sad cowboy

Lydia | she/her | 26

[thesearethedaysofmylife]

[depsidase]

[varandra-deactivated20230907]

*through gritted teeth* big heartbreak is indicative of big love and love is the meaning of life

[idkwhattoputformyusername]

"I was written by a man." "I was written by a woman." That's cute. I was written by Kafka. My life is a horrific labyrinth of confusion, misfortune, existential dread, and chronic self-loathing.

[deathandsensuality-archive-deac]

me whenever women do the most horrific, ungodly actions to get their revenge: she did what she had to do. 

[polkadotmotmot]

Jewel Ham - Did I Stutter?, 2021

[sterrenkijker]

the hillside wanderers as a TV series

maybe some things happen for a reason.

[galentines]

sometimes i want to pull my hair out because i want to see just ONE female character i can relate to in terms of their romantic/sex life

i want to see a girl in her mid twenties who has never been kissed

i want to see a girl who is confused because she has literally no experience

a girl that has panic attacks when she thinks of sex and cant stop thinking about what kissing is like while also being terrified of it

a girl who cant figure out her sexuality because she’s never gotten to try

a girl who self destructs because shes terrified of how bigger her baggage gets with age

i’m sick of seeing woman in tv and movies who date and have sex and still have relationship hangups, not because that doesnt exist but because i cant relate to those women

i want to turn on the tv and see a 25 year old woman who has never been with anyone, was genuinely not looked at for a long time and has become terrified of attention, who’s anxiety cheats them out of dating, who greets every birthday with this feeling of dread in the pit of their stomach because they’re getting older and older and it feels weirder and more wrong with every passing year

i know i’m not the only woman like this, but with the way the media is, it’s maybe the most alienating baggage i carry. everywhere i look, it’s weird that this is my experience. i feel ashamed and i feel scared that i one day have to tell a person to their face that i’m am adult who has never had a first kiss. its terrifying and consuming and confusing and awful. you start to believe it isnt meant for you - not just sex, or intimacy, but fucking love itself. because you dont turn on the tv and see people like you. “unlucky in love” means slightly clumsy and loud on dates and fear of commitment. its a quirky girl who probably has had sex with multiple people and just ~cant figure it out~!!!!!

i want a girl who feels so alone because she literally always has been

that’s what i wanna see

[schrodingersincest]

[pngparadise]

[iguanamouth]

[forthegothicheroine]

I was discussing that “Pennywise ends up in Derry, Ireland instead of Derry, Maine” post with my husband, and he was saying that the Derry Girls wouldn’t even set out to defeat Pennywise.  The “A” plot would be that Erin lost her mother’s necklace down the drain and they have to go into the sewers to get it, and the fact that there’s a killer clown down there that they have to fight is second to what Erin’s mother will do if they don’t find her necklace.

[normal-horoscopes]

thought you might like this

[sterrenkijker]

the hillside wanderers: paola xiloscient

[allsadnshit]

for personal reasons i will not be responding to guilt tripping and power games i will simply love you less and forgive us both for that

[cultof-aphrodite]

Watch out bro... next thing you know I’m gonna be peeling an orange and sharing it slice by slice with you

[cornedbeefhashtags]

Bro... you + me = citrUS 🥺

[parakeet]

so it turns out great tits can and do kill and eat both other birds and small mice when food is scarce, particularly during winter, and i just cannot get over this picture. it looks like the kind of photo hunters take with their kills. i’m losing it

[patrickbrewerisgay]

good job yodeling

[khughes830]

It’s like he knows he walked right the fuck into it. It couldn’t stop.