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Why are you here?

[thegoodvybe]

[itsonlyamindfuck]

Looking for penpals!

Hi! My names Mark, I’m 26 and from the West Coast of Scotland. I’m putting this ad up on the hope someone(s) out there is looking to exchange snail mail too!.

I’m a pretty ordinary guy tbh, I’m not an academic and im also nothing special, but I love communicating with people! Only through sharing our experience strength and hope with each, do we grow as human beings right!

I have a couple lovely kids and a partner, although things have been turmolious latley as we seperated a few months back. But I’ll save the details for ink 🤙📝

I’m a former coffee roaster and a former chef. I’ve cooked at some lovely restaurants, and some not so lovely. A few different jobs lately, which is OK although I’ll be retraining this year.

I guess I’m looking for someone perhaps in their 20’s through to 100, with some experience in life and who can share their stories, who doesn’t mind deep conversations but also has a good sense of humour.

My interests range from jazz (any era) through to stoicism and philosophy. I’m really pretty open minded and willing to learn ANYTHING new, certainly about your area, your passions and your heritage.

Also, Im a very grateful recovering alcoholic, and a proud member of the alcoholic anonymous fellowship, i cant thank it enough, and the people in the rooms who have gave me a second go at life. Also willing to discuss mine and others addictions at length. Always remember the yellow card 😉

I look forward to hearing from you!

ODAAT ASGAL.

Mark.

[itsonlyamindfuck]

Dm ✌️

[juansendizon]

“Self-care is an important responsibility one must take in order to achieve a rich inner world.”

— Juansen Dizon

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[itsonlyamindfuck]

Looking for penpals!

Hi! My names Mark, I’m 26 and from the West Coast of Scotland. I’m putting this ad up on the hope someone(s) out there is looking to exchange snail mail too!.

I’m a pretty ordinary guy tbh, I’m not an academic and im also nothing special, but I love communicating with people! Only through sharing our experience strength and hope with each, do we grow as human beings right!

I have a couple lovely kids and a partner, although things have been turmolious latley as we seperated a few months back. But I’ll save the details for ink 🤙📝

I’m a former coffee roaster and a former chef. I’ve cooked at some lovely restaurants, and some not so lovely. A few different jobs lately, which is OK although I’ll be retraining this year.

I guess I’m looking for someone perhaps in their 20’s through to 100, with some experience in life and who can share their stories, who doesn’t mind deep conversations but also has a good sense of humour.

My interests range from jazz (any era) through to stoicism and philosophy. I’m really pretty open minded and willing to learn ANYTHING new, certainly about your area, your passions and your heritage.

Also, Im a very grateful recovering alcoholic, and a proud member of the alcoholic anonymous fellowship, i cant thank it enough, and the people in the rooms who have gave me a second go at life. Also willing to discuss mine and others addictions at length. Always remember the yellow card 😉

I look forward to hearing from you!

ODAAT ASGAL.

Mark.

[artist-dix]

Artwork, Otto Dix

[itsonlyamindfuck]

Favourite. Some one purchase me a print of this please. Thanks.

[jaw8jaw]

Alice Goodridge using a sledgehammer to break up the ice at Loch Insh in the Scottish Highlands before her morning swim. Photo by Euan Cherry, February 2019. 

[glnger-ale-official]

God could you imagine not giving a fuck about anything

[chiribomb-deactivated20220820]

The hat is a nice touch

[cwote]

Remind Yourself;

People leave

Life goes on

It is what it is

Everything is temporary

Don’t over think, and;

Let it go

[itsonlyamindfuck]

A friend has had an interest in bread and asked if it was difficult. I told him all he had to do was have some patience, effort, time and a little bit of love. He was given a basic recipe and shown basic principles and given some guidance. This was his first attempt at a French boule. Show effort and the rewards will be 10 fold. . . . . . . . #frenchboule #bread #breadproduction #love #effort #results #whitebread #whiteflour #highproteinflour #homemadebread #likeforlike #followforfollowback https://www.instagram.com/p/BtNLCQCBGAS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12rzwebpkfvya

[itsonlyamindfuck]

Wholemeal loaf produced on Christmas morning that went to a friend, to break with his family. . . . . . . . . . . #bread #breadproduction #christmas #christ #crucifix #stnicholas #stnicholascross #wholemeal #wholemealflour #wholemealbread #likeforlike #followforfollowback https://www.instagram.com/p/BtNKIr-hjg-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ia0qea327fmu

[itsonlyamindfuck]

Been making a lot of bread lately with my boy and others. Bread production is the perfect metaphor for life and our attitudes towards relationships. I, more than others must remember and work on that. . . . . . . #bread #breadproduction #proove #homemadebread #lecruset #metaphor #metaphysics #farmhouse #dough #whitebread #highprotein #flour #80%hydration #likeforlike #followforfollowback https://www.instagram.com/p/BtNAE7eB2dO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=n9aqx93e9foi

[derekjarman]

Persona (Ingmar Bergman, 1966)

[ghostify]

[confusingmantis]

I am hell

[sinistervibecheck-deactivated20]

I’ll be the one to protect you from

Your enemies and all your demons

I’ll be the one to protect you from

A will to survive and a voice of reason

I’ll be the one to protect you from

Your enemies and your choices

They’re one and the same, I must isolate you

Isolate and save you from yourself

Swaying to the rhythm

Of the new world order and

Count the bodies like sheep

To the rhythm of the war drums

[itsonlyamindfuck]

Update. 25/1/19

Things are good. Really fucking good.

Financially Im ruined, creditors constantly harrassing me, running up arrears with my rent, car payments, but mentally, I feel great.

I'd like to put that down to AA, the people I've surrounded myself with, sober company, helping me to look at myself and who I am. Making a moral inventory, and trying to improve myself. Accepting the past and the things that happened outwith my control. I look at some of my previous posts and remember the hurt I was going through when writing them. But now knowing i was selling myself short on so many levels.

I know that what happened between "A" and I was supposed to happen. The conversations we had, the questions she asked and the answers I gave. I'd say that I'd like to change certain things, but if I did, I wouldn't be on the path I am just now.

"A" made the choice to sleep with someone whilst claiming certain things, to lie initially about it and then chose to distance herself from me in the aftermath. I couldn't prevent any of that happening, but what I could have done was react better to it. And that's where I must forgive myself. The drink and the drugs prevented me from acting appropriately and ill always be sorry for that, but at the end of the day, what happened, happened for a reason. All I can say is that I refuse to allow myself to act like that again. I refuse to give myself permission to act and display like a child once more.

I dont hate myself over it anymore, and I still think about her, the good and the bad. I just hope she can remember the good parts too, I can only hope. Whether that is the case or not i wouldnt expect it to be. She was scared at the end. A feeling I never want anyone to feel around me again.

I see my kids so much right now and it's fantastic. They are growing into great little people. My eldest is having issues with his behaviour in school at the moment, a serious incident came about this week. However I know I dealt with it in the best way I could. In a way I wouldn't have been able to if it weren't for the skills and thought processes I've developed since starting AA.

I'm not there for my drinking, but for my thinking. And my family are thankful for that.

But my gratitude to those people and rooms is eternal.

[highschoolhandjobs]

control // halsey

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