Update..
I'm still here and life is still sh*t... I just wish I had the balls to just do it... I've been cutting lately just can't fully do it and I don't know what is holding me back. I'm back to the same situation I was when I was 13 and when I actually was going to do it but my grandpa had stopped me. I regret so much in life and there is no escape from my thoughts or feelings. I sit in bed and stare at the ceiling hoping for a miracle. I just want to scream for help because I hate these feelings but I know if I do nothing will happen and it will just make me feel worse.. I just want to be gone and not here. I don't want to hurt anyone by doing it but I'm hurting myself by not.







