business when he died.

tubbo, grieving and looking for answers: tommy why did you never want to come live with me in snowchester?

tommy: well, you see, i consider myself the reason for l'manberg’s fall, and i believe you deserve a safe place to retire, so i distanced myself to keep your nation from being destroyed like our old home!

tubbo: wh-

also,

techno: tommy why did you want me to come to your hotel opening?? we are enemies.

tommy: despite our past i still look up to you as a protector and older brother figure, and feel desperate for stability and affection that i can never truly receive. also, that was not something i intended to say!

techno, sniffling: damn okay?

[the-king-of-lemons]

society if the dsmp fandom learned how to differentiate headcanon from canon

[dandelionyolk]

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

[miasroadtorecovery]

[jaaneymann]

stockmarket tweet compilation

[damnyallugly]

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

Im gonna be okay!

Not forever cause that would be impossible, but for now, i am okay!

Ive been through shit, ive seen stuff that i wouldnt wish upon anyone, and after all of that, after all of those nights i spent crying, after after just flat out being miserable, and relapsing again and again. I can finally say that i want to live, i want to experience everything, every early morning sunrise, every buggy summer night, every stranger with secrets and tales to tell, every tough day at work, every smile, every heartbreak, i want to experience it all. I want to live and that makes me so happy. Its so hard learning the beauty of life when all you have known are its horrors, but i am so happy i hung on. I am so happy that i have made it. I am so thankful for who i am today.

Being diagnosed with depression as a nine year old felt like a death sentence. Being miserable was all i knew growing up and its really hard to believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel when all you have known is darkness, i get it.

I can't convince you that you are going to be okay, but I do know for a fact, that if you try your best to be okay, to be happy, one day you will be. Its a long and tough journey.

Healing is not linear, it take TIME, but i believe that you can do it.

So ask for help, tell someone who can change something for you. There is nothing wrong with admitting you need help, because we all do and i fuckin WISH i had asked for help back when i was at my low point because it would have saved me so much time and pain.

One day you can think life is beautiful, dont give up hope, and don't stop striving for happiness and health because its what you deserve.

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

Everytime I question my gender I repress it 😳

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

Mf Eds be like small little gremlins. I hate them 😡😡 like no I do not want to throw up bubble tea I want to eat sugar cookies and sweet and sour chicken and egg roles and rice and hashbrowns and pierogies and feel HAPPY 😡😡😡

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

Hahaha What if I ignored that little demon voice in my head telling me to relapse. Like nah man I do not want to skip more meals, I want to go to dinner and eat dessert because dessert is yummy.

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

You should be able to wake up in the morning and list the things that you are excited for.

You should be able to be excited to try new foods and experience new things, you should be able to feel happy, and ready for life, and I am SO sorry if you can't.

Feeling shitty all the time isnt something people should glamorize on this site.

You deserve happiness

You deserve to love living life.

You deserve to recover.

[time-to-shrink2020]

I rarely feel excited, only on special occasions. Normally it's indifference or dread. You're supposed to wake up excited everyday?

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

Not every day, things suck a lot of the time, but you should be able to be excited about something in your day, whether that be finally handing your overdue work, seeing that one person that you see everyday but their presence is always persistent and comforting, or being able to get that one really good foreign drink that you havent had in so long, you should be able to be excited for these things.

[rosecrystal]

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

You should be able to wake up in the morning and list the things that you are excited for.

You should be able to be excited to try new foods and experience new things, you should be able to feel happy, and ready for life, and I am SO sorry if you can't.

Feeling shitty all the time isnt something people should glamorize on this site.

You deserve happiness

You deserve to love living life.

You deserve to recover.

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

For anyone that was concerned ab my living situation- I now live away from home.

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

am i trans? or do i just have an eating disorder?

up next on dysphoria vs dysmorphia

plot twist ;i have all of the above and i want to die

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

Update: I have neither. Life is still shitty but hey at least I'm learning to love myself.

[itsgonnabeokaybro]

Im gonna be okay!

Not forever cause that would be impossible, but for now, i am okay!

Ive been through shit, ive seen stuff that i wouldnt wish upon anyone, and after all of that, after all of those nights i spent crying, after after just flat out being miserable, and relapsing again and again. I can finally say that i want to live, i want to experience everything, every early morning sunrise, every buggy summer night, every stranger with secrets and tales to tell, every tough day at work, every smile, every heartbreak, i want to experience it all. I want to live and that makes me so happy. Its so hard learning the beauty of life when all you have known are its horrors, but i am so happy i hung on. I am so happy that i have made it. I am so thankful for who i am today.

Being diagnosed with depression as a nine year old felt like a death sentence. Being miserable was all i knew growing up and its really hard to believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel when all you have known is darkness, i get it.

I can't convince you that you are going to be okay, but I do know for a fact, that if you try your best to be okay, to be happy, one day you will be. Its a long and tough journey.

Healing is not linear, it take TIME, but i believe that you can do it.

So ask for help, tell someone who can change something for you. There is nothing wrong with admitting you need help, because we all do and i fuckin WISH i had asked for help back when i was at my low point because it would have saved me so much time and pain.

One day you can think life is beautiful, dont give up hope, and don't stop striving for happiness and health because its what you deserve.